Omg I Need To Vent !!!!!!!! Omg !!!

[Marcellacml]

..Just checking in to see how your doing.

[asil61999]

my heart and prayers go out to you and your family over your loss. find comfort in knowing how much you loved your yorkie. God will look over you and continue to comfort you in your time of need. God Bless

[ssmiles1980A]

i wanted to take some time to write to you all, but i needed today to grieve, im still in a state of shock over this whole situation, i cant seem to swallow the fact yet that my baby girl is gone, i loved her so so much, she was such a happy, healthy Little girl , sweet beyond words . all i can think about is her, i feel like i see her everywhere in the house, she was just so beautiful and precious , i was so lucky and grateful to have her, she was my perfect little baby girl .... she was always happy , she always made me smile, i loved her with all my heart, i know accidents happen, but this was one tragic heartbreaking accident .... i can not stop crying, i just miss her so much, i just wanted her home with mommy and daddy . i got to hold her and kiss her as she went, my poor little ella, all i can think of is she is no longer going to suffer and that she is in heaven now, its just so not fair, she deserved to live a long life and she was only 10 weeks .....i will forever feel guilty, i know in time the pain will ease and the crying will end, i just want it to be soon, because the pain is so painful, my heart literally feels broken, a piece of me will forever be missing, i just want her back at home with me .
I want you all to know that even though i dont know most of you, you will all forever be in my thoughts and heart . ella was one very very lucky little girl to have SO many of you thinking about us and caring and most of all praying for her , i never in a million years thought i would get the support i had on Yorkietalk . You all have touched my heart and the kindness of all of you will never ever be forgotton . To each and every single one of you, Thank you from the very bottom of my heart and soul for all the support that was givin to baby ella .
The pain right now is just so physically and emotionally painful, i feel like i cant breathe, i feel like i will wake up tomorrow and maybe this was all a bad dream and i will have my baby girl back .... I know that will never happen, i know she is gone now, and i know she knew how much we loved her , i will never forget holding her at the end, i will forever miss my little girl, she is now our little angel looking down on us . I just hope she can forgive me .... i hope one day i can forgive myself, i know its all a matter of "time"

time ... time ... time ......

ella was one strong little girl, she fought her little butt off, i was praying she would be my miracle, but i guess someone else up there had a different plan for her .....i hope she is playing and loving life wherever she is, and i hope she knew how much i loved her, she will forever be missed and in my heart and soul forever . Well im going to stop typing right now, its just too much right now, and the pain is just too overwhelming . To each and every single one of you AGAIN, Thank you , Thank you for EVERYTHING, i will never ever forget you all, you are wonderful, kind people . I wish i could hug every single one of you and thank you personally .

Rest in peace my little angel, i love you ella with all my heart and soul .

[YorkieMom55]

Love and hugs to you both.

[shalynn65]

I just read the horrible news. I am so VERY sorry. You all fought so hard. She was such a little trooper and we all loved and cared about her so much. May she rest in peace and may your heart mend soon. You are in each and every one of our thoughts. Take care and know you are truely cared about by many of us.

[dcelmo]

Originally Posted by ssmiles1980A

I Wish I Had Something Else To Say But I Dont ... She Is Gone ....i Wish I Could Type More But I Just Cant Im Just Dying Inside Right Now, I Lost My Little Girl ... I Have To Get Off Her Its Too Much Right To Type Or Talk About Her

I am so sorry for your loss. Just know that each and everyone one of us has cried with you and felt your pain. As you said, time is the only healer. Give yourself a hug from me!
Debbie

[Brookef18]

So sorry for your loss... I know there is nothing any one can say. My heart breaks for you and your boy friend.

[stedmansmommy]

Oh my GOODNESS....girl...I am soooo sooooo sorry. I cannot even put into words how SORRY I am. I am literally sitting here BAWLING my eyes out after reading your last post. I am so so so so sorry that your little baby Ella didn't make it - but she is in a much better place, and completely and TOTALLY free of pain now. She is playing with all the other angel baby's at The Rainbow Bride. I have one up there too, and I just KNOW that they are there, together...happy, pain free, and playing with each other - looking down on us. You take care of yourself sweetie, and I promise, time will ease your pain.

PLEASE know that my heart goes out to you (and your boyfriend as well) and sweet little baby Bella.

Also, my husband wanted me to post for him and say how terribly SORRY he is to hear this news. I told him about little Bella's story and it REALLY did pull at his heart strings too. We are both, extremely, extremely so very sorry.

From the bottom of our hearts, God Bless you sweetie

[omega]

My heart is just aching thinking of the pain you are in. I'm so sorry. Ten weeks is such a short time but we love them so quickly and so totally. Please take care of yourself and lean on friends or family if they are available, ok? We are always here, too.

Blessings to you,
omega

[ChiliPepper]

I am So sorry for your loss, the tears for your sorrow are clouding my vision as I try to send you this message. I know the pain you are feeling because I recently went through the loss of my beloved Pepper who was here giving me love and joy for 12.5 years and the loss is devastating even now thats its been a little over a month. Know she loved you and she knows you loved and cared for her as best you could. SHe will always love you. Again, my deepest sympathy to you and your boyfriend.

[joy and bella]

ssmiles1980A.....when i read your most recent post i started crying so hard. i just wanted to say i am soo sorry again, and if there is anything i can do to help please let me know. i know for sure little ella is in heaven and she is soo happy. she is no longer in pain, and she is going to forever be an angel watching over you and your boyfriend. i know it is hard right now, but i am sure she forgives you for what happened, actually i doubt she ever even needed to forgive you. i know she was so grateful for the home you gave her, and all the love she had from you both!!! she was such a lucky girl to have you, one of the luckiest. again, i am sooo sorry, but try to remember that that wonderful baby girl is in heaven watching down on you and smiling!!!

[Baby Blessing]

Originally Posted by ssmiles1980A

Rest in peace my little angel, i love you ella with all my heart and soul .

Dear Aubrey and Will, We are so so sorry for you both. I pm'd you, received a message saying your box was full so not sure if you will get the message I sent. I wrote a poem for you both and later when the time is right and you would like for me to send it please pm me and I will. We share in the pain you are feeling, as many others here also can relate what it is to endure having to give back a precious one to the Lord. Jack and I pray that you will find comfort in knowing God's plan for us all. Sending you a big hug, Little Ella was so very Blessed to have you both.
Patti & Jack

[Tinker'sMommy]

OMG!! I am soooo sorry I feel so bad for you, and poor Little Ella, I hope your heart heal soon. Little Ella will never be forgotten

[Julz]

yes Aubrey, time. ...time ...time. I can tell you loved that little girl with all of your heart. The time she had with you must of made her heart fill like bursting with love for you and Will. I know the physical pain in your heart, chest and throat that you are feeling right now. I pray that it lessens with each new day. ...time. Time will eventually heal your broken heart. It doesn't seem like it can possibly happen, but it will...even if you don't want it to. I sense that you are a bright and loving person. If I could ask of you one thing it would be to please don't beat yourself up over this. It is our nature to do so. However, it really doesn't help or change anything. I hope you find yourself smiling when thinking of Ella soon. That first smile will let you know your heart is taking the journey of healing. God Bless

[LuvMySissy]

Aubrey, I'm with Joy when she says tears are streaming down my face as I read through your recent post.

I know there are no words or deeds that can ease your pain right now - and probably nothing anyone can really do for you, but I am here if you need me. I was touched by Ella's little face and will always remember this little special little girl.