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cuzio23 · 03-13-2008, 11:24 AM

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Originally Posted by cariblonde

I am going to my dr tomorrow to get somethig to help me sleep..... plus some medical tests

I just cant believe this....

I am so sorry to read all this! As hard as it sounds (and I even feel dumb for saying it because I couldn't imagine what you are feeling like right now), but just try and remember to keep your head up high...YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!!

a2luckygirl · 03-13-2008, 11:37 AM

I like the blonde, I'd try a med/ dk blonde w/ highlights!

cariblonde · 03-13-2008, 11:41 AM

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Originally Posted by a2luckygirl

I like the blonde, I'd try a med/ dk blonde w/ highlights!

I think you posted in the wrong thread

thanks though you made me smile

AngelWorks · 03-13-2008, 11:46 AM

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Originally Posted by cariblonde

I dont think he put them on there witht he intention of me finding them b/c he is trying to deny they are even him, I mean come on I've been his wife for ten years I know what his body looks like, I told him tuesday night after i found those i wanted a divorce and i feel like that is the right decision for me

I think he has a porn addiction that led to this, I have turned my head for a while now when i would see in the browser history teen porn sites and credit card charges for hotlines and porn chat I think the photos were used for his profile on one of the sites... I cant access his page b/c I dont know his password and user name but I could tell what kind of site it was its like match.com but instead of romantic relationships its used solely for (well you know) I have just put up with too much over the past 10 years including an affair with a 15 year old girl (that was a loong time ago i was only 17 at the time) but i thought we had moved on from all that and were finally going to make it work

I was right where you are 9 years ago. I had been with him 17 years & married for 14.

I was 38.

I know the emptiness and devastation you are feeling. As if the world has slipped away and your feet have no where to take hold. Nothing at all feels safe or secure any more.

I lost 30 pounds in as many days.

I couldn't sleep more than 4 hours a night.

About month three, I turned a corner. I decided I needed to start moving forward in my new and very different reality or I risked being a bitter, lonely woman.

I never looked back and could not believe the strength that became mine again.

I have been married to a wonderful man now for 6 years.

Someday you will be able to write the next chapters of what comes after today.

Keep looking forward.

Tiggerwit · 03-13-2008, 11:48 AM

I'm so so sorry. My ex liked to look at pictures on the computer also, I also found porn videos in the gun safe one time when he left it open. I was devastated. (none were of him though pics or video, just porn). I always feared that my kids would find the computer stuff.

It's hard because it made me feel so bad about myself. That I wasn't enough and he needed to turn that kind of a thing.

Big hugs. You will be okay.

hha · 03-13-2008, 12:00 PM

I really don't think it means he doesn't love you..this is a skickness and it happens to more men than you could/would imagine..he needs some help..

a2luckygirl · 03-13-2008, 12:41 PM

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Originally Posted by cariblonde

I think you posted in the wrong thread

thanks though you made me smile

yes, I did- i do not know why keeps jumping back it seems??Maybe one more bad thing, to go wrong!! The dishwasher leaked all over the floor last nite!!!! It is about 1 yr old- sure th warrenty just went out last week!! LOL
Glad I made you smile, though!!

Believe me, I have been right where you are! I thought i'd die!! But when I was DONE, I WAS DONE!!! i MISSED MY HOME, BUT NEVER MISSED THAT LOW LIFE sob i LIVED WITH FOR 8+ YEARS not 1 min. And I thought I could not live with out him! No, I could not live with him.

Once you get all through this- AND IT IS VERY HARD- you will be much, much more at peace in your life!
I didn't believe this either- but i KNOW IT KNOW!
The peace, secureity, in life you will find- will be more than you could ever imagine!
And remember- our happiness comes from somewhat at being at peace with yourself!!
The very best of wishes for you! You are going to be just fine!!!

TommiGirl · 03-13-2008, 12:55 PM

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Originally Posted by cariblonde

I dont think he put them on there witht he intention of me finding them b/c he is trying to deny they are even him, I mean come on I've been his wife for ten years I know what his body looks like,

You have married since you were 15?
Maybe you both were too young for such a long commitment?
Is he 25 also?

You are still young enough to start a whole new life and forget what this creep did to you.

Bless your heart!

BellieBoo · 03-13-2008, 12:56 PM

i haven't been in your situation, but you are in my prayers, i hope you find the strength you need, and you know you can always come to us here at YT... hope everything works out for the best, and do what is best for You... be strong...

LuvmyYorkies2 · 03-13-2008, 01:09 PM

It was very brave and nobel of you to forgive him the first time..you are a strong person and he should have been grateful just to have you...unfortunately some don't see the "second chance" and make the necessary changes in their lives.

I pray you have a good support system around you (of course you have us

). My girlfriend went thru similar heartache and battled depression. We were with her all the way through it all and today, she and her kids are happier than ever! It's understandable to feel hurt, depressed & lonely during this time. Let out your feelings and with the support & time, the healing will begin.

Big hugs to you!

cindy0721 · 03-13-2008, 01:49 PM

check your cookies... this has always worked for me.. been there done that.. even the most savy pc users always forget this part....

Connie · 03-13-2008, 02:09 PM

You've been on my mind so much and my heart just aches for you. What a terrible blow for you...I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this and I'll be praying for you. *HUG*

cariblonde · 03-13-2008, 02:42 PM

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Originally Posted by TommiGirl

You have married since you were 15?
Maybe you both were too young for such a long commitment?
Is he 25 also?

You are still young enough to start a whole new life and forget what this creep did to you.

Bless your heart!

yea i was 15! crazy huh? at the time it didnt seem that way i was 5 months preg when we got married and he was 18 and I was so proud of the fact that we came so far..

cariblonde · 03-13-2008, 02:43 PM

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Originally Posted by cindy0721

check your cookies... this has always worked for me.. been there done that.. even the most savy pc users always forget this part....

how do you do that? so not a techie.. Obviously

Shadow · 03-13-2008, 02:52 PM

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03-13-2008, 11:37 AM	#92
a2luckygirl YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: HASTINGS, NE- 4 NOW!!! Posts: 2,208	I like the blonde, I'd try a med/ dk blonde w/ highlights! __________________ :I PLAYING....THE BANJO........ AND KISSING MY MOMMY:kiss3

03-13-2008, 11:48 AM	#95
Tiggerwit Just me 'n my boys Donating Member Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: Murphy, TX Posts: 4,596	I'm so so sorry. My ex liked to look at pictures on the computer also, I also found porn videos in the gun safe one time when he left it open. I was devastated. (none were of him though pics or video, just porn). I always feared that my kids would find the computer stuff. It's hard because it made me feel so bad about myself. That I wasn't enough and he needed to turn that kind of a thing. Big hugs. You will be okay. __________________ "Be kinder than necessary, for everyone is fighting some kind of battle." Alphy 's Roxy

03-13-2008, 12:56 PM	#99
BellieBoo YT 500 Club Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: Weston, FL Posts: 745	i haven't been in your situation, but you are in my prayers, i hope you find the strength you need, and you know you can always come to us here at YT... hope everything works out for the best, and do what is best for You... be strong... __________________ Nicole and Belleproud member ofink,crazy,smack-dab-in-the-middle clubs&Secretary of SRC BellieBuddy YT Record Breaker4/13/08 9:30 EST

03-13-2008, 01:09 PM	#100
LuvmyYorkies2 Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Southern Maryland Posts: 1,739	It was very brave and nobel of you to forgive him the first time..you are a strong person and he should have been grateful just to have you...unfortunately some don't see the "second chance" and make the necessary changes in their lives. I pray you have a good support system around you (of course you have us ). My girlfriend went thru similar heartache and battled depression. We were with her all the way through it all and today, she and her kids are happier than ever! It's understandable to feel hurt, depressed & lonely during this time. Let out your feelings and with the support & time, the healing will begin. Big hugs to you! __________________ Yolanda I Love My Girls Diva & Foxxy & Lexi

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cindy0721 Always In My Heart Donating Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: The Lone Star State Posts: 3,393	check your cookies... this has always worked for me.. been there done that.. even the most savy pc users always forget this part.... __________________ Cindy & Gizmo Gizmo on Dogster *Rest in peace My Madda* *very much*

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03-13-2008, 02:09 PM	#102
Connie Loved by Maddie & Libby Donating Member Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: North Dakota Posts: 10,732	You've been on my mind so much and my heart just aches for you. What a terrible blow for you...I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this and I'll be praying for you. HUG __________________ Custom doggie dresses and vests Memory is a country where I can go to see your face - but where do I go when I miss your embrace?

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