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Originally Posted by cariblonde  I dont think he put them on there witht he intention of me finding them b/c he is trying to deny they are even him, I mean come on I've been his wife for ten years I know what his body looks like, I told him tuesday night after i found those i wanted a divorce and i feel like that is the right decision for me  I think he has a porn addiction that led to this, I have turned my head for a while now when i would see in the browser history teen porn sites and credit card charges for hotlines and porn chat I think the photos were used for his profile on one of the sites... I cant access his page b/c I dont know his password and user name but I could tell what kind of site it was its like match.com but instead of romantic relationships its used solely for (well you know) I have just put up with too much over the past 10 years including an affair with a 15 year old girl (that was a loong time ago i was only 17 at the time) but i thought we had moved on from all that and were finally going to make it work |
I was right where you are 9 years ago. I had been with him 17 years & married for 14.
I was 38.
I know the emptiness and devastation you are feeling. As if the world has slipped away and your feet have no where to take hold. Nothing at all feels safe or secure any more.
I lost 30 pounds in as many days.
I couldn't sleep more than 4 hours a night.
About month three, I turned a corner. I decided I needed to start moving forward in my new and very different reality or I risked being a bitter, lonely woman.
I never looked back and could not believe the strength that became mine again.
I have been married to a wonderful man now for 6 years.
Someday you will be able to write the next chapters of what comes after today.
Keep looking forward.