I lost my sweet Lucy today, and I'm hurting so bad.

[KimInMD]

One year and ten months ago, I came to Yorkie Talk for the first time, as a sad newbie needing guidance about Lucy, a sweet senior dog I found running down a cold, snowy road, late one night. Lucy was deaf, had rotten teeth, dementia, cancerous mammary tumors, and kidney disease. In my eyes, she was perfect. I came here to ask questions, get advice, and learn what I needed to do to care for a senior Yorkie. Along the way, I made wonderful new friends, and grew to love the breed so much, that I became a foster mom for several Yorkies at our local rescue. My husband, (who didn't care for dogs at all), fell in love with Lucy, and the breed. We now have two additional Yorkies who have made their home in our hearts. One year and 10 months ago, my life changed forever because of that sweet little girl. She taught me to cherish every day we had together, and I did. She was patient, loyal and grateful for any kindness we showed her. She was my little princess, and I adored her. She brought so much joy to our lives and home. I never knew that I could love a little dog so much.
The vet said we did everything humanly possible to help her, and that her good care kept her going longer than most would have. I cooked all her meals, and hand fed her. She went out for walks 2x a day in her stroller. We traveled together, and she slept in bed next to me each night. We held her diseases at bay for as long as we could, but in the end, her kidneys failed her, and today I had to walk with her to the rainbow bridge. I feel as though my heart has been ripped to shreds. I thought I was ready for this day to come, but I know now, I was not. I am so grateful to God that He put Lucy in my life, and loaned her to me for 22 wonderful months. I think we had a longer time together because of all the wonderful information and advise I got here on Y.T. I know I did the right thing today, and I know she is at peace now, and pain free. I didn't know it would hurt this bad. I missed feeding her today at supper time. It felt so strange to walk without her in the stroller, with her harness and leash still lying in the basket by the door. Now it's hard to sleep without her here next to me in bed. I'm really hurting here.
Lucy, You have a family that loves you, and will cry for you and miss you. You were so special to us, and we were blessed to have you. Sleep peacefully, my sweet little princess.

[Yorkiemom1]

I cry with you over your loss of that precious little baby.....God truely sent her down that cold, dark, snowy road that day, to your precious, loving home and family.....she made a permanent difference in your lives, and what a wonderful difference you made in hers! She was sent to you by God, because He knew she was safest in your hands....and while we all talk about how courageous it is to realize when the time has come to walk with these precious babies, that long, final walk to Rainbow Bridge, my God, is there ANYTHING, short of the loss of a family member, that even comes close to the unbearable, searing pain and heartache you are going thru right now???? We try to be heros and do the right thing, and we silently, numbly step forward and go thru the motions, but OMG, it hurts!!!! Just cry, just cry until you can not cry any more....but you have to find a little peace and comfort in the fact that you loved that baby, and she adored you, and even though it is killing you to go thru this now, you STILL put her first and formost, and unselfishly walked thru hell now, for her, so she can rest in peace and wait for you at Rainbow Bridge. I am crying with you now....I remember your first post and it seems like only last month....cry and then sleep that restless, painful sleep we all sleep, but know she is peaceful and free from all her pain........

[yorkietalkjilly]

Oh, Kim, I'm so sorry. You knew it was coming - mommie's usually know these things and you did. I could tell from your earlier thread that you knew what was soon to happen and I know we all just prayed it would hold off. But as it didn't and your little sweetie, Lucy, has gone to her Rainbow Bridge, let me say how utterly sorry I am that she had to go at all. It's one of the tragedies of life that these precious beings known as our dogs can't stay with us. But it seems that while she was in your life at least Lucy did her very best to shine like a little star and grace you with her love and gentle spirit each and every day. I know she leaves a hole in your heart and a chasm in your life but I just pray that your pain over time becomes nothing but sweet, lingering memories of the good times. May God comfort your loss. {{{Hugs to you my sweet friend.}}}

[Marhcarter]

I am all teared up reading this. My heart goes out to you.

[kjc]

Aw Kim... I am so very sorry. God Bless you for taking her into your heart and showing her what true Love is all about. I feel your pain, and I am crying for you now. Call if you feel the need to talk. RIP Sweetest Lucy. Your Mommie will always love you! Hugs, Kathy

[enchilila]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Rest in peace, Lucy.

[Wallee]

My heart goes out to you Kim. You provided her with all the love and care she so deserved. I am sure that the short time you had with her was the best time of her life and allowed her to go in peace and full of love. She will be waiting for you at the Rainbow bridge.

[jadabug]

I remember when you came to YT with questions and seeking advice when you rescued Lucy, on that cold snowy night. I am so heartbroken for you and so thankful that the last 10 months of Lucy's life, she knew what it was like to have a family who loved her unconditionally and who gave her the life of a princess that she deserved.
I am so sorry for your loss and prayer that you will find peace soon.

[alaskayorkie]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish I had some magic words to take away your pain, but only time will do that.

I will say this: You get it. All any of us can do is to love our dogs while we have them. None of us knows what the future holds, so we need to love them every day as if it's their last. Your family obviously did that for 22 magical months. You made the last years of Lucy's the best years of her life, and she surely brought the same happiness to your life.

You will find a way to deal with the pain, and when you do you'll be rewarded by all the wonderful memories that Lucy gave you.

R.I.P., sweet Lucy. Your legacy is those memories that will live forever in all who knew you.

[mzw00dy]

So sorry you had to say good bye to her. Your Lucy and My Fizz are running together. I found my little Fizz running down the road at Easter time 3 years ago. He was with us a little over three months....we nursed him and in the end his Kidneys went too. But he was loved and he opened our hearts to the Yorkie breed as well. I will picture them together today, knowing they are running free

[rubynrosie]

The tears are rolling down my cheeks...what a wonderful tribute to Lucy. You were both very lucky to have each other and your love for Lucy shows in your words. I am so very sorry for your loss Kim. You sound like a phenomenal yorkie mom. I pray that your pain eases and that your memories of Lucy soon bring comfort. I know Lucy has a great bunch of yorkies waiting at The Bridge to help show her the ropes. RIP sweet Lucy.

[DBlain]

oh Kim no matter how long we have them it is never enough, sweet little Lucy how happy and comfortably secure you made her. Wish I was there to (((((hug))))) you.
She is now free of pain and with 20/20 vision watching down on your family.

[Verbena]

Tear roll down my face as I write this. You are a wonderful person to take in a senior dog who was let out in the cold. You showed Lucy that there is compassion in the world. And she loved you for it. She will be on the other side of the bridge waiting for you. Rest in peace Lucy. Hugs

[wisteria]

All of you were blessed to have found each other.

[rubymoon2072]

so very sorry for your loss. find comfort in knowing you gave her the best lasts years of her life. my thoughts are with you during this difficult time. rip sweet lucy.