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Juliealfies mum · 01-17-2013, 03:46 PM

Kim I'm so sorry for your loss of your little Lucy ,she will always have a place in your heart .

KimInMD · 01-17-2013, 08:00 PM

Thank you all for the comforting words. I had been doing so well, until we got back home to Maryland from Florida last night. Today house seems so different. The girls ran looking for her in all of her usual spots, and seemed confused that she wasn't there. I know things will get better every day, but I guess we are all still getting use to the "new normal". I keep expecting Lucy to run down the hall any minute. I miss that cute little wagging tail so much. Anyway, I do appreciate your kind words tonight. Isn't it neat how the kindness seems to come at just the moment it's needed most? That's more than just a coincidence. You've been a blessing today, friends!

My guy Charles · 01-18-2013, 06:55 AM

Kim,
I am sad and so sorry for your loss. We lost our Katie 4 years ago - she was 18. A day has not passed in those 4 years that I havent thought of her, missed her and often still cry for her. I waited 2 years to get my Charlie, who now fills my heart and brings me such love and joy. My Sweet Father (who passed away 3 months before Katie - so I was totally engulfed in grief!:-( ) always told me that "tomorrow is promised to no one" - and that goes for our beloved pets too.
The older I get, the more I realize how important in life it is to appreciate each and every day, cherish those you love and try to always do the right thing and from what I know about you, from this forum, you have mastered all of those things! You always handle life with such grace and you always inspire me. :-)
I will keep you in my prayers, that you find the peace and comfort that your hurting heart needs. From my own experiences, I can assure you, God and Father Time will take care of you.
Xxoo,
Janice

loveyorkiegirls · 01-18-2013, 07:56 AM

I am so sorry for your loss. RIP Sweet Lucy

tiffygirl2003 · 01-18-2013, 05:52 PM

Kim, my heart goes out to you. I know how difficult today must be for you but look at what you gave Lucy. You gave her life and love that only you could provide which is why she was sent to you. And in return, she provided companionship. You will always remember Lucy for the life lessons that she taught you and in her cute dog way she appreciated you for having saved her that cold dark night.

daisy511 · 02-03-2013, 05:55 AM

I have never felt this kind of pain in my whole life. Daisy was only 6 yrs old and has been sick on and off for several years. She was so strong and so brave and I can't believe she is gone.She has been my life and my best friend since I first saw her. I am so scared that this pain will never go away. I am having trouble remembering her happy face and can only see those last moments at the Vet..I don't want that. I want her back so bad, I want to hold her and kiss her one more time...how does anyone do this? Please help.Deb

Susan78 · 02-05-2013, 09:41 AM

I am so sorry to hear of Lucy going on over the RainBow bridge. She knew you loved her and did everything for her. It was a blessing you gave her a wonderful home and she knew it. Now she can meet my dear Keally in heaven and run free together. Hugs to you and bless you for the love you gave Lucy. Susan

SusieQ36305 · 02-22-2013, 04:05 PM

Lucy was so beautiful ! She was so blessed to have you find her down that snowy road that night. You were absolutely wonderful to her. You were truly "her" angel, too.

SusieQ36305 · 02-22-2013, 04:09 PM

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Originally Posted by daisy511

I have never felt this kind of pain in my whole life. Daisy was only 6 yrs old and has been sick on and off for several years. She was so strong and so brave and I can't believe she is gone.She has been my life and my best friend since I first saw her. I am so scared that this pain will never go away. I am having trouble remembering her happy face and can only see those last moments at the Vet..I don't want that. I want her back so bad, I want to hold her and kiss her one more time...how does anyone do this? Please help.Deb

I, too, am mourning my yorkie, Roxie. She ate a poisonous sago seed and died on January 26. I have never felt this awful pain, either, and some days I don't know how I can make it. The evenings and nights are the worse. Roxie was only three, so I know what you are talking about. Maybe we can all get through it together with support on here. I am not sure any of my friends really understand. It takes another yorkie person to know, I truly believe. God Bless You. I hope your pain lessens. If I can help, please let me know. Susie

rubynrosie · 02-22-2013, 04:21 PM

I so can relate...I lost my precious Lola in December of 2012. I still miss her but I promise guys...it does get better...allow yourselves to grieve how you need too! I found this website to be an awesome support for me. Association for Pet Loss and Bereavement

SusieQ36305 · 02-22-2013, 04:34 PM

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Originally Posted by rubynrosie

I so can relate...I lost my precious Lola in December of 2012. I still miss her but I promise guys...it does get better...allow yourselves to grieve how you need too! I found this website to be an awesome support for me. Association for Pet Loss and Bereavement

I thought I was getting better, but I seem to have backslidden or maybe the reality is really setting in.

Doodlebug · 02-22-2013, 05:34 PM

I am so sorry that you lost your baby Lucy. You made the final year Heaven for this little Angel. I am sorry for the loss of Daisy, Roxie, Lola, Katie and the others who are now little Angels. Their time with us is too short. Bless you all for giving these little treasures a wonderful life.

KimInMD · 02-23-2013, 10:09 PM

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Originally Posted by daisy511

I have never felt this kind of pain in my whole life. Daisy was only 6 yrs old and has been sick on and off for several years. She was so strong and so brave and I can't believe she is gone.She has been my life and my best friend since I first saw her. I am so scared that this pain will never go away. I am having trouble remembering her happy face and can only see those last moments at the Vet..I don't want that. I want her back so bad, I want to hold her and kiss her one more time...how does anyone do this? Please help.Deb

First of all, Deb, I didn't see your post until tonight. I am so very sorry for not responding sooner. I do care- really, I do! It sounds like there are quite a few of us who are still hurting. Yesterday, I wondered why Mia's St. Patrick's Day collar didn't fit her. Then it dawned on me, it wasn't Mia's collar, it was Lucy's collar. I turned into a blubbery mess. Oh, how I miss that sweet little furry face. I've been going through her things. It's hard to decide what to keep, what to give away, and what to let the other pups have. There are memories everywhere I look.
Last week I got her ashes back. I live in Maryland, and Lucy died in Florida. The ashes came in a little cardboard box. Her ashes were just laying there in a plastic bag with a rubber band wrapped around it. I felt physically sick. Sending them like that was so mean, cruel and insensitive. She deserved so much more than that. Ladies, I don't think this ache is going to go away for a very long time. I know it will get better with time, but right now, it's still very raw. Most of my friends do not understand. Lucy came along during a rough patch in my life. I was so blessed to have that sweet baby. I know I won't give in to the should of, could of, and would of that bombard me daily, and tries to rob me of the precious, happy memories, but I'm also taking all the time I need to grieve my little angel. The day she died is a nightmare burned in my brain. But that was just one day, and that one day does not define the joy I had with her during the other 659 days we were together. To make her death my key memory is unfair to her. My memories have to be the quiet times, the silly times, the playful moments, the head tilt, the puppy dog eyes and that adorable waggly tail. I'm choosing to remember the things she loved (and the things she didn't), the things that made her the happiest little pup on the planet. I'm choosing to remember, so that I'll never forget. Janice, I'm so sorry for your loss of Katie. Deb, I'm so sorry for your loss of Daisy. Susan, I'm so sorry for your loss of Keally. Susie, I am so sorry for your loss of Roxie. RubynRosie, I'm so sorry for the loss of your Lola. It does help to know that there are others who understand and care. And again, Deb, I'm sorry I didn't catch your post earlier. I feel so bad about that. Thank you, everyone for your kind words of sympathy. My YT sisters are just the best!

SusieQ36305 · 02-24-2013, 07:59 AM

Kim, I am so verry sorry about Lucy. I know exactly how you feel. Lucy was a beauty and you and she were each other's angels. She was so lucky that you found her down that snowy road. I know how you feel about the day she died being burned into your brain. Roxie got sick after the eating the sago seed on a Tuesday night and from then until Saturday morning when she passed away is burned into mine. But, as you said we should not make that be our memories. Our memories are so much more and in time, I think we will be able to see that. Roxie was my "heart" dog, I don't know if I will ever love another that way again. There was just something so very special about her. She was the sweetest, happiest little dog I have ever had. I have adopted another baby girl, Penny, who is around two years old, the vet said. She was part of a breeding nightmare and she and I both needed each other, too. I keep comparing her to Roxie and I know that I should not, each has their own unique personality. Penny is not as loving, but she has had a very hard life and it's going to take some time to overcome her past. My husband even thinks she might have been abused at some point. So sad that anyone could not treat one of these little things that way.

I am having a really hard time with the guilty that I feel about not knowing about the sago palm in our backyard. I should have known about it or at the very least connected the dots when Roxie started to get sick that night and the shell and seed I found earlier that evening. That is something I have to live with and it is very hard. I should have kept her safe. I would give my soul to have a do-over of that. But, sadly, from what I have read and heard, even if I known when I got home, the damage was probably already done and even if she had miraculously lived, she probably would have always had liver damage and problems. To have known that she wouldn't be able to run and play like she wanted would have been hell on earth for her and me, too.

I think maybe we all can be each other's strength because we all truly understand what we are going through.

SusieQ36305 · 02-24-2013, 08:21 AM

For any of you who are interested and may not know, I found a website that is for pet memorials. The link is below. You can light candles, post pictures and memories on the website. It's free, too. I light a candle for Roxie almost daily, sometimes twice daily and I get to write down a little of how I am feeling at that moment. Here is the link:

Pet Memorial Website. Free Online Memorial for your loved Pets.

01-17-2013, 03:46 PM	#61
Juliealfies mum YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: scotland Posts: 2,224	Kim I'm so sorry for your loss of your little Lucy ,she will always have a place in your heart . __________________ From Julie Alfie & Lottie

01-17-2013, 08:00 PM	#62
KimInMD Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Baltimore, MD. Posts: 1,078	Thank you all for the comforting words. I had been doing so well, until we got back home to Maryland from Florida last night. Today house seems so different. The girls ran looking for her in all of her usual spots, and seemed confused that she wasn't there. I know things will get better every day, but I guess we are all still getting use to the "new normal". I keep expecting Lucy to run down the hall any minute. I miss that cute little wagging tail so much. Anyway, I do appreciate your kind words tonight. Isn't it neat how the kindness seems to come at just the moment it's needed most? That's more than just a coincidence. You've been a blessing today, friends! __________________ Kim- Mom to Lola, Mia, Allie, and Lucy, always in my heart

02-03-2013, 05:55 AM	#66
daisy511 YorkieTalk Newbie! Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: ambler Posts: 2	Just lost my beautiful Daisy I have never felt this kind of pain in my whole life. Daisy was only 6 yrs old and has been sick on and off for several years. She was so strong and so brave and I can't believe she is gone.She has been my life and my best friend since I first saw her. I am so scared that this pain will never go away. I am having trouble remembering her happy face and can only see those last moments at the Vet..I don't want that. I want her back so bad, I want to hold her and kiss her one more time...how does anyone do this? Please help.Deb

02-22-2013, 04:05 PM	#68
SusieQ36305 No Longer a Member Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: Dothan, Alabama Posts: 176	You were a great Mom! Lucy was so beautiful ! She was so blessed to have you find her down that snowy road that night. You were absolutely wonderful to her. You were truly "her" angel, too.

02-22-2013, 04:21 PM	#70
rubynrosie Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Aug 2012 Location: ada mn usa Posts: 1,362	I so can relate...I lost my precious Lola in December of 2012. I still miss her but I promise guys...it does get better...allow yourselves to grieve how you need too! I found this website to be an awesome support for me. Association for Pet Loss and Bereavement __________________ Bobbi and her two favorite girls...Ruby-Sioux and Rosie Too . We you Lola Marlene Bubbles

01-18-2013, 06:55 AM	#63
My guy Charles Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: Home Sweet Home Posts: 174	Kim, I am sad and so sorry for your loss. We lost our Katie 4 years ago - she was 18. A day has not passed in those 4 years that I havent thought of her, missed her and often still cry for her. I waited 2 years to get my Charlie, who now fills my heart and brings me such love and joy. My Sweet Father (who passed away 3 months before Katie - so I was totally engulfed in grief!:-( ) always told me that "tomorrow is promised to no one" - and that goes for our beloved pets too. The older I get, the more I realize how important in life it is to appreciate each and every day, cherish those you love and try to always do the right thing and from what I know about you, from this forum, you have mastered all of those things! You always handle life with such grace and you always inspire me. :-) I will keep you in my prayers, that you find the peace and comfort that your hurting heart needs. From my own experiences, I can assure you, God and Father Time will take care of you. Xxoo, Janice

01-18-2013, 07:56 AM	#64
loveyorkiegirls YT 3000 Club Member Join Date: May 2010 Location: Yorkielicious Town Posts: 4,237	I am so sorry for your loss. RIP Sweet Lucy

01-18-2013, 05:52 PM	#65
tiffygirl2003 Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Jul 2012 Location: Highland, Ca. USA Posts: 96	Kim, my heart goes out to you. I know how difficult today must be for you but look at what you gave Lucy. You gave her life and love that only you could provide which is why she was sent to you. And in return, she provided companionship. You will always remember Lucy for the life lessons that she taught you and in her cute dog way she appreciated you for having saved her that cold dark night.

02-05-2013, 09:41 AM	#67
Susan78 YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Hibbing Minnesota Posts: 1,107	I am so sorry to hear of Lucy going on over the RainBow bridge. She knew you loved her and did everything for her. It was a blessing you gave her a wonderful home and she knew it. Now she can meet my dear Keally in heaven and run free together. Hugs to you and bless you for the love you gave Lucy. Susan

02-22-2013, 05:34 PM	#72
Doodlebug ♥Love My Puppies!♥ Donating Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: US Posts: 5,786	I am so sorry that you lost your baby Lucy. You made the final year Heaven for this little Angel. I am sorry for the loss of Daisy, Roxie, Lola, Katie and the others who are now little Angels. Their time with us is too short. Bless you all for giving these little treasures a wonderful life. __________________ RIP My Sweet Darling Angel Daisy 08/09/03 - 10/02/15, RIP My Sweet Baby Boy Teddy Bear 02/01/04 - 02/11/16 Photos HERE

02-24-2013, 07:59 AM	#74
SusieQ36305 No Longer a Member Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: Dothan, Alabama Posts: 176	What a sweet reply Kim, I am so verry sorry about Lucy. I know exactly how you feel. Lucy was a beauty and you and she were each other's angels. She was so lucky that you found her down that snowy road. I know how you feel about the day she died being burned into your brain. Roxie got sick after the eating the sago seed on a Tuesday night and from then until Saturday morning when she passed away is burned into mine. But, as you said we should not make that be our memories. Our memories are so much more and in time, I think we will be able to see that. Roxie was my "heart" dog, I don't know if I will ever love another that way again. There was just something so very special about her. She was the sweetest, happiest little dog I have ever had. I have adopted another baby girl, Penny, who is around two years old, the vet said. She was part of a breeding nightmare and she and I both needed each other, too. I keep comparing her to Roxie and I know that I should not, each has their own unique personality. Penny is not as loving, but she has had a very hard life and it's going to take some time to overcome her past. My husband even thinks she might have been abused at some point. So sad that anyone could not treat one of these little things that way. I am having a really hard time with the guilty that I feel about not knowing about the sago palm in our backyard. I should have known about it or at the very least connected the dots when Roxie started to get sick that night and the shell and seed I found earlier that evening. That is something I have to live with and it is very hard. I should have kept her safe. I would give my soul to have a do-over of that. But, sadly, from what I have read and heard, even if I known when I got home, the damage was probably already done and even if she had miraculously lived, she probably would have always had liver damage and problems. To have known that she wouldn't be able to run and play like she wanted would have been hell on earth for her and me, too. I think maybe we all can be each other's strength because we all truly understand what we are going through.

02-24-2013, 08:21 AM	#75
SusieQ36305 No Longer a Member Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: Dothan, Alabama Posts: 176	Memorial For any of you who are interested and may not know, I found a website that is for pet memorials. The link is below. You can light candles, post pictures and memories on the website. It's free, too. I light a candle for Roxie almost daily, sometimes twice daily and I get to write down a little of how I am feeling at that moment. Here is the link: Pet Memorial Website. Free Online Memorial for your loved Pets.