Would appreciate your prayers

[BlondieGirl87]

I wasn't going to post about this because I didn't want people to think I was trying to have people feel bad for me or like I was being a sob story or trying to dump my problems on other people but I'd really appreciate your thoughts and prayers. These past few weeks have been really hard for me. First with the news that my Grandmother had cancer and her diagnosis hasn't gotten any better at all. She refuses to take treatment and at her age I really don't blame her but its so hard to watch her go through all of this. Her hair is starting to fall out and she gets nausous all the time. She recently had to go into the hospital due to some stomache issues and from falling in the middle of the night when she went to go to the bathroom. They said due to her age and being so fragile they did not want to risk moving her back home so I've been going to and from the hospital for her and she hates being there, she doesn't like Doctores at all. They are relasing her to come back home on Tuesday and hopefully sometime soon I will be able to get both of us up to be with my Mother. Besides that my fiance and I are no longer engaged, out of respect to him and people who may know him that visit this board I won't say what happened but we're no longer getting married and I am left to cancel the wedding and explain things to everyone. The final nail was last night when I got a call from my Mother who told me that she now has a reoccurance of breast cancer.

She had cancer many years ago when I was a little girl and went through chemo and radiation and recovered and now it has come back We've never had a great relationship but things were just starting to get better and now this. Cancer runs in my family, my great grandmother died from it and so did my Uncle...if I could, I wish I could take this disease for both of them.

I am not a person who likes to complain or have a pity party for myself. I am blessed in so many ways. I feel so bad sometimes when I am feeling down or sad because there are so many good things in my life...like Jaden and Jewelina and I can tell Jaden and Jewelina can feel it when I'm sad and it makes them sad too.

Anyway, all of that to say, life's just tough right now and I would just really appreciate your prayers and thoughts for me and my family. I try to have hope that things can work out for the best, sometimes it's just hard to see that when you're stuck going through them and can't see how it will end.

Thank you to all of you for all of your support! You guys have helped me more than you could ever possibly know...

Hugs to you all!

[LuvMySissy]

Joy - Know that we are here for you for whatever you need. There are times in life when you need others and this is most definitely a time for you. Please don't keep it to yourself - talk, talk, talk and we'll listen, and send hugs and prayers.

As far as calling off the engagement, please don't worry what anyone will think. You have to do what you think is best for you. I hope that your mom is able to fight her cancer again and that you can find a relationship with her that brings you comfort. And that your grandmother doesn't suffer too much.

Let Jaden and Jewelina give you lots of hugs and kisses and lots of reasons to smile.

PM me anytime.

[cj125]

Hey BlondieGirl87... I'm sending you love, hugs and all the best thoughts that I can. I understand where you're coming from. I don't know how old you are or how long you were in this relationship, but you sound like one heck of great gal and I would think that any guy would be lucky to be dating you. You have some health issues with your family right now - if that's caused a problem - well then "let the bird flY". If this was meant to be - it will be. But for now... keep things positive, for your family and yourself. Family IS important. Try not to stress out about it and just focus on what you can do. Have faith in yourself and pray.
Wishing the BEST for you!!!
Connie

[Zeus' Mom]

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through so much. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

[Jenn218]

Oh, Joy!!! I am soooooo sorry that you are going through all of this!

Anytime you need to chat or anything, just PM OR you can always post and know that you have a wonderful support group of YT friends and family here!

You are all in our thoughts and prayers!!!

[BlondieGirl87]

Thank you all for all of your thoughts, prayers and support. It means so much to me...I called the engagement off after recieving some information about my fiance and my best girlfriend...and I'll just leave it at that and won't go into details. It was shocking to say the least and consider we were getting married and a few more months it was a big blow
I'm trying to move on past it though and just look on and take things day by day. I just turned 19 this past October so I know I've got a lot more ahead of me and one day I'll look back on this time and be thankful for it for all the things it taught me and how strong it made me...

[RoxyJosMom]

I am so sorry you and your family are dealing with so much heartache right now. You are young and as hard as it is, you need to be strong for them. They need you as much as you need them. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. Just remember, things have a way of working out. It may be tough, but you sound strong and you will survive it. Hugs to you, sweetie.

[doortego]

Praying that God will strengthen you during all of your trials. May His peace calm your heart and give you hope.

[YorkieMom55]

For you for strength and for your pain
For your Grandmother for comfort
For your Mother for healing
For their Doctor's for wisdom
It's so hard when you have so much going on with your own relationships and then there's others in the family that need you to be there for them. You can do it. Just remember to take time to renew yourself (your mind, body and soul) when things start to feel overwhelming.
There are so many good people here. You can have family and you can have friends, but remember that there is a community of people here, many you have never met, who care for you, feel for you, and will pray for you. We don't ever need to know the "why". You know and God knows.

[Connie]

I'm so glad you decided to post this. You need and deserve good thoughts and prayers from YT'ers. As you know, I am getting much support from here at this time and each and every message makes me thankful for friends.

I've been praying for you, your mom and your grandma and will continue to do so. One thing I did tonight was put my mom's name on many prayer requests on the internet. I did that when my sister had cancer and she was healed!

I'm also so sorry for your break-up with your boyfriend. That is a hard blow to take. Sending warm hugs and lots of love from Maddie and I.

[joy and bella]

I just wanted to say that i am soooo sorry you are going through all of this. i am praying for your mom and grandma!!!! lots of prayers and hugs for you i know it is sooo hard right now to be strong and you prob feel like everything is a mess, but just trust in God and i promise everything will work out!! i am so sorry to hear about your fiance, what a jerk, and that friend is just horrible....i always try to find the positive in bad situations, so i guess the best thing is that you found out before you married him, and now you have a chance to find someone who deserves you!!! i will be praying for you and your family lots...so sorry this is happening!!!

[Dragonfly]

I will pray for your grandmother & mother and yourself...It sounds to me that you love them very much. Please take care of your self causethey are going to need you more. God bless you!! Prayers are going up.