I wasn't going to post about this because I didn't want people to think I was trying to have people feel bad for me or like I was being a sob story or trying to dump my problems on other people but I'd really appreciate your thoughts and prayers. These past few weeks have been really hard for me. First with the news that my Grandmother had cancer and her diagnosis hasn't gotten any better at all. She refuses to take treatment and at her age I really don't blame her but its so hard to watch her go through all of this. Her hair is starting to fall out and she gets nausous all the time. She recently had to go into the hospital due to some stomache issues and from falling in the middle of the night when she went to go to the bathroom. They said due to her age and being so fragile they did not want to risk moving her back home so I've been going to and from the hospital for her and she hates being there, she doesn't like Doctores at all. They are relasing her to come back home on Tuesday and hopefully sometime soon I will be able to get both of us up to be with my Mother. Besides that my fiance and I are no longer engaged, out of respect to him and people who may know him that visit this board I won't say what happened but we're no longer getting married and I am left to cancel the wedding and explain things to everyone. The final nail was last night when I got a call from my Mother who told me that she now has a reoccurance of breast cancer.
She had cancer many years ago when I was a little girl and went through chemo and radiation and recovered and now it has come back
We've never had a great relationship but things were just starting to get better and now this.
Cancer runs in my family, my great grandmother died from it and so did my Uncle...if I could, I wish I could take this disease for both of them.
I am not a person who likes to complain or have a pity party for myself. I am blessed in so many ways. I feel so bad sometimes when I am feeling down or sad because there are so many good things in my life...like Jaden and Jewelina and I can tell Jaden and Jewelina can feel it when I'm sad and it makes them sad too.
Anyway, all of that to say, life's just tough right now and I would just really appreciate your prayers and thoughts for me and my family. I try to have hope that things can work out for the best, sometimes it's just hard to see that when you're stuck going through them and can't see how it will end.
Thank you to all of you for all of your support! You guys have helped me more than you could ever possibly know...
Hugs to you all!