Mouse 2005 - 2007

[DONNADEE]

Not Exactly, my dog freckles was a springer spaniel, he loved to run,i opened the door to the house and he took off,a vehicle came flying down the road and hit him,by the time i got to the vet he was gone,i screamed and sceamed in the vet office my baby,my baby,he was the first baby that was mine just mine,it hit me hard, so about three days later i was of course still grieving laying down when my nephew and sister came in with this big pocket book which he knows i like big purses and when gave me the purse a little head popped out it was a baby boy yorkie with his little ears that was bigger than his head looking at me,i fell in love instantly with my kaycee who now is eight years old,He was a puppy where freckles was 3 years old and i got him from a rescue just a year before he passed,my kaycee is my comforter,such a joy and also i breeded him with a friends yorkie when he was four i got one of
his babys my abbey, he is so good when she was a baby she actually hung from his ears ,he lets her do anything to him. just want to ley you know when your ready you will find love again but at the time i lst freckles my sister saw me grieving so much that she brought be my little love kaycee.
If you need to talk im here just pm me with your number or pm me and i will give you mine and some people do not understand that these babys are our children, i dont have any children,some people will never understand what love they give you thats a shame,i do know the hurt you feel when people and family say its just a dog, i beg to differ that have more love and i believe taught me to love unconditionally. pm him me i am here. Donna Dee

[Allan]

Yapper,

Like you, I lost my Yorkie (Zack) at way too young of an age. He was going to be two a couple of weeks before he died. I was (and still am) devastated by his loss. Zack was my best friend and no one truly understands why or how his death has hit my so hard (including my parents, wife and friends). Zack was always there for me, gave me unconditional love, and always cheered me up when I was sad. It does get easier as time goes by though. Not easy, mind you, just easier. I still get really sad and still miss Zack tremendously.

As for getting a new pet- when Zack first died (it happened on May 12, 2007), the thought of a new pet was the furthest thing from my mind. But, as time passed, I missed that bond and decided it was time to start looking. My wife wanted a lab rather than a Yorkie, so we started looked for a yellow female lab. We finally found a breeder we liked and then had to wait for our Yoyo to get old enough to come home. Well, about 1.5 weeks ago, it finally happened and we picked yoyo up! She is a wonderful, loving dog who likes nothing more than sitting with us and giving us sloppy puppy kisses. She is adorable and we both love her, but I still miss my Zack so much. I still talk to him and think about him. I don't think that will ever go away. But, Yoyo has helped. Here are some pics of our little Yoyo!

Allan

PS you can read more about Zack's death, as well as my reactions and feelings due to it in a thread I started on YT.

[Lexi Rae]

my heart goes out to.. im so sorry for your great loss...hugs

[Pipersmommy]

I am so sorry for your loss. I have thought of this happening many times. When I pull into the garage, I close the garage door before entering the house so they don't come running out & maybe take off down the street. When in my car, I carry them into the house after closing the garage door. Why? I'll tell you. I entered the garage after a Vets visit. Closed the garage door before letting them out to come into the house. Max my tiny 4 pounder ran under neath the car. I paniced! The muffler was hot & so was the under neath of the car. He could have burned himself badly. Thank God he didn't. I know we can't prevent all accidents from happening, but I believe your posting helps. Letting others know of the dangers that can take place. Again I'm sorry for your loss.

[Yapper]

Allen,
Thank you for the encouraging words. In fact I had read through your entire thread and that is what gave me the courage to post. I was blaming myself for this - the "if only's". Then my boyfriend said he had planned on replacing the garage door this year along with the opener (and sensors) but decided he'd rather take me on vacation. I will admit I had some anger. I'd give up all the vacations of a lifetime to have her back. I tried so hard to keep her safe. I felt like he was irresponsible.

Then I told myself this wasn't fair to him. I could tell how hard he was taking this as well. This little girl had touched his heart, too. I had been just as irresponsible for not keeping better track of her. I KNEW how dangerous a garage was or letting a dog run loose. She could have seen a bird across the street and taken off after it only to be hit by a passing car. There are so many things that could happen. The anger was now directed at myself.

Now, I try to mentally tell myself enough is enough and redirect that energy to something more positive. I told myself no matter what that was Mouse's day to go. She had been on this earth for a purpose and she did it. She gave me so much. I need to learn from her and move on.

My boyfriend took me to PetAngel where I picked out an urn. I also recieved a plaster of her little paw, a cut of her hair, and a death certificate. I told Colleen, the owner, it gave me closure. Mouse taught me how to be feisty, see adventure in every little thing and, of course, love unconditionally. I think I made her cry.

It's still not easy but I've made it through today without totally breaking down. However, yesterday I did just fine until around the time in the evening when she died. I'm hoping I can get through tonight without crying too much. Like I said I want to redirect that energy.

I take it day by day. Sincerely, Mouse's Mommy

[Yapper]

Donna, thank you for sharing what happened with everyone. I know that wasn't easy. Part of me wants to go out and find a Yorkie right now but I still get choked up when I come across something of her's. And as I stated before I'm a little nervous about owning another small, fragile dog. I think I would be too paranoid right now. I need time to heal. It helps to hear that others have gone through similar things and learned to deal with it and move on. That there will be another little furbaby for me someday.

I definitely learned from this experience and will be more careful in the future. Granted we can't protect our furbabies from everything but we sure can try!

Mouse's Mom

[Yapper]

Originally Posted by Pipersmommy

I am so sorry for your loss. I have thought of this happening many times. When I pull into the garage, I close the garage door before entering the house so they don't come running out & maybe take off down the street. When in my car, I carry them into the house after closing the garage door. Why? I'll tell you. I entered the garage after a Vets visit. Closed the garage door before letting them out to come into the house. Max my tiny 4 pounder ran under neath the car. I paniced! The muffler was hot & so was the under neath of the car. He could have burned himself badly. Thank God he didn't. I know we can't prevent all accidents from happening, but I believe your posting helps. Letting others know of the dangers that can take place. Again I'm sorry for your loss.

Debbie, you are so right. I think that is why I felt so foolish or like others would judge me as a careless owner. I feel like I need to tell everyone I meet. I also knew better than to let her run loose. Mouse had run under my car at my house once before. That time the overhead was shut and I was just going out to get a broom. But it still upset me because she ran out there and hid under the car. Just coaxing her out from under there was tough. I thought I had learned from that how fast she could move and to keep an eye on her.

Someone else also mentioned picking up a small dog when they meet a big dog on another post. I had been guilty of letting Mouse meet other, bigger dogs without taking precautionary measures. I'll be more protective in the future if I get another small dog.

Mouse's Mom

[Yapper]

Hello again,
I don't think I'm doing very well. After I got home from work I read your posts and I thought I was doing really well. I thought, I can do this. With all this kindness and support I'll be fine. Then my friends took me to the fair to keep my busy. We were running around enjoying the sights. They wanted me to eat more than I did but I thought I did okay. Towards the end of the evening though I guess I just got worn out or it all came back to me. Try not to laugh but I saw what is called a Lionhead rabbit and thought it looked like Mouse. I tried to make light of it and moved on. Then I saw this ride called Crazy Mouse and I thought okay what is going on here. I have never seen this ride before? Why are things reminding me?! I used to call Mouse that when she would get the "zoomies" running through the house! I grabbed my boyfriend's hand and pointed to the ride and said it reminded me of Mouse. I got a little teary eyed but I did not cry and I smiled. He looked at me and got really upset. He told me that enough was enough. I needed to move on and I was making too much of this. He said I was looking for ways to hold on. I thought I was just trying to remember the good times. It's only been a few days. Am I over reacting? Is this not normal behavior?
My girl friend who was with us told me not to hold it in and just cry when I felt like it. She said he was just upset because he felt responsible and was dealing with it in another way - by trying not to think about it at all. She said it was good to grieve. She said it took her a full 6 months before she could move on after the loss of her dog. I hope it doesn't take me that long.
I like the idea of the forum because it gives me an outlet for my grief. However, I don't want to bring everyone down. I just need to talk. I am truly trying to get over this but it's only been 5 days.
Mouse's Mommy

[DONNADEE]

Im sorry your having a hard time and im sorry your boyfriend is not being supportive,were here to comfort you as you grieve and you will go thru several phases in your grief,I will pray for God to give you comfort you and have some peace.


Donne

[Yapper]

Donna, I can't thank you enough for writing. Just having someone to talk to is so helpful. Allen sent me a very nice email as well. The forum is wonderful. My girlfriends have been very helpful too.

What a difference even a few hours can make. In one of the post someone said their kids or someone brought them a new dog just a few days after they lost their other one. That person said it really helped them recover from the loss. I decided to stop by a pet store just to see what my reaction would be. I was okay. No tears! In fact as soon as I saw all the puppies and kittens I smiled in spite of myself. The sales person even got two of the puppies out for me to play with. One was a Silky Terrier and the other was a cross between a Yorkie and a Maltese. (Wow, I had no idea Maltese had such silky, smooth hair!) It was actually sort of theraputic to have them play with me and lick my face! The sales person was trying very hard to get me to take one home but I said today wasn't the day. He said, "Oh come on, everyone knows you don't go to just look at puppies, you end up taking one home!" That made me laugh. They were both really cute and I needed those little puppy kisses! It's really true what they say about dogs helping people when they're sick or down.

Mouse's Mommy

[Rubi]

I'm so sorry about your loss. I can't hardly imagine how you feel, but please don't blame yourself for it. I know your feelings and emotions are on a roller-coaster now and you'll have moments when you'll feel you're getting worse rather than better. This is all normal. Grieving is good and necessary to start the healing process. I don't think not thinking about it like your boyfriend says will help you. Time will take care of everything. I know this now looks like a long time off but little by little you'll find how you find yourself thinking and talking about all the good moments little Mouse gave you and enjoying reliving those experiences. Hang onto the good thoughts as much as you can.
I wish you the best.
Rubi, Jennie and pussy cat Mimosin

[Yapper]

Thought I'd post pictures of Mouse. I caught her snoozing with her big sis.

[Rubi]

Originally Posted by Yapper

Donna, I can't thank you enough for writing. Just having someone to talk to is so helpful. Allen sent me a very nice email as well. The forum is wonderful. My girlfriends have been very helpful too.

What a difference even a few hours can make. In one of the post someone said their kids or someone brought them a new dog just a few days after they lost their other one. That person said it really helped them recover from the loss. I decided to stop by a pet store just to see what my reaction would be. I was okay. No tears! In fact as soon as I saw all the puppies and kittens I smiled in spite of myself. The sales person even got two of the puppies out for me to play with. One was a Silky Terrier and the other was a cross between a Yorkie and a Maltese. (Wow, I had no idea Maltese had such silky, smooth hair!) It was actually sort of theraputic to have them play with me and lick my face! The sales person was trying very hard to get me to take one home but I said today wasn't the day. He said, "Oh come on, everyone knows you don't go to just look at puppies, you end up taking one home!" That made me laugh. They were both really cute and I needed those little puppy kisses! It's really true what they say about dogs helping people when they're sick or down.

Mouse's Mommy

I think it'll help you so much to interact, handle and touch and receive the affection and love that dogs have to give. Someone once told me that when we lose a dear one (be person or animal) the love we felt for that one is like suspended, held up somewhere inside us and that it's actually therapeutic to channel that love onto another one. This is what you did when you handle those lil pups and that's why those puppy kisses felt so good.
Just ssaw the picture of your lil Mouse with his sis. She was sure adorable.
I hope each day the pain will be a little less.
Rubi, Jennie and Pussy cat Mimosin

[LoveMyJake]

I am so very sorry for your tragic loss.

[vviccles1]

You are so brave and I am so sorry for your loss!