Mouse 2005 - 2007

[vviccles1]

Originally Posted by Yapper

Hello again,
I don't think I'm doing very well. After I got home from work I read your posts and I thought I was doing really well. I thought, I can do this. With all this kindness and support I'll be fine. Then my friends took me to the fair to keep my busy. We were running around enjoying the sights. They wanted me to eat more than I did but I thought I did okay. Towards the end of the evening though I guess I just got worn out or it all came back to me. Try not to laugh but I saw what is called a Lionhead rabbit and thought it looked like Mouse. I tried to make light of it and moved on. Then I saw this ride called Crazy Mouse and I thought okay what is going on here. I have never seen this ride before? Why are things reminding me?! I used to call Mouse that when she would get the "zoomies" running through the house! I grabbed my boyfriend's hand and pointed to the ride and said it reminded me of Mouse. I got a little teary eyed but I did not cry and I smiled. He looked at me and got really upset. He told me that enough was enough. I needed to move on and I was making too much of this. He said I was looking for ways to hold on. I thought I was just trying to remember the good times. It's only been a few days. Am I over reacting? Is this not normal behavior?
My girl friend who was with us told me not to hold it in and just cry when I felt like it. She said he was just upset because he felt responsible and was dealing with it in another way - by trying not to think about it at all. She said it was good to grieve. She said it took her a full 6 months before she could move on after the loss of her dog. I hope it doesn't take me that long.
I like the idea of the forum because it gives me an outlet for my grief. However, I don't want to bring everyone down. I just need to talk. I am truly trying to get over this but it's only been 5 days.
Mouse's Mommy

DEar Yapper,
You are doing just fine.5 days is a short time for greiving from this tramatic accident!Please go easy on yourself! My last yorkie died a natural death in 2004 at age 19. I have a new yorkie who I love to the moon and back but I am scared to death cuz he has some health issuesand I dont know what the future will hold!Sorry if i sound selfish...
Anyhoo..I hope your boyfriend stops taking his guilt out on you and surprises you with a new yorkie puppy! It will not take MM"s place but will start a new adventure in your life and give you unconditional love as your 2nd child!
RIP darling Mouse
Thinking of you,
Vicki @ smooches from Jasper

[Yapper]

Thank you Vicki (and Jasper!)

I had been staying at the bf's place but decided to go back to my place for a few days. I told him it was too hard driving into his driveway every evening. (It seems worse at night when I don't have anything to keep me distracted.) I put all her toys, teddy bear, bed, dishes, sweaters, etc away. I told him that the way for me to get over this was to talk about but I understood and respected his way as well. It was just better for me to go home. Then I could call and talk or email my friends and cry in private and not upset him. He said I didn't need to do that and he would try to work with me but I need a few days away from there. We will still talk to each other and see each other. I just don't want to be at his house.

Take extra special care of that baby boy! (It's NEVER selfish to talk about our babies!) They are soooo worth the time and effort! Keep us posted on his health. We are here for you, too!

Not sure the bf will get me the new dog but he did say I should start saving for it. He's not an animal/pet person but I think he finally realized there will always be a dog in MY life! I'll give it time. Day by day!

Mouse's Mommy

[DONNADEE]

Im so glad that you got to get some puppy kisses and also theres a sight that you can light a candle and pray,believe me that really helps also when your having a hard time, go on the webb put in light a candle and go by the steps,i wish you gods peace and healing,im going now on the sight to light a candle for you.
Donna

[Yapper]

My bf took me out to a nice dinner tonight and we talked. He explained that he just hates to see me cry or be down but if I need to talk about it he was there to listen. I did okay today until I got home and got a sympathy card from the emergency vet clinic, my friend that lives out of state and an email from an ex-bf that just got the news. When I came home my mother's dog, Molly, ran up to me and jumped on my lap. She put her front paws around me like a hug. This is unusual for Molly as she doesn't cuddle. Mom said she must know something isn't it right. It made me smile. I'm lucky my mom and her dog were visiting now. It's good to have a 4-legged companion around. Each day seems a little better! Attached is a picture of my kids at Christmas time.

Mouse's Mommy

[vviccles1]

Originally Posted by Yapper

Thank you Vicki (and Jasper!)

I had been staying at the bf's place but decided to go back to my place for a few days. I told him it was too hard driving into his driveway every evening. (It seems worse at night when I don't have anything to keep me distracted.) I put all her toys, teddy bear, bed, dishes, sweaters, etc away. I told him that the way for me to get over this was to talk about but I understood and respected his way as well. It was just better for me to go home. Then I could call and talk or email my friends and cry in private and not upset him. He said I didn't need to do that and he would try to work with me but I need a few days away from there. We will still talk to each other and see each other. I just don't want to be at his house.

Take extra special care of that baby boy! (It's NEVER selfish to talk about our babies!) They are soooo worth the time and effort! Keep us posted on his health. We are here for you, too!

Not sure the bf will get me the new dog but he did say I should start saving for it. He's not an animal/pet person but I think he finally realized there will always be a dog in MY life! I'll give it time. Day by day!

Mouse's Mommy

Dear Yapper,
You are truly special! Thankyou so much for the kind words about Jasper.He goes back to the vet on September 5th, so I will post the results that day! I pray that things get easier for you.I didnt know that you didnt live with your boyfriend.He is lucky to have you.Is that beautiful dobie also yours?The pictures are darling! I truly think you are a brave and couragous woman, possessing much empathy. You deserve great things ahead along with your never ending memories of MM.
Vicki

[ILUVSADIE]

Your feelings are entirely normal after just losing a beloved pet. When I lost my Westie, Georgie, a year and a half ago, I thought I would never stop crying. She had been sick with cancer for a year, and I had to make the decision to have her put to sleep. Those were very dark days indeed. A few months later, I decided to buy Sadie, because I truly missed having a furbaby to love and who would love me unconditionally. For me, it was the best decision I could have made. Sadie is a wonderful little girl and fills my heart with joy everytime I look at her.

But, yesterday I saw a Westie in a car parked next to mine and my eyes filled up with tears. A new furbaby will never replace Mouse as they each have their own personalities, but it will give you an outlet for all the love that you obviously have in your heart.

Whatever you decide, my prayers are with you to give you the strength to recover from this devastating loss.

Pat

[Yapper]

As always thanks for the kind words. Some days are better than others but today was hard. I ran into so many people that "didn't know" - neighbors - and I had to explain it over and over again. By the time I met friends for lunch I had a headache and was tired. Then another friend joined us and she hugged me and the tears came back. I was okay for a while then I walked into a PetsMart and there was this adorable little Yorkie named Lexi. Someone asked me about the dobe in the picture. That was my other baby and her name is Lady Lexington or Lexi.

This was a rough summer for me. Lexi was also two years old and she was given to me as a gift from an ex boyfriend trying to win me back. She was a very good, gentle girl but suffered from separation anxiety and later was diagnosed with urniary incontinence. Basically she couldn't handle being confined for more than 4 hours without an accident or tearing something up. After several months of trying to do many things to accommodate her needs and many trips to the vet I made the painful decision to let her go. I went through a very nice doberman rescue and the people who took her said she is doing much better. The new owner is a stay at home mom who has been working with her. She has made great improvements. It was hard but I live alone and work long hours. Lexi just couldn't handle it but Mouse could.

Just as I was getting used to Lexi not being around Mouse was taken from me. So, like I said this was a very rough summer. It was hard enough to give up one dog but to loose two seems too much. So, when I saw that Yorkie named Lexi I lost it. I just told the other owner my dog had recently died so I didn't have to explain. He was very nice and let me pet his little girl.

Then after I got home a neighbor came running over asking me if I was interested in her friend's jack russel/beagle mix. I kept a smile on my face and thanked her but said it wasn't time. She tried very hard to get me to come over and see it. She even convinced my bf to go over and he did. He said it was a cute dog and he played with it a little but if I didn't want it than I should just say no. I think the neighbor understood as she didn't push.

Later still I went to my niece's birthday party and she told me she had a school teacher that did foster work for the Human Society. She told the teacher to let her know when any Yorkies came in. I thought it was very sweet of my niece but when I got home at the end of the evening the tears came back No matter what they just aren't going to be my Mouse. I just don't feel like I'll ever find the perfect dog again - one that bonds with me and likes to cuddle and play and go for walks and always be where I am.

Mom and dad want me to watch their dog for two weeks and I agreed but Molly just isn't as affectionate. I wish now I had not agreed but I won't go back on my word.

There have been so many people trying to help in their own way. I really do appreciate it but it's still hard. Thanks for listening.

Mouse's Mommy

[celstu1]

Originally Posted by Yapper

I just don't feel like I'll ever find the perfect dog again - one that bonds with me and likes to cuddle and play and go for walks and always be where I am.

I have good news and bad news... no, sadly there will never be another mouse, but the good news is, ALL yorkies are sooo sweet! My heart goes out to you. I was hit with a double whammy like you 2 years ago myself. My ex (fiance of 10 years at the time) broke up with me... we had a 4 month old Yorkie pup. We also owned a house together and had a wedding in the plans. I had to cancel the wedding, we sold the house, it was a 2 months process... about 1 month into it, I came home from work and my yorkie (Stuart) greeted me as usual but slowly and something was wrong. he was covered in saliva, pee & poop. I just scooped him up and rushed him to the vets. He died about 20 mins later. He had ingested rat poison (not in my house - worst part is I have NO idea where he got rat poison). He was 4 days shy of 5 months old. I moved out of my house the next day, stayed with my mother while my house was being sold for about 5 weeks. And then the day after it sold I bought my condo and 4 days later brought home 2 new yorkie pups. So it was about 6 weeks since my other baby died. I often wondered what the sense was in his death. The ONLY thing I can see was he would have been a link to my ex and I really needed to let my ex go for good. I couldnt have anything to link us together anymore, sad and tragic as it was to lose him.

Its been almost 2 years now since his death. I have a wooden box 'urn' and his paw print in plaster. I keep his pic in the pic holder of the urn and I keep them on a shelf in my dining room hutch!

I often still fear for my boys safety so much. Worry about what they can get into and whenever someone is watching them for me whether a night or a week I am a mess the whole time and call 20x. Maybe the fear will pass someday, maybe not. But like you, I couldnt imagine a house with no critters! To me the joy was worth the pain!!

[Rubi]

Dear Yapper,
I'm so sorry to hear this summer is being so rough for you. I know it's so hard and that no word we will say seem to confort you but try to look on the bright side. It's hard for you not to have Lexi but at least she's doing fine now. And although I know nothing can now make up for Mouse's loss, think of the future, think that all this grief will pass over some day, and that like somebody says all yorkies are adorable and that some day you will have another one, when you are ready for it, and you'll be as happy again as you were with Mouse.
I wish you will soon start to feel a little better.
Rubi

[Yapper]

Hello everyone,
Monday night it was raining really hard and I just didn't want to go home right away so I thought I'd stop at Pet Store and get some puppy kisses. (My therapy!) They had a female Yorkie and I was so excited. I asked if I could see her and they let me sit with her for as long as I'd like. She was a ball of energy. She was running around and just bouncing off the walls. Everything about her was so different from my MM and yet she had that same great personality - full of excitement and everything was an adventure. I was delighted to play with her and then she took a tumble. She started yelping so hard I panicked. I scooped her up and held her and one of the store staff came running over. Another customer who had been watching explained that they thought she was just scared. The store clerk said my face was white as a ghost and it was okay. I got tears in my eyes and she had to calm me down! She checked her out and said she was fine but I felt sick to my stomach. I was so embarrassed. I was more scared than the little pup. The girl laughed and said she was a little drama queen. She said she would start crying in her cage at the top of her lungs if she didn't get attention some times. As soon as someone came up to her she stopped. I asked if she was sure the pup was okay and they said she really was. I was so upset about it that before I left I gave them my name and number in case something was wrong. They kept telling me she was fine. The girl put the pup back in my arms and told me to hold her. I was shaking a little. The pup whimpered a little and then started to dooze. I handed her back and left. About an hour after I got home the girl called me to reassure me the pup was fine and wouldn't I love to have one. (Clever!) I thanked her but said it was just too soon. I said I'm sure someone would buy her very soon because she was so cute. Is that yelping normal for pups? I don't ever remember Mouse doing that.

Mouse's Mommy

[Rubi]

Dear Yapper,
I'm sorry to hear you had that scare with the little pup after what you are going through. I'm sure pups can yelp that and more without being hurt. They may yelp simply because they have got scared because they fell down, got stepped on or whatever and even sometimes they yelp when they anticipate something they fear. In your case, rest assured that as the store clerks told you, the pup was just being a little theatrical, simple because in was in her character to be like that.
I can imagine though how hard this little scare with the pup must have been on you. Please don't get negative feelings into you head, like I can't handle a puppy or something like that because that is simply not true. Puppies are so full of energy and esp. yorkie pups are so tiny they can't wiggle out of our hands any minute. Rubi, my younger one, slipped through my hands when she was two months and had some muscle pain on one of her legs for a week.
I hope the time will come when you'll be ready for another yorkie and I'm sure you're are going to be a great mom to him/her and you'll be posting his/her pics in the forum for us to see.
In the meantime, try and get as many puppy kisses as you can. It's been scientifically proven that stroking a dog helps reduce stress and tension. I know that the pain you feel for Mighty Mouse will take some time to go away. Just take each a day at a time and think that pain does not last forever, that there is always a happier, brighter future for us.
I wish you the best. May you heal soon.
Rubi

[Yapper]

Thank you, Rubi, for your support and kind words. I really thought I had hurt that little girl. She didn't stop yelping until the staff person walked up. She knew how to get attention! That was a new experience for me. Renee

[Ozzie'sperson]

So sorry to hear this. You are right to not blame yourself AND to share your experience for the benefit of others.

While you can never replace your little Mouse, one of the best cures for a broken heart is to give yourself another outlet for all that love in the form of another furry friend. It heals like nothing else can.

Thoughts and prayers to you.

[Chellbe46]

I`m so sorry to hear what happened to your baby and you shouldnt blame yourself it was a accident, if you ever need someone to talk to i`m here for you. all our love xx