My gorgeous Dilly

[rubymoon2072]

I am so so very sorry for your loss of ur sweet Dilly. May she RIP and sending many prayers and hugs to you and your gang.

[yorkiefan_]

I'm so sorry you lost Dilly. I remember how shattered I was when Minnie died last year. It was the saddest and worst day of my life too. For me, the only thing that got me through my devastation was talking about it, about my little yorkie girl, reading about others here who love their pups so much. The first smile I cracked after losing Minnie was from reading this blog from a yorkietalk friend named beachdog:

Paris the Blind WonderDog

Crying is good right now. I think talking is too. I don't think it's healthy to bottle up that kind of sadness. It always has to hurt this much.

Hugs,
Chris

[Dudley's Mom]

Rest in peace precious Dilly. You were a very good mommy to your little darling. I lost my Dudley June 10 and I still miss him but I know he is in a better place now, and waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge.

[xFoxyx]

Nothing wrong with crying your heart out. It helps us heal. I am sending you healing prayers.

[sassyyorkies]

So very sorry that you are going through this sad and painful time. To hear your experience brakes my heart.i have had such experiences too and only time and releasing the tears helped to heal the pain. Just as others have said the sweet memories of Dilly will help you. i did a photo album too for one of my little girls this did help with the pain. Praying for you as you move ahead for the good memories to fill your heart more and more. Hugs to you and your other furry family members and your little children who may also be missing a furry friend.

[sandy simpson]

Claire, I am so sad your precious Dilly has passed. It leaves us heartbroken and you will cry for awhile. I did with my Teddy Peanut. He passed at 10. I just have to believe it was Ted's and Dilly's time and there was nothing we could do about it. Nothing we did caused this. Last night my pastor said that death is an appointment. Every person and I believe animals too have their day determined. We should not try to figure it out but just place our loved little Yorkie back into their Creator's arms. They did their job on earth and now they must go. My prayers for comfort for you. You were blessed with this precious dog.

[kay miller]

So sorry for your loss ((((hugs)))) I had a little yorkie years ago my daughter was little she had chocolate chips in a bag and dropped some on the ground my 4 pd yorkie ate some. He had seizures,but he didn't die. The ingredient in chocolate that's harmful to dogs is said to be 10 times more toxic in baking chocolate. So with that said I truly believe this awful tragedy is indeed not your fault......

[Claire2014]

Thanks for your kind messages. We picked up Dilly's ashes from the vets yesterday. It made me cry at first but then I did feel some comfort in having them, like part of her was back with me. We were taking our other two dogs for a walk on the moors so took Dilly too - felt nice to take her for one last walk. I don't know what I'm going to do with them. Thought I would bury them in a spot in the garden that she liked but am reluctant to let them go just yet.

Have stopped crying so much, although am in tears typing this. It's my Husbands Birthday tomorrow so I'm going to try to be happy for him and have a nice day but it's so hard. Would give anything to have Dilly back. Sending much love to you and all your furry little ones x

[sandy simpson]

Life is full of tears dear Claire. How I wish you did not have to go through this. Somehow we are supposed to get stronger and then be able to help others going through the same thing. I still cry when I think of my dogs that have passed. It helps to have their pictures on the wall. I remember the good fun times and when they sat at my feet through a horrible cancer battle. We are blessed to have our dogs but like all of life we have to let them go. You are so precious to know the love a dog can give to us. The Lord sees every tear that falls and He will send comfort and peace to your heart. You will know Dilly is in that rainbow bridge beautiful place just waiting to greet you one day. That is my hope, I will see Jesus and all my family and of course our sweet fur friends!

[reprak]

Hello Claire,

I know that feeling you are going thru as I picked up the ashes last Wednesday. I also felt a bit better, put the urn on a shelf where I can see it, and I lit up first candle beside it last Saturday. Now, comes to what to do next, here are some ideas:
10 Amazing Things Your Ashes Can Do After You Die | Mental Floss
As for me, I think I just keep the little urn where it is for now and when I return to Canada I will bury it and plant a tree on the grave. That is my plan.

Peter

[Susan78]

I am so sorry for your loss but please do not blame yourself. Susan

[anniernc]

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious Dilly. May she Rest in Peace with all the furbabies at the bridge.

[Claire2014]

Thank you all and thank you Reprak for the - what to do with ashes - link. I like the idea of having them made into a precious stone but am hopeless at loosing jewellery so wouldn't trust myself to not loose it and then can imagine i'd be devastated all over again.

For the moment I have kept Dilly's ashes with me in the house, it is giving me some comfort to have them there. Am having very up and down days. Some days I seem to be able to reflect on all the good times and focus on my family and dogs that are still here. Other days I'm hysterically crying and blaming myself all over again. I would give anything just to have her back for 5 minutes. I miss her so much. I think it's only just sinking in that she's actually gone. Miss her so very much. I feel like part of me has gone with her, I don't feel that I'll ever be the complete person I was when I had Dilly again. It's left such a hole in heart.

[Claire2014]

It has been 4 weeks yesterday that I lost my gorgeous Dilly. It still hurts so much, I feel heartbroken and devastated. Have stopped crying so much during the day but in the evenings I fall to pieces still. When walking my other two dogs I'm constantly welling up with tears and miss carrying Dilly in my arms. I keep calling my little girl and other dogs Dilly by mistake. It still doesn't feel like it should be real, still feels like she should be here with us, laying on her spot of the bed. I'm still blaming myself, everyone tells me it wouldn't be my fault, that the two bigger dogs would have eaten most of the biscuits and that it wouldn't have made her die, and if it did it wouldn't have been as quick as the time I was out. I want to believe them, I want to think it wasn't my fault but I can't, we'll never know, and that's eating me up. I won't even let chocolate in the house anymore and am constantly panicking that something bad is going to happen to my other two dogs. I feel guilty when we all go out somewhere and everyone's enjoying themselves all apart from Dilly. I gave my dogs left over roast dinner today which Dilly used to love and felt so guilty that she wasn't having any. I still haven't been able to tell anyone other than my close family and one friend that she's gone. I just miss her so much. How is she not here? it wasn't her time! it was too sudden, she'd survived so much before and always came through like a little fighter. When will I feel better? when will I stop crying? I want her back so much.

[Cat2861]

Hi Claire.....4 weeks is still early. Everyone is different on how long they grieve. I lost my two dachshunds 3 years ago and I still cry every once in awhile over them. I even call Remy by accident one of my dachshunds name (Hershey). My husband has done the same thing. We laugh when we do it because Remy does do things that Hershey did. We joke and say that Remy is Hershey reincarnated. I read all the stories on YT about furbabies that have passed and it brings back the memories of when my boys passed and I cry like a baby. I am a very sensitive person when it comes to people or animals being sick, abused or passing away. Just take your time grieving and within time it will get a lot better. I do believe she is still around you, having fun running around and playing.