Thank you all and thank you Reprak for the - what to do with ashes - link. I like the idea of having them made into a precious stone but am hopeless at loosing jewellery so wouldn't trust myself to not loose it and then can imagine i'd be devastated all over again.
For the moment I have kept Dilly's ashes with me in the house, it is giving me some comfort to have them there. Am having very up and down days. Some days I seem to be able to reflect on all the good times and focus on my family and dogs that are still here. Other days I'm hysterically crying and blaming myself all over again. I would give anything just to have her back for 5 minutes. I miss her so much. I think it's only just sinking in that she's actually gone. Miss her so very much. I feel like part of me has gone with her, I don't feel that I'll ever be the complete person I was when I had Dilly again. It's left such a hole in heart. |