My gorgeous Dilly Hi everyone, my beautiful yorkie Dilly Daydream died suddenly yesterday. I am heartbroken and cannot stop crying. I was out with my children but my other two dogs were home with her. I feel terrible I wasn't there for her. I feel terrible for my other two dogs that I wasn't there for them either. She was leaking wet and the vet told my husband that the other dogs wold have been licking her trying to bring her back life, like they do with still born puppies. My poor girl was covered in blood all around her chest area. The vet told my husband that she probably suffered a haemorrhage and that there could have been a tumour or something on her liver or other organ (I can't remember which) that would have gone undetected. She had a heart murmur and only had a health check two weeks ago - the vet said her heart sounded really good and that she was doing well. She was 13 - although rescued from a puppy farm and the lady who rescued her guessed she was around three so she could have been older. She was my baby girl. I thought we had more time. I don't feel like I'm ever going to be able to move on. I just miss her so much it physically hurts. The worse thing is that I think it's my fault. I left some chocolate biscuits on the side in an unopened packet and one of the bigger dogs jumped up and got them. When I came home and found her dead, I found an empty packet of biscuits in the kitchen. Dilly only had three teeth left so think my two bigger dogs must have eaten most of them but am sure she would have had some. The vets told me this wouldn't have caused her to die and so does my husband but they wouldn't tell me otherwise would they. I just hate myself. If I hadn't left them on the side and the dogs didn't eat them would she still be here? She shared a bed with my beddlington terrier and now I look at her asleep with Dilly's space empty beside her. I have a six year old and one year children who have never seen me cry but the last 24 hours I've done nothing but and feel awful they've seen me so upset but I'm falling apart. I just want my Dilly back. I love her so much. Sorry for rambling. Just hope someone will understand how I'm feeling |
I'm so sorry for the loss of sweet little Dilly. May she rest in peace. I'm no expert, but I don't think chocolate could kill a dog that quickly. I know they can get very sick & pass away from the illness, but I'm guessing it would take more than a few hours. I understand your pain & grief, it's devastating to lose our furry family members. You are in my prayers to find strength & comfort during this sad time. |
Bless your sweet heart! Please allow yourself to grieve without the guilt. I have seen more than one dog get sick after ingesting chocolate (my son's labs while we are at church on Christmas eve, our first Yorkie) but none of them died. The reactions took time and were NOT immediate. It is so hard to say goodbye, especially when we don't expect it. Please know that our thoughts are with you. |
So sorry to hear of your sudden loss. Please try not to feel guilty or blame yourself. We can't be there 24/7, as much as we would like to! In time, may the wonderful memories you have of her fill your heart with gratitude to have even been a part of her life. Sounds like Dilly had a grand furr family to me:) This is a big loss, so your children seeing you cry is showing outwardly how much you loved her, and is a part of life. RIP Dilly.:aimeeyork |
Claire, words can't express what my heart feels for you. We lost our shih Tzu about 3 months ago. It's very hard to lose our babies! |
Thank you so very much for all your kind words. I was too upset to reply yesterday but reading such nice comments really helped me so very much. I'm starting to believe that it wasn't the biscuits and that this was just a coincidence. I hope beyond hope it was anyway and hope more that anything that my gorgeous little Dilly didn't suffer. I will love and miss her forever more. At the same time I feel blessed to still have my other two dogs to love and care for. Focussing on looking after them is helping me a little. I can't see the pain I'm feeling ever going away but hopefully I will learn to live with it. Thank you again and much love to all of you and your furry little ones x x |
Sorry to hear about your little shih tzu embgirl. Sending you a huge hug x x |
Hello Claire, Firstly, I am very sorry for your loss. If it is worth anything I would say this: don't feel guilty. You did not mean harm and if you could be there and do something, you would be doing your best to help. I myself was beating myself up during past few days and I was drowning in dark thoughts, challenging myself with questions "what if, or did I really do my best?" First: yes, we do our best for our little hairy friends, at least most of us. Just the fact that you are here, on this forum indicates to me that you are truly yorkie fan I you have the love towards them. And the other thing what I just realized: that little pooch of yours would be heart broken if it would see you in this condition. Our dogs were the happiest when they felt we are happy. Conclusion: be and feel the way your yorkie would love to see you to be. I myself am doing that right now, knowing that I did everything in my power to be a good owner, to make my little yorkie friend as happy as I possibly could, respected and cherished the love and companion given to me and when death took us apart I will continue now to pay that respect by remembering only the good things and memories. And therefore my advice is: be happy, you had a friend in your dog many people will never have in their whole life! |
I am so very sorry for your loss. |
So sorry for your loss. As another person said earlier...We can't be home 24/7 as much as we would like to. This could have happened when you were sleeping, so please don't feel guilty. Prayers for you and you family! RIP sweet Dilly! |
I am so sorry for your loss. I know there no words to make it better. Allow yourself to grieve. Prayers. |
I'm sorry for your loss of your precious baby and for your heartache. Dilly will always be in your heart and may her precious memories get you through this hard time. Rest in peace, Dilly. |
Thank you so much. You are such kind people to send such warm words. They really have been such a comfort to me. I have been through so much in the past but this is easily the hardest and saddest moment I have ever experienced. I will try my best to be happy for Dilly. As Reprak said Dilly was happiest when I was and so are my two other dogs, so for them and for Dilly I am trying to keep my spirits up and feeling blessed that Dilly was in my life and has left me with so many wonderful memories. I've ordered a photo keyring for my car key and a multi frame of photos for the lounge. I've also bought a book to write all my thoughts and happy times with Dilly. Am hoping having these physical things will help me feel like she's not completely gone. I still can't believe it. I keep feeling her nudging my leg for a cuddle or catching her in the corner of my eye only to realise that it's not her at all. Love you so much my darling Dilly x x x |
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I really hope so Intilis! I'm struggling today. One of Dilly's kisses is just what I need. Cant believe how bad I'm feeling again today. Not that I've felt better but today I just can't stop crying all the time again. I still can't believe she's not here. I took my other two dogs out for their morning walk and went to pick Dilly up when we got to the steps - she didn't like walking down the steps too much so I always carried her. Would give anything to go back to this time last week when I still had her. Am dreading it being a week tomorrow. |
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