My adorable Munchkin died 10/24/12

[kidnurse]

This is my first post. Sorry if it's long. Munchkin was 4.5lbs. and 6 years old. I wanted a yorkie for a long time and got Munchkin during my son's first tour in Iraq. I treasured him so much and if someone held him he just wanted to come to me. In the spring of 2012 he had to have major emergency for 14 bladder stones.(He wasn't able to pee.) It took the vet 3 hrs. and she almost lost him twice. When I was able to take him home I slept in the spare bedroom with him. I took him into the vet. everyday for I.V.'s because he wasn't eating. I was afraid he wouldn't make it. After a couple of weeks he wanted his favorite treat and I knew he was getting better. The vet had to change how he peed. He didn't pee like a boy anymore. He leaked urine but I was just so happy he was better. I had heart trouble and went into the hospital 10/22/12. My husband held the phone to him and he was just moaning. I had him run him into the vet then called the vet. that he was coming. She took x-rays and he had a large cancer tumor in his lung. I took him to the vet 6 weeks before this and had x-rays to check for stones and the lung tumor wasn't there. It grew that fast in 6 weeks.I lost it in the hospital and the nurse's had 3 minister's come to see me. I had to go to the vet. so I could see him and hold him one more time. I went into the hospital to fix my heart and came home with a broken heart. He died 1 year ago today.I'm still crying for him and can't talk about him without crying.He was such a beautiful yorkie and my baby. Do any of you have any ideas to help me? Thanks

[impish]

Ah. So your post might just have been written for me to respond to. Ten years ago, I had the best, and I mean best, yorkie ever named Max. He was that special soul animal people talk about. He was my baby. My child. The love of my life, and he was 7.

And he had bladder stones. And I was going through medical issues myself at the time and always kicked myself for not knowing sooner but looking back I can see I did the best I could. And I finally figured out what was going on with him (after several trips to the vets - wasn't for lack of trying!). And he had surgery.

And a few weeks later he was having problems and they did another x-ray or ultrasound (can't remember now) and they found another stone that they had missed that was blocking his urethra. So they scheduled another surgery.

And so I went to see him that afternoon at the vets after surgery and it became apparent that when they went to get him something was wrong. He was bleeding out. So they rushed him back to surgery to try and find the bleed. And they worked on him with me there in the waiting room balling for hours. And then they came out and said, we can't find the bleed, you are going to need to take him to another hospital. And so my sister drove me and Max who was now dying in my arms to another hospital at 8:00pm in the evening.

There was a blood donor dog there and they started transfusing blood. The surgeon a the new hospital found the bleed, but my four pound baby had been through too much by then. I kissed him and begged him to stay with me, but it was just too much. Max died a few hours later.

So the point of me telling you this story? Not to make you feel worse - but to tell you that it gets better. I wouldn't have been able to even tell you this story five years ago.

Time heals. Accidents happen. We do the best we can do. The physical loss of losing a beloved pet is huge and it's only been a year.

Consider getting another pup. It will never replace your baby, but you will find comfort and joy and honor in that bond again.

Plant a tree in Munchkin's name. Write a poem about the things Munchkin loved. Talk about the silly things Munckin did.

Know that it will get easier.

Know that there's nothing wrong with you for still hurting.

Know that you did the best you could but you were sick too at the time - so try not to second guess the days leading up to Munchkin's death, and instead focus on the great years you had with him.

Keep talking about how you feel.

Consider another pup.

[Yorkiemom1]

Your pain is sooooooo evident in your post, it is heartbreaking. There is nothing anyone can say or do that will actually make the gut wrenching heartache you....we all....experience, when we lose one of these precious little souls. I have certainly lost my fair share, for a variety of reasons....and I too, still cry when I speak of each one of them, and some have been gone for several years. But I really do think after a period of mourning, deep in your heart of hearts, you long for the companionship of another Yorkie.....not to REPLACE the precious baby you loved so much and ache over still......but to help lick the wounds and jagged edges of your broken heart and devastated soul.....a new precious little angel that God is looking for someone to take care of, to brighten their days, to comfort the upsets of lifes daily struggles, a loving devoted baby that listens to you cry, or rant, or plan, or just cuddle.....to provide a loving, tender, caring home for one of Gods little souls, until He calls that baby back to His side....God is looking for devoted owners for these babies.....I think you need to answer His call to take in and watch over another of his little souls......again, not to replace or displace your wonderful memories of your precious Munchkin, but to show you the strength and endless love you have to give these babies...... Please, consider getting another angel to shower with love and attention....I think this will help you ease the pain you still feel over the loss of Munchkin, and I think Munchkin, with all the love he had in his little heart for you, would want you to move forward from this place of devastation you are stuck in.

[Marhcarter]

Originally Posted by impish

Ah. So your post might just have been written for me to respond to. Ten years ago, I had the best, and I mean best, yorkie ever named Max. He was that special soul animal people talk about. He was my baby. My child. The love of my life, and he was 7.

And he had bladder stones. And I was going through medical issues myself at the time and always kicked myself for not knowing sooner but looking back I can see I did the best I could. And I finally figured out what was going on with him (after several trips to the vets - wasn't for lack of trying!). And he had surgery.

And a few weeks later he was having problems and they did another x-ray or ultrasound (can't remember now) and they found another stone that they had missed that was blocking his urethra. So they scheduled another surgery.

And so I went to see him that afternoon at the vets after surgery and it became apparent that when they went to get him something was wrong. He was bleeding out. So they rushed him back to surgery to try and find the bleed. And they worked on him with me there in the waiting room balling for hours. And then they came out and said, we can't find the bleed, you are going to need to take him to another hospital. And so my sister drove me and Max who was now dying in my arms to another hospital at 8:00pm in the evening.

There was a blood donor dog there and they started transfusing blood. The surgeon a the new hospital found the bleed, but my four pound baby had been through too much by then. I kissed him and begged him to stay with me, but it was just too much. Max died a few hours later.

So the point of me telling you this story? Not to make you feel worse - but to tell you that it gets better. I wouldn't have been able to even tell you this story five years ago.

Time heals. Accidents happen. We do the best we can do. The physical loss of losing a beloved pet is huge and it's only been a year.

Consider getting another pup. It will never replace your baby, but you will find comfort and joy and honor in that bond again.

Plant a tree in Munchkin's name. Write a poem about the things Munchkin loved. Talk about the silly things Munckin did.

Know that it will get easier.

Know that there's nothing wrong with you for still hurting.

Know that you did the best you could but you were sick too at the time - so try not to second guess the days leading up to Munchkin's death, and instead focus on the great years you had with him.

Keep talking about how you feel.

Consider another pup.

I can understand your pain. My 1st dog (not a yorkie but a 100lb rescue mutt) lived a full life to the age of 13, but after he died, hubby and I cried rivers of tears and although it has now been 10 years, I still tear up just typing this short bit about him. We felt such acute loss that hubby refused to get another dog, ever. We have no children and he was our child. 5 years later, a friend said "that's enough" and gifted us with Huey. I now can not understand how we went 5 years without a furbaby and never will again. I love Huey even more than I did 'Ol Homer-dog, and I never thought I would love another dog again. I wholeheartedly agree with impish. Get another furbaby. It does not remove the love you had for nor the heartache from the loss of Munchkin. The heart seems to expand to make more room. It really has changed our lives for the better to have a furbaby to love again. ♡♡♡

[yorkiefan_]

That's such a heartbreaking story, but I think the best thing you could have done was come here to talk about such hurt. Losing a pup you love so much is just way too devastating to not share with others who love their furbutts the same you do with yours. I never knew how I was going to make it through after losing Minnie, just feeling hollow and rotten all the time without my best friend in the world after kidney disease and the related seizures took her. Just coming here to talk about how amazing she was and how great some of the pups here are was the ONLY thing that got me through it. This place helped get me back on track so that I was ready to love again, and now have a new best friend in the world in Cookie, who I found only because of Yorkietalk.

[yorkiefan_]

But no, your post isn't too long at all. We'd love to hear more about little Munchkin if you'd like to share.

[yorkietalkjilly]

Talking about your little Munchkin and how he died, getting your pain out is the best thing you can do right now by posting and talking about him. I'm so sorry you lost your little baby after only a few years and know how bad the pain of losing one is. It's so very painful to lose our babies at any time and it does feel like the hurting will never stop. I'm praying that in time your pain will begin to lessen and your healing will begin. Hopefully one day in the near future, you will feel better.

[celstu1]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can hear your pain in your words. RIP sweet Munchkin.

Maybe you are not ready, maybe you haven't thought about it, but maybe another baby yorkie boy (or girl!) will help to open your heart, ease your pain and tears and the unconditional love will help you heal. I know it worked for me when I lost my beloved Stuart.

[rubymoon2072]

I am very very sorry for your loss. I agree possibly adding a new baby or a rescue will help you move forward. never a replacement as all of them have such different personalities. I send many prayers to help your heart. may munchkin rip. hugs to you.

[Buster Brown]

I am so sorry to read about the passing of your Munchkin. The love you shared is evident in your post. Here are some poems shared by other YT members. I hope your pain eases but your memories never fade
I haven't left at all

I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh.

But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;

I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven’t left at all.

On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.

When you take our walking path I’ve seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground.

At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.

You said it’s just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I’m really there, my spirit’s left behind.

I know your heart is hurting; it’s like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won’t see me anymore.

But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call;
It’s really the eternal beginning that waits for us all

So as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven’s gate.
-Author Unknown


To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all,to let you know, that I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from the Bridge.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here there's no more tears of sadness.
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every morning,
noon and night.

That day I had to leave you
when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me
and He said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again,
you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night
the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you...in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth,
and all those loving years,
because you are only human,
they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers,
unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,
though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are rocky roads ahead of you
and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
by taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy
and I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world,
the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody
who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night...
"My day was not in vain."

And now I am contented...
that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along
I made somebody smile.

God says: "If you meet somebody
who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
as on your way you go.

When you're walking down the street
with me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind."

"And when it's time for you to go...
from that body to be free.
Remember you're not going...
you're coming here to me."
-Author Unknown

[DBlain]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, I am sorry it still hurts so much, they do have a way of stealing our hearts don't they. I have been through several losses of beloved pets, and unfortunately it does not get easier. However I have found the joy of having them in my life far outweighs the heartache. In the past I usually would get a puppy within a few months of loosing one. But the last time I felt I could not go through loosing one again so I said no more pups. But at about exactly one year after loosing Kirby I felt a strong urge to find a new pup, I finally realized that hole in my heart could not be filled any other way. So now I have Lola for about 2.5 years and it was the best decision my husband and I ever made, she is the light of our lives. Things would be so dull without her around. She is a mixed breed yorkie and while she looks a lot like a yorkie she is different enough that I feel she has not been a replacement for my others. I honestly think since you know the happiness and love a pup can bring you that you might want to consider bringing another pup into your life. You need and deserve some happiness to feel whole again. I hope and pray that my Lola lives a long time, but if she does not I will always feel that the joy of having her with us will outweigh anything else.

[DBlain]

Another option if you are not 100% sure if you are ready to bring a pup permanently into your home, is you could look at fostering a rescue yorkie. It is heartbreaking how many yorkies and yorkie mixes are in need of a loving home or even a temporary loving home. Grief can take over your life if you allow yourself to wallow in it, but there nothing like a pup to keep you on your toes and to busy to feel bad.

[Verbena]

I am so sorry for your loss. Like everyone else, I think bringing in a new pup or a rescue will help. I know when I lost Moon Shadow my heart broke. I thought never again. But along came Saber. He will never replace him but he sure helped sooth the pain.

[DBlain]

Originally Posted by Verbena

I am so sorry for your loss. Like everyone else, I think bringing in a new pup or a rescue will help. I know when I lost Moon Shadow my heart broke. I thought never again. But along came Saber. He will never replace him but he sure helped sooth the pain.

you are new to YT and what you will find here is a community that loves their pets more than most people do and understand your loss like many will not. Like Teri said a new pet will NEVER replace a lost one but it will go a long way in helping.

Years ago when I lost my first yorkie suddenly, I had to go on a business trip shortly after, I was telling this person that worked for me about it, her husband came in mid conversation and was sort of laughing because to him it was not a big deal. He told me that he had a friend that lost a cat that he had for about 15years and he seemed to be taking it hard. but the gal's husband did not understand why. However he happened to see a sympathy card for loss of a cat so he sent it to his friend as a JOKE!!!!. But much to his surprise the friend was so touched and thanked him for it. He was laughing as he told me his friend did not get the joke. I am sorry and am not even sure why I am typing this, but I guess to tell you that if you are still grieving as hard as I know you are I am sure you have encountered A holes just like this guy, unless you have a pet you often don't know the pain you can have when you loose one. I spend more time with Lola than any of my family including my husband, so I feel closer to her than most anyone I know, so losing her would be just like losing an immediate family member. Please know we understand your pain and how it is not easy to get over.