Zackie, my 2 year old Yorkie died last night. - Page 12 - YorkieTalk.com Forums

red98vett · 06-23-2007, 04:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Allan

Thanks Kerry. One thing that I truly regret was that I did not take enough pictures of Zackie. I always felt like what was the need since he was right there? I took some when I first got him (to send to family and friends), but that was really it. One of the only pictures I took of him in recent memory was the attached, which I took on my cell phone since I was waiting in the car for her with Zackie on my lap and I was bored.... I always felt like I had 13 more years for pictures, but now I regret that terribly.

I have not post lately, since I have not really had anything to add. I still miss Zack so much. I actually saw a Yorkie on the subway today, but he/she looked nothing like Zack (but the dog was kissing its owner like crazy - which is something Zack always did).

That is it for now, and I wish everyone who has lost a Yorkie in the recent past the best of wishes.

-Allan

Hi Allan...Maybe that WAS little Zack in that yorkie on the subway letting you know he's still with you. I think of you often and I'm really hoping things get better for you. I know your heart is broken and in time it will get better...Hugs and please keep in touch ok ?

Allan · 06-24-2007, 09:34 PM

Hi everyone.

It is about 1:30 am and I cant seem to fall asleep. It all started about an hour ago. Turk (our cat) was sitting in the area of our living room where all of Zack's things were (his bed, pad, bowls etc...). Turk was just sitting there staring at the wall. My wife thought he sense a bug or mouse behind the wall. I think he just misses Zack (although they were never best friends or anything). Watching Turk seemingly miss Zack has made me really sad about Zackie's death. I have been getting over it little by little. Now, more often than not, I think of happy times with Zack without crying. But seeing Turk staring at Zack's "area" was just too much for me.

I still can't believe that my little Zackie is gone. I still miss him so much.

Allan

Tiger's Mom · 06-24-2007, 09:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Allan

Hi everyone.

It is about 1:30 am and I cant seem to fall asleep. It all started about an hour ago. Turk (our cat) was sitting in the area of our living room where all of Zack's things were (his bed, pad, bowls etc...). Turk was just sitting there staring at the wall. My wife thought he sense a bug or mouse behind the wall. I think he just misses Zack (although they were never best friends or anything). Watching Turk seemingly miss Zack has made me really sad about Zackie's death. I have been getting over it little by little. Now, more often than not, I think of happy times with Zack without crying. But seeing Turk staring at Zack's "area" was just too much for me.

I still can't believe that my little Zackie is gone. I still miss him so much.

Allan

Allan, I truly feel for your pain. My heart got broken when my first dog passed away at a young age of 6 months . .I was about 3rd grade then. I wept, and wept, and wept until I could not weep no more. I was so devastated my mom swore never to get a dog again. It was a gift from an aunt and I loved him dearly, with all my heart. It took me this long to be ready again, although I know I will mourn like you do if and when one of them leaves me behind. If I knew how much they have changed my life, I would not have waited this long

I hope you will find it in your heart not to wait too long either. Life is just too short . . . I know Zackie does not want you to be unhappy either.

Alina · 06-24-2007, 10:33 PM

Allan ~ I am so sorry to hear about Zack. My husband and I were fortunate to have two big doggies that lived rather long lives, whom we dearly cherished... and then their time came to go to Rainbow Bridge. I truly know and understand your heartache. When my husband called me and told me about our Irish Setter, I was at work and wailed so deeply and loudly that my co-workers thought I had lost a "human" family member. Although Kaleb was our doggy, he was very much our family member. Please know that time does heal wounds. It doesn't make them go away, but the fond memories begin to become a brighter remembrance and the sadness and emptiness turns to laughter, joy and tears over the memories. For us, we bought a new puppy within 3 months, and soon the sadness turned to happiness again. I still immensely miss my Kaleb and tears well up even now thinking about him, but be thankful that you had the chance to experience what most people don't even have a clue about ~ the unconditional love of an animal. Your beautiful memories of Zack will last a life time.

God's peace to you and yours.

~Alina

TinyBit · 06-25-2007, 12:39 AM

Good morning, I am up also. Been awake waiting for Duke to come to bed. God the nights are long with out him. I wish my husband understood I how I feel. I am just so empty. The girl Chihuahua we were breeding with is still here and she walks around looking for Duke also. I breaks my heart.

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Originally Posted by Allan

Hi everyone.

It is about 1:30 am and I cant seem to fall asleep. It all started about an hour ago. Turk (our cat) was sitting in the area of our living room where all of Zack's things were (his bed, pad, bowls etc...). Turk was just sitting there staring at the wall. My wife thought he sense a bug or mouse behind the wall. I think he just misses Zack (although they were never best friends or anything). Watching Turk seemingly miss Zack has made me really sad about Zackie's death. I have been getting over it little by little. Now, more often than not, I think of happy times with Zack without crying. But seeing Turk staring at Zack's "area" was just too much for me.

I still can't believe that my little Zackie is gone. I still miss him so much.

Allan

mizzwanned · 07-02-2007, 08:45 PM

oh my how devastating! I am in tears! I am so sorry, RIP Zack

Dan & Corinne · 07-02-2007, 08:56 PM

Hi Allen,

Most of us just can't simply "get over" the loss of our precious babies. It's good that you can remember fondly of the happy times and it's definitely ok to still cry too. It's been over a year since my Jewel left us behind and I still cry too.

When you feel the time is right for you I pray you open your heart to another little Yorkie - The new pup will not replace Zack but will honor him and bring you new joy and much love.

Bless you Allen

YippyYorks · 07-02-2007, 09:31 PM

Allan,

I am terribly sorry for your loss. Only you will know when the time is right to let another little baby in your life and heart. I cry with you.

ladybugg74 · 07-03-2007, 07:39 AM

I am so sorry about this terrible tragedy. I don't know what to say. When I ready posts like this it just makes me cry. Prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

Heather-Mamma to Gracie and Hallee

Ida · 07-03-2007, 07:48 AM

Oh man - I am sooooooo sorry for you loss. The one good thing you have is memories - I have lost a few dogs over the years - I still think about them all the time - and remember all the good and bad about them - More good of course then bad - Time will definately help heal - My heart goes out to you and your wife - RIP Zack

Allan · 07-05-2007, 10:43 AM

Hi everyone. I thought it was about time for an update....

I don't even know where to start. It has been nearly two months since my little Zackie died. As I have stated many times above, Zack was my best friend. He was always there for me - when I was happy, when I was sad, when I was lonely, etc... For the first two weeks, I couldn't stop crying. Then, for a while after that, I was okay most of the time, but would still break down at times when I thought of Zackie, and how he died, and how we won't be able to play together again. Finally, I stopped crying. I am not why or how that happened, but I just don't really cry anymore. Please don't think that I don't miss my little guy anymore. In fact, that is the furthest thing from the truth. I still miss him so much. I still walk by his "area" in our living room and get sad. I still think about our late nights sitting on the couch together watching tv; our walks; everything... And I miss those things and him. I don't think those feelings will ever go away.

Well, I finally have good news to report. My wife and I decided to get a new puppy! Although I would have chosen a new Yorkie, for reasons that I cannot get into right now, we decided on a yellow labrador. We went to a few breeders, found one we felt comfortable with, and put down a deposit. Our new puppy (now 3.5 weeks old) will be coming home to us at the end of July. I can hardly wait!!!

Despite being so happy and excited about our new lab, at times I have mixed emotions. Like I said, I still miss Zackie so much. Some times I feel like I am "disrespecting" him by getting a new puppy (and a non-Yorkie at that). But, I keep telling myself that Zack loved me as much as I loved him and he truly would want me to be happy. And, if getting a new puppy helps me get over the loss of my best friend, he would be all for that. I still talk to Zack and tell him that his little sister is coming home soon. And, that I wish he were still alive to meet her. I am so sure Zack would have loved a little baby sister (who will grow to about 15 times his size)!

So, that is about it for now. I would again like to thank everyone on this board who helped me get through this difficult time. I don't know what I would have done without everyone's support. Zack will always be my first dog and he taught me how much people can love dogs. He is now resting forever in my parent's backyard. I will love him and miss him forever and I am sure he will smile down on me when he sees me loving our new puppy in the future.

-Allan

wemple2 · 07-05-2007, 10:57 AM

That is exactly what Zackie would want...to see you smile again and be happy. Enjoy your new pup when you get her...you'll find that you really do have room in your heart for another. I call Winston, Spencer's little brother all the time...and I know in my heart that Spencer understands, why I had to have another. Best of luck to you and your new found puppy love...

SophieRose · 07-10-2007, 09:54 PM

Dear Allan. You described your feelings perfectly, and Zak will always be your first pup and first love. As the months progress, the tears lessen but will reappear and go ahead and cry because they will help wash away the ache. A different breed is commonly advised so there isn't a comparison and I know you will grow to love your newest member as strongly as Zak.

Take good care and Zak is watching over you, Allan. Can you feel his presence? Warmly, Deborah

doortego · 07-10-2007, 10:23 PM

Congratulations on getting a new puppy. I hope that you will have a long happy life together.

coffeechloe · 07-11-2007, 03:23 AM

Hi Allan

I have just read this thread through page by page and it upset me terribly but by the time I got to the end I felt better.

Your story is dreadful and I cannot imagine how hard life has been recently.

I also lost my dog in February, I originally brought three home fifteen years ago from the local animal care centre and Chloe was the last one to pass on. This literally ripped my life apart and I couldn't stop crying or thinking about her. Even when the tears stopped I couldn't sleep properly at night, I just missed her like crazy and couldn't understand why I was grieving so much over an animal. I then read that people experience as much (if not more) grief for animals as they do people for they are family to us. Once I recognised this fact I just allowed myself to recover slowly, then one day, my mind was made up, two months after Chloe's death I decided, I was getting a Yorkie! Bringing another dog into my house was the best thing I ever did, it is a home once more and alive with fur and fun!

Initially, I felt like you, I thought I was disrespecting Chloe and I was a traitor but then I turned it around, I told Chloe (I talk to her picture sometimes) that I had brought Oscar into the house as a tribute to her and to the other dogs I have lost. I also "talked" to Oscar about this brothers and sisters who would have loved to have met him. It sounds silly I know but it has helped me.

I am glad you have another dog and I'm sure he will bring you lots of love and joy. Life can be so cruel sometimes can't it.

There is a lump in my throat again now.
Bless you!

07-02-2007, 08:45 PM	#171
mizzwanned Donating YT 11K Club Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: new york Posts: 14,007 Blog Entries: 2	oh my how devastating! I am in tears! I am so sorry, RIP Zack __________________ Primrose, Teddy..RIP, Livie..RIP, And can never forget my duo Sophie and London, Run in Peace <3

07-02-2007, 08:56 PM	#172
Dan & Corinne Inactive Account Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: Orange County, CA Posts: 4,387	Hi Allen, Most of us just can't simply "get over" the loss of our precious babies. It's good that you can remember fondly of the happy times and it's definitely ok to still cry too. It's been over a year since my Jewel left us behind and I still cry too. When you feel the time is right for you I pray you open your heart to another little Yorkie - The new pup will not replace Zack but will honor him and bring you new joy and much love. Bless you Allen __________________ Jazzie Jolie Jen & I'm Corinne Loving Memory of Jewel 4/28/2003~4/18/2006

07-02-2007, 09:31 PM	#173
YippyYorks Yorkie Talker Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Spring Hill, TN Posts: 12	Zackie Allan, I am terribly sorry for your loss. Only you will know when the time is right to let another little baby in your life and heart. I cry with you. Last edited by YippyYorks; 07-02-2007 at 09:32 PM. Reason: spelling

07-05-2007, 10:57 AM	#177
wemple2 Wee Winston Wiggles Donating Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Kewanee, Illinois Posts: 9,666	That is exactly what Zackie would want...to see you smile again and be happy. Enjoy your new pup when you get her...you'll find that you really do have room in your heart for another. I call Winston, Spencer's little brother all the time...and I know in my heart that Spencer understands, why I had to have another. Best of luck to you and your new found puppy love... __________________ As Ever, Kathy Intruducing Bentley Winston and Spencer: RIP My Sweet Angels

07-10-2007, 09:54 PM	#178
SophieRose Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Petaluma Posts: 2,217	Dear Allan. You described your feelings perfectly, and Zak will always be your first pup and first love. As the months progress, the tears lessen but will reappear and go ahead and cry because they will help wash away the ache. A different breed is commonly advised so there isn't a comparison and I know you will grow to love your newest member as strongly as Zak. Take good care and Zak is watching over you, Allan. Can you feel his presence? Warmly, Deborah __________________ Peace and Light, Deborah My Sweet Sophie 1994-2007Welcome, Charlie Barley 4.14.07 & Sofia Bella 9.13.08 http://www.dogster.com/dogs/535291

06-24-2007, 09:34 PM	#167
Allan Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: NYC Posts: 75	Hi everyone. It is about 1:30 am and I cant seem to fall asleep. It all started about an hour ago. Turk (our cat) was sitting in the area of our living room where all of Zack's things were (his bed, pad, bowls etc...). Turk was just sitting there staring at the wall. My wife thought he sense a bug or mouse behind the wall. I think he just misses Zack (although they were never best friends or anything). Watching Turk seemingly miss Zack has made me really sad about Zackie's death. I have been getting over it little by little. Now, more often than not, I think of happy times with Zack without crying. But seeing Turk staring at Zack's "area" was just too much for me. I still can't believe that my little Zackie is gone. I still miss him so much. Allan

06-24-2007, 10:33 PM	#169
Alina YorkieTalk Newbie! Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Santa Ana, CA Posts: 2	Allan ~ I am so sorry to hear about Zack. My husband and I were fortunate to have two big doggies that lived rather long lives, whom we dearly cherished... and then their time came to go to Rainbow Bridge. I truly know and understand your heartache. When my husband called me and told me about our Irish Setter, I was at work and wailed so deeply and loudly that my co-workers thought I had lost a "human" family member. Although Kaleb was our doggy, he was very much our family member. Please know that time does heal wounds. It doesn't make them go away, but the fond memories begin to become a brighter remembrance and the sadness and emptiness turns to laughter, joy and tears over the memories. For us, we bought a new puppy within 3 months, and soon the sadness turned to happiness again. I still immensely miss my Kaleb and tears well up even now thinking about him, but be thankful that you had the chance to experience what most people don't even have a clue about ~ the unconditional love of an animal. Your beautiful memories of Zack will last a life time. God's peace to you and yours. ~Alina

07-03-2007, 07:39 AM	#174
ladybugg74 Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: May 2005 Posts: 1,054	I am so sorry about this terrible tragedy. I don't know what to say. When I ready posts like this it just makes me cry. Prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. Heather-Mamma to Gracie and Hallee

07-03-2007, 07:48 AM	#175
Ida YT Addict Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: New York Posts: 280	Oh man - I am sooooooo sorry for you loss. The one good thing you have is memories - I have lost a few dogs over the years - I still think about them all the time - and remember all the good and bad about them - More good of course then bad - Time will definately help heal - My heart goes out to you and your wife - RIP Zack

07-10-2007, 10:23 PM	#179
doortego Little Bit & Buttons Donating Member Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: US Posts: 2,160	Congratulations on getting a new puppy. I hope that you will have a long happy life together.

07-11-2007, 03:23 AM	#180
coffeechloe Yorkie Talker Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Lancaster Posts: 23	Hi Allan I have just read this thread through page by page and it upset me terribly but by the time I got to the end I felt better. Your story is dreadful and I cannot imagine how hard life has been recently. I also lost my dog in February, I originally brought three home fifteen years ago from the local animal care centre and Chloe was the last one to pass on. This literally ripped my life apart and I couldn't stop crying or thinking about her. Even when the tears stopped I couldn't sleep properly at night, I just missed her like crazy and couldn't understand why I was grieving so much over an animal. I then read that people experience as much (if not more) grief for animals as they do people for they are family to us. Once I recognised this fact I just allowed myself to recover slowly, then one day, my mind was made up, two months after Chloe's death I decided, I was getting a Yorkie! Bringing another dog into my house was the best thing I ever did, it is a home once more and alive with fur and fun! Initially, I felt like you, I thought I was disrespecting Chloe and I was a traitor but then I turned it around, I told Chloe (I talk to her picture sometimes) that I had brought Oscar into the house as a tribute to her and to the other dogs I have lost. I also "talked" to Oscar about this brothers and sisters who would have loved to have met him. It sounds silly I know but it has helped me. I am glad you have another dog and I'm sure he will bring you lots of love and joy. Life can be so cruel sometimes can't it. There is a lump in my throat again now. Bless you! __________________ Oscar's mum!