Hi everyone. I thought it was about time for an update....
I don't even know where to start. It has been nearly two months since my little Zackie died. As I have stated many times above, Zack was my best friend. He was always there for me - when I was happy, when I was sad, when I was lonely, etc... For the first two weeks, I couldn't stop crying. Then, for a while after that, I was okay most of the time, but would still break down at times when I thought of Zackie, and how he died, and how we won't be able to play together again. Finally, I stopped crying. I am not why or how that happened, but I just don't really cry anymore. Please don't think that I don't miss my little guy anymore. In fact, that is the furthest thing from the truth. I still miss him so much. I still walk by his "area" in our living room and get sad. I still think about our late nights sitting on the couch together watching tv; our walks; everything... And I miss those things and him. I don't think those feelings will ever go away.
Well, I finally have good news to report. My wife and I decided to get a new puppy! Although I would have chosen a new Yorkie, for reasons that I cannot get into right now, we decided on a yellow labrador. We went to a few breeders, found one we felt comfortable with, and put down a deposit. Our new puppy (now 3.5 weeks old) will be coming home to us at the end of July. I can hardly wait!!!
Despite being so happy and excited about our new lab, at times I have mixed emotions. Like I said, I still miss Zackie so much. Some times I feel like I am "disrespecting" him by getting a new puppy (and a non-Yorkie at that). But, I keep telling myself that Zack loved me as much as I loved him and he truly would want me to be happy. And, if getting a new puppy helps me get over the loss of my best friend, he would be all for that. I still talk to Zack and tell him that his little sister is coming home soon. And, that I wish he were still alive to meet her. I am so sure Zack would have loved a little baby sister (who will grow to about 15 times his size)!
So, that is about it for now. I would again like to thank everyone on this board who helped me get through this difficult time. I don't know what I would have done without everyone's support. Zack will always be my first dog and he taught me how much people can love dogs. He is now resting forever in my parent's backyard. I will love him and miss him forever and I am sure he will smile down on me when he sees me loving our new puppy in the future.
-Allan |