Hi Allan
I have just read this thread through page by page and it upset me terribly but by the time I got to the end I felt better.
Your story is dreadful and I cannot imagine how hard life has been recently.
I also lost my dog in February, I originally brought three home fifteen years ago from the local animal care centre and Chloe was the last one to pass on. This literally ripped my life apart and I couldn't stop crying or thinking about her. Even when the tears stopped I couldn't sleep properly at night, I just missed her like crazy and couldn't understand why I was grieving so much over an animal. I then read that people experience as much (if not more) grief for animals as they do people for they are family to us. Once I recognised this fact I just allowed myself to recover slowly, then one day, my mind was made up, two months after Chloe's death I decided, I was getting a Yorkie! Bringing another dog into my house was the best thing I ever did, it is a home once more and alive with fur and fun!
Initially, I felt like you, I thought I was disrespecting Chloe and I was a traitor but then I turned it around, I told Chloe (I talk to her picture sometimes) that I had brought Oscar into the house as a tribute to her and to the other dogs I have lost. I also "talked" to Oscar about this brothers and sisters who would have loved to have met him. It sounds silly I know but it has helped me.
I am glad you have another dog and I'm sure he will bring you lots of love and joy. Life can be so cruel sometimes can't it.
There is a lump in my throat again now.
Bless you!
__________________ Oscar's mum! |