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Allan · 05-19-2007, 04:37 PM

Today was a pretty hard day from me - Saturday is ussually "Zackie day" for me. We typically spend the entire day together. My wife and I will typically have breakfast and then play a game. Zack is usually sitting on the floor next to me while we eat, and then climbs on my lap while we play. Then, I typically take Zack for a long walk, and by the time it is over, he is so tired, that he just goes to his bed and passes out. But, today, we just sort of sat around and did nothing. Honestly, Zack was never a big barker (he would onlybark for 1 minute each night when i got home from work and was walking up the stairs) but our apartment was so quiet. Not to use a cliche, but the silence was deafening. I missed him so much this weekend. One other memory that i will always have of my puppy is the following. Every Fri night after work, I would come home and get zack and we'd walk a few blocks to this market that let him in and buy a few items for the weekend. Crazy as it seems, it was a hilight of the week for me. This past Friday night, my wife walked with me to the market. It felt so different and I missed him so much. I haven't been able to go upstairs and watch tv after my wife goes to sleep since that is what I always did wiht Zack. That was one of the parts of the day that i always looked forward to. Zack would either sit on my lap, on the couch next to me, or copy our cat, and sit on top of the backrest or armrest. He was cute and it is still really hard without him.

I guess that is the latest update for now.

-Allan

ashley809 · 05-19-2007, 05:06 PM

I am SO sorry for your loss. How tragic for you and your family.

SophieRose · 05-19-2007, 08:27 PM

That is what was so difficult for me also, Allan. The quiet and our routine was no longer. I remember following another Yorkie down the street, after telling the owner so she wouldn't think I was a "nut" about Sophie, asking if I could pet her pup. The longing to feel her fur again was overwhelming. I also cried while I walked back to work. Those were extremely difficult days, dark and lonely.

Take good care and know that others have walked in your same path, so you are not alone. -Deborah

yougetthesmiles · 05-21-2007, 05:19 AM

Ohhh Allen, I'm so so so sorry sweetie. I don't know what to say, I'm just so deeply sorry. I can feel your pain, how hard this is for you and your wife. Ohhhh Zakie, RIP baby, I know you have lots of furry friends up in this special place where you are, I know you will watch over your mommy and daddy and you know how much they love you and miss you.

Bless your heart, I'm just so sorry.

Prayers and hugs,
Missy

Ozzie'sperson · 05-21-2007, 07:14 AM

Allan, I relate all too well to that silence you refer to.

When we lost our first Yorkie, coming home from work that first day and not being greeted by the crazy barking and a squeaky toy was as devastating as the experience of putting him down. (He had cancer.)

I couldn't imagine ever having another one. In fact, I strongly resisted getting one. The horrible end experience consumed me and I felt there was no way I could do that again, EVER.

At the end of the first week after Scruffy's death, I got suckered into "looking" at puppies. When the breeder offered me a puppy to hold, I reluctantly accepted ... and the rest is history. I think of it more as Ozzie picked me as he lovingly nuzzled my shoulder for hours as we looked at puppies, looked at their parents and negotiated. It became pretty clear pretty quick that I wasn't going home without him!

Ozzie and Scruffy are like night and day. But each came with their own blessings and idiosyncrasies and I feel fortunate for having both in my lifetime.
I don't know what your experience would be, but I can guarantee you tow things:

First, you will NEVER replace Zack. But when you feel the time is right, definitely do yourself a favor and get a new little friend to channel some of that love into.

Second, you will not only have a place to send that love that you currently can't direct, you will get so much love back.

Good luck to you as you learn how to deal with this tremendous loss. Thoughts and prayers are with you from many YTers who have lost their furry friends, too.

mommiemary · 05-21-2007, 10:14 AM

i'm very sorry for your loss!

joy and bella · 05-21-2007, 10:46 AM

gosh...i am just so sorry for you. my heart breaks for you right now. i know you are hurting so badly and i just pray that you will find confort in knowing that your baby is in heaven. he is still with you always, just not the way you are used to. i am so sorry for your loss, and i will be praying for you!

Allan · 05-21-2007, 10:56 AM

Thanks again. Everything is still hard and I still miss my Zackie. The house is just so quiet. I miss going upstairs in the middle of the night and seeing Zackie sitting on his bed, looking at me as I walked up the stairs. He never ever slept!!!! I miss his smile.

I truly hope this starts getting easier soon.

Allan

Rudys Mom · 05-21-2007, 11:19 AM

Allan, I don't know why I'm just seeing this now, but I am so very, very sorry for your loss.

I love the name you gave him, Zackie. That was so... cute. I got very teary reading all these posts, especially the one you wrote about burying Zackie. I know you said you want to get a stone for Zackie's grave. A bunch of us YT'er went together and got a very nice stone for Connie whose mother died and I just bought a memorial stone from this company. They do wonderful work. Their website is www.rockitcreations.com Just a suggestion. Whatever kind of memorial you get for Zackie I'm sure will be nice.
You take care and know that we are all thinking of you. Rest In Peace dear Zackie.

Desiree · 05-21-2007, 02:32 PM

I'm so sorry about your baby Zackie. What a cute little guy he was. Please don't feel guilty...your little guy would only want you to remember the good times you were fortunate enough to share together. Keep him alive in your heart and thoughts and he'll give you the strength you need to overcome this. Nothing will ever replace your little boy, but maybe with time you can get him a little brother or sister to keep you company in this world.

Allan · 05-21-2007, 06:52 PM

Hi, it has been over a week. It still has not fully hit me that I will never see my Zackie again. I still miss him so much. I miss him greeting me when I get home from work; waiting for me to come upstairs in the morning; playing together; and, most of all, our walks together. I miss his sweet personality and loving nature. I miss his unconditional love. I his jumping into my arms.

I just wish he were was still with me. I haven't cried in a few days, but thinking about Zack now has made me really upset again. He was such an adorable little puppy. (Even though he was nearly 2, he was still my puppy. In fact, he was going to be my puppy forever - no matter how old he got.)

Allan

Sam*my*YoRkie · 05-21-2007, 08:44 PM

Sooo sorry for your loss... I know there is no words to describe the pain it is hard and it will take time to ... Just think about all the wonderful times you had together. It makes me cry to see this.

celstu1 · 05-22-2007, 01:11 PM

What a beautiful baby! Senseless accidents are so hard to accept in our hearts! Im so sorry this happened to Zachie. You are definately in my thoughts and prayers. I lost a baby to a senseless accident almost 2 years ago and although I still miss his sweet little face, like Im sure I always will, I now smile when I think of him instead of cry. Time will heal your pain.

Rip Zachie, you were a lucky pup and you are very loved and missed!

kezza · 05-24-2007, 02:19 PM

My thoughts are with you and your wife, please do not blame yourselves, this was a terrible accident and i feel for you so much.
I am suffering a great loss myself as i have just lost my 14 year old Yorkie, and i can understand the pain you are going through right now.
I said goodbye to my baby 8 days ago today and even though it still hurts i feel i am over the worst and i am starting to remember all the goodtimes i had with my baby and how lucky i was to have had her in my life.
you will not feel like this forever, things will get better i promise.

sending love to you, kerry x

Rosie 1 · 05-24-2007, 05:15 PM

Hello.. sweetie.. It will never be gone.. It just gets less painful... But know you will see your little guy again.. This is what I live for as I know they are their waiting for my coming.. I get tears when ever I think of any of my kids that are no longer with us.. They are the joy of our lives.. Fill a void nothing else can.. I could never just have one.. It would be too awful to not have other around that you love and can hug and kiss on.. They all have simular traits which helps the healing process that no other breed has in my book.. Mine live long lives which I feel is such a blessing..to me and the other people that own my dogs.. Even though they are not in my house I feel they are still my kids..

God Bring you confort and peace and know you were a wonderful mom to your little boy..

05-19-2007, 08:27 PM	#108
SophieRose Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Petaluma Posts: 2,217	That is what was so difficult for me also, Allan. The quiet and our routine was no longer. I remember following another Yorkie down the street, after telling the owner so she wouldn't think I was a "nut" about Sophie, asking if I could pet her pup. The longing to feel her fur again was overwhelming. I also cried while I walked back to work. Those were extremely difficult days, dark and lonely. Take good care and know that others have walked in your same path, so you are not alone. -Deborah __________________ Peace and Light, Deborah My Sweet Sophie 1994-2007Welcome, Charlie Barley 4.14.07 & Sofia Bella 9.13.08 http://www.dogster.com/dogs/535291 Last edited by SophieRose; 05-19-2007 at 08:28 PM. Reason: Grammer correction

05-21-2007, 07:14 AM	#110
Ozzie'sperson Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Metro St. Louis Posts: 2,809 Blog Entries: 1	Allan, I relate all too well to that silence you refer to. When we lost our first Yorkie, coming home from work that first day and not being greeted by the crazy barking and a squeaky toy was as devastating as the experience of putting him down. (He had cancer.) I couldn't imagine ever having another one. In fact, I strongly resisted getting one. The horrible end experience consumed me and I felt there was no way I could do that again, EVER. At the end of the first week after Scruffy's death, I got suckered into "looking" at puppies. When the breeder offered me a puppy to hold, I reluctantly accepted ... and the rest is history. I think of it more as Ozzie picked me as he lovingly nuzzled my shoulder for hours as we looked at puppies, looked at their parents and negotiated. It became pretty clear pretty quick that I wasn't going home without him! Ozzie and Scruffy are like night and day. But each came with their own blessings and idiosyncrasies and I feel fortunate for having both in my lifetime. I don't know what your experience would be, but I can guarantee you tow things: First, you will NEVER replace Zack. But when you feel the time is right, definitely do yourself a favor and get a new little friend to channel some of that love into. Second, you will not only have a place to send that love that you currently can't direct, you will get so much love back. Good luck to you as you learn how to deal with this tremendous loss. Thoughts and prayers are with you from many YTers who have lost their furry friends, too. __________________ Nicole RIP my sweet boy, Ozzie 1997-2011 http://thisdmnhouse.blogspot.com/

05-21-2007, 10:46 AM	#112
joy and bella Donating YT Addict Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: florida Posts: 1,232	gosh...i am just so sorry for you. my heart breaks for you right now. i know you are hurting so badly and i just pray that you will find confort in knowing that your baby is in heaven. he is still with you always, just not the way you are used to. i am so sorry for your loss, and i will be praying for you! __________________ I LOVE my baby girl Bella!!!! She is my world!!

05-21-2007, 11:19 AM	#114
Rudys Mom Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Lancaster, PA Posts: 4,327	Allan, I don't know why I'm just seeing this now, but I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I love the name you gave him, Zackie. That was so... cute. I got very teary reading all these posts, especially the one you wrote about burying Zackie. I know you said you want to get a stone for Zackie's grave. A bunch of us YT'er went together and got a very nice stone for Connie whose mother died and I just bought a memorial stone from this company. They do wonderful work. Their website is www.rockitcreations.com Just a suggestion. Whatever kind of memorial you get for Zackie I'm sure will be nice. You take care and know that we are all thinking of you. Rest In Peace dear Zackie. __________________ Rudy, Zoey & Buster's mom (Dawn) Rest In Peace my precious Gracie girl & Lucky buddie Dogster:http://www.dogster.com/dogs/382659 & http://www.dogster.com/dogs/497315

05-21-2007, 08:44 PM	#117
SammyYoRkie Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: U.S.A Posts: 493	Sooo sorry for your loss... I know there is no words to describe the pain it is hard and it will take time to ... Just think about all the wonderful times you had together. It makes me cry to see this. __________________ * SpOiLed LiL' SaMMie * PeePads BlowOut Salewww.Pee-Pads.com/FreeShipping

05-19-2007, 04:37 PM	#106
Allan Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: NYC Posts: 75	Today was a pretty hard day from me - Saturday is ussually "Zackie day" for me. We typically spend the entire day together. My wife and I will typically have breakfast and then play a game. Zack is usually sitting on the floor next to me while we eat, and then climbs on my lap while we play. Then, I typically take Zack for a long walk, and by the time it is over, he is so tired, that he just goes to his bed and passes out. But, today, we just sort of sat around and did nothing. Honestly, Zack was never a big barker (he would onlybark for 1 minute each night when i got home from work and was walking up the stairs) but our apartment was so quiet. Not to use a cliche, but the silence was deafening. I missed him so much this weekend. One other memory that i will always have of my puppy is the following. Every Fri night after work, I would come home and get zack and we'd walk a few blocks to this market that let him in and buy a few items for the weekend. Crazy as it seems, it was a hilight of the week for me. This past Friday night, my wife walked with me to the market. It felt so different and I missed him so much. I haven't been able to go upstairs and watch tv after my wife goes to sleep since that is what I always did wiht Zack. That was one of the parts of the day that i always looked forward to. Zack would either sit on my lap, on the couch next to me, or copy our cat, and sit on top of the backrest or armrest. He was cute and it is still really hard without him. I guess that is the latest update for now. -Allan

05-19-2007, 05:06 PM	#107
ashley809 Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: In my own little world!! Posts: 733	I am SO sorry for your loss. How tragic for you and your family.

05-21-2007, 05:19 AM	#109
yougetthesmiles BANNED FOR NOT MAILING PRODUCTS PURCHASED Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Indiana Posts: 9,295 Blog Entries: 3	Ohhh Allen, I'm so so so sorry sweetie. I don't know what to say, I'm just so deeply sorry. I can feel your pain, how hard this is for you and your wife. Ohhhh Zakie, RIP baby, I know you have lots of furry friends up in this special place where you are, I know you will watch over your mommy and daddy and you know how much they love you and miss you. Bless your heart, I'm just so sorry. Prayers and hugs, Missy

05-21-2007, 10:14 AM	#111
mommiemary Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 660	i'm very sorry for your loss!

05-21-2007, 10:56 AM	#113
Allan Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: NYC Posts: 75	Thanks again. Everything is still hard and I still miss my Zackie. The house is just so quiet. I miss going upstairs in the middle of the night and seeing Zackie sitting on his bed, looking at me as I walked up the stairs. He never ever slept!!!! I miss his smile. I truly hope this starts getting easier soon. Allan

05-21-2007, 02:32 PM	#115
Desiree Yorkie Yakker Join Date: May 2007 Location: Fredericksburg, VA Posts: 70	I'm so sorry about your baby Zackie. What a cute little guy he was. Please don't feel guilty...your little guy would only want you to remember the good times you were fortunate enough to share together. Keep him alive in your heart and thoughts and he'll give you the strength you need to overcome this. Nothing will ever replace your little boy, but maybe with time you can get him a little brother or sister to keep you company in this world.

05-21-2007, 06:52 PM	#116
Allan Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: NYC Posts: 75	Hi, it has been over a week. It still has not fully hit me that I will never see my Zackie again. I still miss him so much. I miss him greeting me when I get home from work; waiting for me to come upstairs in the morning; playing together; and, most of all, our walks together. I miss his sweet personality and loving nature. I miss his unconditional love. I his jumping into my arms. I just wish he were was still with me. I haven't cried in a few days, but thinking about Zack now has made me really upset again. He was such an adorable little puppy. (Even though he was nearly 2, he was still my puppy. In fact, he was going to be my puppy forever - no matter how old he got.) Allan

05-22-2007, 01:11 PM	#118
celstu1 Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: New Hampshire Posts: 10,534	What a beautiful baby! Senseless accidents are so hard to accept in our hearts! Im so sorry this happened to Zachie. You are definately in my thoughts and prayers. I lost a baby to a senseless accident almost 2 years ago and although I still miss his sweet little face, like Im sure I always will, I now smile when I think of him instead of cry. Time will heal your pain. Rip Zachie, you were a lucky pup and you are very loved and missed! __________________ “Petting, scratching, and cuddling a dog could be as soothing to the mind and heart as deep meditation and almost as good for the soul as prayer.” ― Dean Koontz

05-24-2007, 02:19 PM	#119
kezza Lovin my Pixie Pooh Donating Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Oxfordshire, United Kingdom. Posts: 3,510	My thoughts are with you and your wife, please do not blame yourselves, this was a terrible accident and i feel for you so much. I am suffering a great loss myself as i have just lost my 14 year old Yorkie, and i can understand the pain you are going through right now. I said goodbye to my baby 8 days ago today and even though it still hurts i feel i am over the worst and i am starting to remember all the goodtimes i had with my baby and how lucky i was to have had her in my life. you will not feel like this forever, things will get better i promise. sending love to you, kerry x

05-24-2007, 05:15 PM	#120
Rosie 1 Donating Yorkie Yakker Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Michigan Posts: 191	Hello.. sweetie.. It will never be gone.. It just gets less painful... But know you will see your little guy again.. This is what I live for as I know they are their waiting for my coming.. I get tears when ever I think of any of my kids that are no longer with us.. They are the joy of our lives.. Fill a void nothing else can.. I could never just have one.. It would be too awful to not have other around that you love and can hug and kiss on.. They all have simular traits which helps the healing process that no other breed has in my book.. Mine live long lives which I feel is such a blessing..to me and the other people that own my dogs.. Even though they are not in my house I feel they are still my kids.. God Bring you confort and peace and know you were a wonderful mom to your little boy..