I just want to die myself

[JasmineNoelle]

Praying

[EarthAngel]

Sandy, I am keeping you in my prayers that you will be doing better. I am also praying for your friend today that her doctor appt. goes well. I hope you feel all of our hugs surrounding you and please know that we are here for you.

[yorkiefan_]

Originally Posted by tutters

Thanks everyone. I'm glad I have little Kiri. My friend goes to the dr tomorrow and will probably have tests. But she keeps saying she knows she has the "big C" which is not helping matters at all. The people on YT are so kind--I wished you all lived close by.
Again thanks.

Even if she has it, if it's caught early the prognosis can be very good with surgery. My mother had breast cancer but they caught it really early, so surgery and some radiation wiped it out. Never has shown up again on subsequent mammograms. But yeah, cancer is about the scariest thing in the world to hear.

[anniernc]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your friend. I hope you both seek some professional counseling to help with your feelings of grief and despair. Rest in Peace sweet little baby any and know how much you were loved.

[lynzy420]

Rainbow Bridge, Pet Loss Grief Support, Monday Candle Ceremony


is a good resource for you right now. I know how you feel but believe me I know the loss of a beloved pet is just as hard as the loss of a human...I know what its like to wish it would all go away, but trust me those moments of shear emptiness will fill with good memories which are just as priceless....Kira and your partner need you and you need them, don't alienate yourself, don't think no one understands, don't think for a second that what your feeling is wrong. Grieving the loss of a loved one, pet or human is traumatic stuff and I will be the first to admit that I went to a Counselor recently because I couldn't catch my breath without seeing my babies little face, because everyone wanted me to be ok but really my whole life evolved around my pup(s), my morning routine, my MOMMIES HOME after work routine, heck even when I fell up the stairs the other day I started crying because my little furchild normally would have been standing there barking at me as if I had done something wrong!


There are so many reasons that you feel the way you do but sometimes when everyone thinks we are really ok and we are writing "I want to die myself" as a thread opener is a desperate need for someone to make it ok, I wish I could do that for you and maybe even you for me, but I can't all I can offer you is the experience I have and my experience told me that a whole lot of sadness was too much to bare and I needed someone to talk to, maybe you should consider that? I would give you my number but honestly at this point we would both just end up crying on the phone!!! I'm so sorry for your pain, I really am...


Please keep posting and remember we have all been there and back, some of us too many times...but life does go on and I'm just so grateful for those memories now...I'd give anything for one more day....but I know its just the way its suppose to be...and I know all dogs go to heaven!!!!

[Buster Brown]

I hope this week is better for you and your loved ones.

[edwardsupandy]

I'm really sorry for your lost of the most beloved one. I too lost my boy on March 11. I felt devastated too. I can really feel the pain you have. My Kenzo passed away because of sleen cancer and he has tumors in his stomach and in his liver. It's been a month and I still cry and grive for him. Fortunatley I do have my Kenzo Jr who(I consider him as my human baby) comforts me in these difficult moments. I say to myself that I must continue to live because I do still have my Hanzo, a 13 yo adopted maltese from a shelter, and I don't want him to suffer. My love Kenzo is gone but one thing I know that he doesn't suffer anymore.

Like others suggest you, perhaps it's good to contact a group where you meet the same people who can understand your pain. It might help. Well believe me we all who have lost our baby can feel your pain. I'll pray for you to be strong and you should remember that you still have Kiri to take care. If not you, who else will. You don't want Kiri to suffer right? Please be strong for your Kiri and your gf too.
""""""
Fly, fly little wing
Fly beyond imagining
The softest cloud, the whitest dove
Upon the wind of heaven's love
Past the planets and the stars
Leave this lonely world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again

Fly, fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far too beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace forevermore
But hold this mem'ry bittersweet
Until we meet

Fly, fly do not fear
Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear
Your heart is pure, your soul is free
Be on your way, don't wait for me
Above the universe you'll climb
On beyond the hands of time
The moon will rise, the sun will set
But I won't forget

Fly, fly little wing
Fly where only angels sing
Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light """""

Please remember Jake lives happily now in the rainbow bridge...

[DBlain]

I am sorry you are having such a hard time, it's a feeling most of us are familiar with.

I know it is hard to feel this way now, but I hope eventually you will be able to but celebrate the fact that you had 16 years with your pup. Unfortunately all of us that take a pet into our hearts will have to grieve their loss at some time. Does it make it any easier knowing that no, but it's the downside of loving a pet. My mom lost a dog when I was about 7 and she took it so hard that we could never have a dog again because she said she could not bear to go through the grief again. Now that I am grown, she has asked me several times over the last 30 years why I would get another dog knowing that it would eventually die and I would be heartbroken once again. I told her that the grief no matter how bad it was, was worth it because of the amazing love and companionship I had gotten from my pups. Had I been like her and closed myself off I never would have had the experience of all the joys Lola brings me. I am sort of rambling and might not come across the best, and I do understand your pain, but I guess what I am saying is that I realize you are sad and that you have to grieve but there are other things to open yourself up to so please don't let grief consume you for to long.

[Lou]

You all are great for reaching out to Sandy when she needed it. We have become friends and I have grown to love Sandy and her little Kiri. As a matter of fact I am now Kiri's Auntie Lou.


Sandy is doing much better but she faces a long hard recovery from losing little Jake. He was her joy. Fortunately Sandy's girlfriend does not have cancer. They found and removed a bleeding polyp. This was a huge relief as you can imagine,


Sandy if you are reading this I know you don't mind me sharing this information.


I love ya girl. Take care of my little niece - she better be able to fetch that ball the next time I see her. Tell her Otto is missing her even if she IS a girl.

[Lil Sis]

hi.. just reading this. Thank you so much Lou for updating. I am very glad she has you!!

Sending prayers and ((hugs)) Sandy

[Verbena]

I am glad Sandy is doing better and her GF is healing. . . .sending good thoughts to both

[yorkiemini]

Thanks for the update. She is still in my thought and prayers.

[lynzy420]

Originally Posted by Lou

You all are great for reaching out to Sandy when she needed it. We have become friends and I have grown to love Sandy and her little Kiri. As a matter of fact I am now Kiri's Auntie Lou.


Sandy is doing much better but she faces a long hard recovery from losing little Jake. He was her joy. Fortunately Sandy's girlfriend does not have cancer. They found and removed a bleeding polyp. This was a huge relief as you can imagine,


Sandy if you are reading this I know you don't mind me sharing this information.


I love ya girl. Take care of my little niece - she better be able to fetch that ball the next time I see her. Tell her Otto is missing her even if she IS a girl.

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I think of Sandy daily and am relieved and happy to hear such a wonderful update, give Sandy my love and I'm so glad her girlfriend is well....I'm praying that happy memories of Jake are filling those big voids....

Love you too Auntie Lou!!!!

[sandy simpson]

Hi Sandy! My name is Sandy. I want to tell you not to lose heart. This world we live in has a lot of pain and sorrow but we never give up our hope. This is not our home, we are here temporarily. We are to serve the Lord no matter what may come because we have this awesome promise of a beautiful place ready for us when He calls us home. I had cancer, suffered so much through that but now I help others ready to die. I work for hospice. We must be strong and accept what comes until Jesus calls us home. Life can be so depressing but remember who is in charge. Your little dog belongs to Jesus and He called him home. Rest and know that our Creator has all things under His control . I will pray for you to have peace in your heart.

[Buster Brown]

Thanks for the update Lou. Sandy you are in our prayers.