[DBlain]

I am sorry you are having such a hard time, it's a feeling most of us are familiar with.

I know it is hard to feel this way now, but I hope eventually you will be able to but celebrate the fact that you had 16 years with your pup. Unfortunately all of us that take a pet into our hearts will have to grieve their loss at some time. Does it make it any easier knowing that no, but it's the downside of loving a pet. My mom lost a dog when I was about 7 and she took it so hard that we could never have a dog again because she said she could not bear to go through the grief again. Now that I am grown, she has asked me several times over the last 30 years why I would get another dog knowing that it would eventually die and I would be heartbroken once again. I told her that the grief no matter how bad it was, was worth it because of the amazing love and companionship I had gotten from my pups. Had I been like her and closed myself off I never would have had the experience of all the joys Lola brings me. I am sort of rambling and might not come across the best, and I do understand your pain, but I guess what I am saying is that I realize you are sad and that you have to grieve but there are other things to open yourself up to so please don't let grief consume you for to long.