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celstu1 · 05-22-2012, 12:32 PM

awwwww poor you... poor Cosmo! RIP sweet boy

Time heals all wounds. I lost a baby way too young (only 5 months old) and it ate at me for a VERY long time. I got 2 new babies about 6 weeks after the loss and they did help heal my heart somewhat, but to this day I still remember my other boy (this happened almost 7 years ago now) and the memories are happy now, not sad. I had him cremated and his ashes in a little wooden urn with his picture and his footprint in clay. After about 5 years I put his ashes in a safe place, but not displayed anymore. It was really time to move on and say goodbye to my little man. He'll always have a special place in my heart and memories.

Buster Brown · 05-22-2012, 01:21 PM

My deepest sympathy on the loss of your best friend Cosmo.
This was shared by another YT member.

I haven't left at all
I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs
You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh.
But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow
You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know;
I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall
I want to help you understand I haven’t left at all.
On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief
I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief.
When you take our walking path I’ve seen you turn around
Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground.
At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side
You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie.
You said it’s just your heart playing tricks upon your mind
But rest assured I’m really there, my spirit’s left behind.
I know your heart is hurting; it’s like an open sore
You think my life has ended and you won’t see me anymore.
But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call;
It’s really the eternal beginning that waits for us all
So as you live your life I patiently await
For us to be together when you pass through Heaven’s gate.

scrapindee · 05-22-2012, 05:44 PM

So sorry for your loss.

We may be having puppies next month if you are thinking of a Biewer.

missingmycosmo · 05-22-2012, 06:07 PM

Well, going to bed without my Cosmo every night is just getting harder! I've been talking to 2 different breeders for Biewer yorkies located in the Shenandoah valley. I have mixed emotions about getting another dog...I must admit i used to judge those that quickly "replaced" a dog with another but I cant tell you what a huge hole i have in my heart. I'm also afraid that if I get another yorkie and something happens to it prematurely will I be able to handle it? So I'm worried, and lonely alone in my bed, this is day 6 without him:-(

KendraE · 05-22-2012, 07:47 PM

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Originally Posted by missingmycosmo

Well, going to bed without my Cosmo every night is just getting harder! I've been talking to 2 different breeders for Biewer yorkies located in the Shenandoah valley. I have mixed emotions about getting another dog...I must admit i used to judge those that quickly "replaced" a dog with another but I cant tell you what a huge hole i have in my heart. I'm also afraid that if I get another yorkie and something happens to it prematurely will I be able to handle it? So I'm worried, and lonely alone in my bed, this is day 6 without him:-(

I think of you everyday. I am so sorry. I think you should really think of opening your heart to a new baby. I believe this will help you overcome your heartache. Cosmo will never be replaced, but just think of what a loving home you could offer a new baby. Hugs!

missingmycosmo · 05-23-2012, 04:18 PM

Ok the Greens Treasured Yorkies look beautiful but do people actually ship a dog from Michigan to Virginia? I would probably fly there to get the puppy, I couldn't ship it. There is alot of back and forth going on in my mind like should I stick with regular yorkie, a gold dust yorkie or a Biewer? Today I took cards and a small picture to the veterinarians who took such good care of my little boy...I feel like most people I talk to about it are already tired of me talking about him being gone and I just can't.

msyorktown · 05-23-2012, 04:31 PM

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Originally Posted by missingmycosmo

Ok the Greens Treasured Yorkies look beautiful but do people actually ship a dog from Michigan to Virginia? I would probably fly there to get the puppy, I couldn't ship it. There is alot of back and forth going on in my mind like should I stick with regular yorkie, a gold dust yorkie or a Biewer? Today I took cards and a small picture to the veterinarians who took such good care of my little boy...I feel like most people I talk to about it are already tired of me talking about him being gone and I just can't.

I dont think Brenda actually 'ships" her babies...I believe they are sent in flight with a handler/courier. So the baby is in cabin, and they are hand delivered. If i am wrong someone correct me, thanks. I spoke with her recently as I am considering a pup from her...however I am in Canada and there is no one she trusts to bring the pup across the border to me, so I would have to drive to Michigan and meet her there. Hope this info helps,

Ringo1 · 05-23-2012, 04:34 PM

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Originally Posted by missingmycosmo

Ok the Greens Treasured Yorkies look beautiful but do people actually ship a dog from Michigan to Virginia? I would probably fly there to get the puppy, I couldn't ship it. There is alot of back and forth going on in my mind like should I stick with regular yorkie, a gold dust yorkie or a Biewer? Today I took cards and a small picture to the veterinarians who took such good care of my little boy...I feel like most people I talk to about it are already tired of me talking about him being gone and I just can't.

I felt the same way about my Casper. I just kept talking and talking about it; looking back, I probably was a little OCD about it. (Not you OP). But I would re-live his final moments over and over - perhaps it came too close to my Mom's death as well.

But I know if it helps you to talk about it; then you should tell your story over and over until you find peace. And you will find peace about it ~ though it may take time.

GeorgiesMomma · 05-23-2012, 05:48 PM

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Originally Posted by missingmycosmo

Ok the Greens Treasured Yorkies look beautiful but do people actually ship a dog from Michigan to Virginia? I would probably fly there to get the puppy, I couldn't ship it. There is alot of back and forth going on in my mind like should I stick with regular yorkie, a gold dust yorkie or a Biewer? Today I took cards and a small picture to the veterinarians who took such good care of my little boy...I feel like most people I talk to about it are already tired of me talking about him being gone and I just can't.

We are always here to listen. We all understand.

yorkiecrazy · 05-23-2012, 06:18 PM

So sorry for you lost of Cosmo. My heart breaks for you.

bchgirl · 05-23-2012, 06:53 PM

Time, sweetie...time. It just doesn't pass fast enough.
I call the pain you feel now...the trade. Most of us will outlive our dogs who have provided so much joy and love....so the pain you feel now is the "trade" for that joy. I have hurt exactly as you are now, but I have signed up for the "trade" several times over. When you are ready....you may get another who will never be a replacement but will make you smile and love again.
My deepest condolences on your loss of Cosmo.

_Chrissy_ · 05-24-2012, 01:13 AM

Just seeing your post...

I am SO sorry for your loss.
But, know that you did what was best for him.
The ultimate sacrifice for you to do what is best for him is so hard to do. That is true love.

You gave him love. The best gift of all.
I can't say it will get easier for a while. When I had to make a similar decision for my cat Alex 14 years ago (for much the same reasons as your Cosmo had) I was heart broken. 14 years and I still cry when I think of him.
Try to remember all the good times with Cosmo & the ones that make you laugh when the sadness is on your heart.
I am sending you warm thoughts and hugs.

R.I.P. Sweet Cosmo

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Originally Posted by missingmycosmo

Ok the Greens Treasured Yorkies look beautiful but do people actually ship a dog from Michigan to Virginia? I would probably fly there to get the puppy, I couldn't ship it. There is alot of back and forth going on in my mind like should I stick with regular yorkie, a gold dust yorkie or a Biewer? Today I took cards and a small picture to the veterinarians who took such good care of my little boy...I feel like most people I talk to about it are already tired of me talking about him being gone and I just can't.

By the way, Mickey, in my avatar, is from Greens Treasured Yorkies (Breny).
I live in MD (near Bethesda/Rockville) and Breny "shipped" Mickey to me (BWI). One hour flight on SW airlines.
Breny is awesome and if I ever wanted another Yorkie I would get one from her.

_Chrissy_ · 05-24-2012, 01:22 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by msyorktown

I dont think Brenda actually 'ships" her babies...I believe they are sent in flight with a handler/courier. So the baby is in cabin, and they are hand delivered. If i am wrong someone correct me, thanks. I spoke with her recently as I am considering a pup from her...however I am in Canada and there is no one she trusts to bring the pup across the border to me, so I would have to drive to Michigan and meet her there. Hope this info helps,

Now she has a pup sitter/handler/courier deliver them I think. When I got Mickey it was just him. But it was only a 1 hour flight.

gracielove · 05-24-2012, 02:37 AM

I know some people just don't understand how painful the loss of a beloved pet is. Maybe your friends/family are just uncomfortable to see you hurting so much.
A puppy may help to fill the empty place and the hurt in your heart but it will never replace your him. He will always be special to you.
Take your time finding the right new member of your family. Be prepared for this puppy to be different than Cosmo. Give yourself some time to get over this shock so your not second guessing yourself later. There is plenty of time to find just the right one.

_Chrissy_ · 05-24-2012, 03:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by gracielove

I know some people just don't understand how painful the loss of a beloved pet is. Maybe your friends/family are just uncomfortable to see you hurting so much.
A puppy may help to fill the empty place and the hurt in your heart but it will never replace your him. He will always be special to you.
Take your time finding the right new member of your family. Be prepared for this puppy to be different than Cosmo. Give yourself some time to get over this shock so your not second guessing yourself later. There is plenty of time to find just the right one.

Beautifully said

05-22-2012, 12:32 PM	#76
celstu1 Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: New Hampshire Posts: 10,534	awwwww poor you... poor Cosmo! RIP sweet boy Time heals all wounds. I lost a baby way too young (only 5 months old) and it ate at me for a VERY long time. I got 2 new babies about 6 weeks after the loss and they did help heal my heart somewhat, but to this day I still remember my other boy (this happened almost 7 years ago now) and the memories are happy now, not sad. I had him cremated and his ashes in a little wooden urn with his picture and his footprint in clay. After about 5 years I put his ashes in a safe place, but not displayed anymore. It was really time to move on and say goodbye to my little man. He'll always have a special place in my heart and memories. __________________ “Petting, scratching, and cuddling a dog could be as soothing to the mind and heart as deep meditation and almost as good for the soul as prayer.” ― Dean Koontz

05-22-2012, 01:21 PM	#77
Buster Brown Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Toluca Lake, CA Posts: 5,491	My deepest sympathy on the loss of your best friend Cosmo. This was shared by another YT member. I haven't left at all I saw you gently weeping as you looked through photographs You paused for just a moment at one that made you laugh. But as you turned more pages the tears began to flow You whispered that you missed me but I want you to know; I softly licked those stinging tears that down your cheeks did fall I want to help you understand I haven’t left at all. On those days that you are overcome with sorrow, pain and grief I rest my head upon your leg to offer some relief. When you take our walking path I’ve seen you turn around Because I know you surely heard my paws upon the ground. At night while you are sleeping I snuggle at your side You stroke my fur as you touch that place where I used to lie. You said it’s just your heart playing tricks upon your mind But rest assured I’m really there, my spirit’s left behind. I know your heart is hurting; it’s like an open sore You think my life has ended and you won’t see me anymore. But for those of us bound tight by love, death is not the curtain call; It’s really the eternal beginning that waits for us all So as you live your life I patiently await For us to be together when you pass through Heaven’s gate. __________________ CarolynBuster Brown "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything."

05-22-2012, 05:44 PM	#78
scrapindee Donating YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Redlands Posts: 4,842 Blog Entries: 2	So sorry for your loss. We may be having puppies next month if you are thinking of a Biewer. __________________ Scrapindee--Team Furry & the Biewers www.houseofwags.com

05-23-2012, 06:18 PM	#85
yorkiecrazy Donating YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Houston area Posts: 2,672	So sorry for you lost of Cosmo. My heart breaks for you. __________________ Jamie - Gracie's Katie's and Chloe's mom : Gracie 11-12-99 11-1-2012

05-23-2012, 06:53 PM	#86
bchgirl Donating YT 10K Club Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: at da beach Posts: 15,444 Blog Entries: 2	Time, sweetie...time. It just doesn't pass fast enough. I call the pain you feel now...the trade. Most of us will outlive our dogs who have provided so much joy and love....so the pain you feel now is the "trade" for that joy. I have hurt exactly as you are now, but I have signed up for the "trade" several times over. When you are ready....you may get another who will never be a replacement but will make you smile and love again. My deepest condolences on your loss of Cosmo. __________________ Deb, Reese, Reggie, Frazier, Libby, Sidney, & Bodie Trace & Ramsey who watch over us www.biewersbythebay.com

05-22-2012, 06:07 PM	#79
missingmycosmo Yorkie Yakker Join Date: May 2012 Location: Glen Allen, VA Posts: 31	Well, going to bed without my Cosmo every night is just getting harder! I've been talking to 2 different breeders for Biewer yorkies located in the Shenandoah valley. I have mixed emotions about getting another dog...I must admit i used to judge those that quickly "replaced" a dog with another but I cant tell you what a huge hole i have in my heart. I'm also afraid that if I get another yorkie and something happens to it prematurely will I be able to handle it? So I'm worried, and lonely alone in my bed, this is day 6 without him:-(

05-23-2012, 04:18 PM	#81
missingmycosmo Yorkie Yakker Join Date: May 2012 Location: Glen Allen, VA Posts: 31	Ok the Greens Treasured Yorkies look beautiful but do people actually ship a dog from Michigan to Virginia? I would probably fly there to get the puppy, I couldn't ship it. There is alot of back and forth going on in my mind like should I stick with regular yorkie, a gold dust yorkie or a Biewer? Today I took cards and a small picture to the veterinarians who took such good care of my little boy...I feel like most people I talk to about it are already tired of me talking about him being gone and I just can't.

05-24-2012, 02:37 AM	#89
gracielove YT 3000 Club Member Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: NY Posts: 6,582	I know some people just don't understand how painful the loss of a beloved pet is. Maybe your friends/family are just uncomfortable to see you hurting so much. A puppy may help to fill the empty place and the hurt in your heart but it will never replace your him. He will always be special to you. Take your time finding the right new member of your family. Be prepared for this puppy to be different than Cosmo. Give yourself some time to get over this shock so your not second guessing yourself later. There is plenty of time to find just the right one.