Yesterday I sent my yorkie to heaven and today I want to die

[lisaly]

Please accept my deepest condolences on the loss of your baby. When I lost my first Yorkie, I didn't think I could possibly love another baby like her. I was wrong, though, and soon after that we brought three little girls into our lives that completely took my breath away when I looked at them. I lost my last little girl, Ashley, almost two years ago, and although the pain never goes away, it does diminish with time. The love lasts forever, though, and when we talk about our little girls, we are overtaken with such a feeling of love and joy. There is no one that could ever replace them, but our new little girl, Katie, that we brought home a week ago has already stolen our hearts. It is so difficult to lose someone loved so dearly, but it will get better in time. My little ones remain in our hearts always and we will always miss them, but Katie has already brought so much joy into our lives in the short time that she has been with us. You'll know when you are ready to love again. For me, the love that these pups bring to our lives is worth the deep pain we experience when we lose them. It would be a far greater loss to not have them in our lives.

My close friend sent me the attached video when we lost Ashley. I hope it brings you the same kind of comfort that it brought us. I also hope the passage Living Love helps to heal your heart. My heart breaks for you, and I am so sorry for your loss.

Saying Goodbye - Loss of a pet - YouTube

Living Love

If you ever love an animal, there are three days in your life you will always remember...

The first is a day, blessed with happiness, when you bring home your young new friend. You may have spent weeks deciding on a breed. You may have asked numerous opinions of many vets, or done long research in finding a breeder. Or, perhaps in a fleeting moment, you may have just chosen that silly looking mutt in a shelter--simple because something in its eyes reached your heart. But when you bring that chosen pet home, and watch it explore, and claim its special place in your hall or front room--and when you feel it brush against you for the first time--it instills a feeling of pure love you will carry with you through the many years to come.

The second day will occur eight or nine or ten years later. It will be a day like any other. Routine and unexceptional. But, for a surprising instant, you will look at your longtime friend and see age where you once saw youth. You will see slow deliberate steps where you once saw energy. And you will see sleep where you once saw activity. So you will begin to adjust your friend's diet--and you may add a pill or two to her food. And you may feel a growing fear deep within yourself, which bodes of a coming emptiness. And you will feel this uneasy feeling, on and off, until the third day finally arrives.

And on this day--if your friend and God have not decided for you, then you will be faced with making a decision of your own--on behalf of your lifelong friend, and with the guidance of your own deepest Spirit. But whichever way your friend eventually leaves you---you will feel as alone as a single star in the dark night.

If you are wise, you will let the tears flow as freely and as often as they must. And if you are typical, you will find that not many in your circle of family or friends will be able to understand your grief, or comfort you.

But if you are true to the love of the pet you cherished through the many joy-filled years, you may find that a soul--a bit smaller in size than your own---seems to walk with you, at times, during the lonely days to come. And at moments when you least expect anything out of the ordinary to happen, you may feel something brush against your leg--very very lightly.

And looking down at the place where your dear, perhaps dearest, friend used to lay---you will remember those three significant days. The memory will most likely be painful, and leave an ache in your heart---As time passes the ache will come and go as it has a life of its own. You will both reject it and embrace it, and it may confuse you. If you reject it, it will depress you. If you embrace it, it will deepen you. Either way, it will still be an ache.

But there will be, I assure you, a fourth day when---along with the memory of your pet---and piercing through the heaviness in your heart---there will come a realization that belongs only to you. It will be as unique and strong as our relationship with each animal we have loved, and lost. This realization takes the form of a Living Love---like the heavenly scent of a rose that remains after the petals have wilted, this Love will remain and grow--and be there for us to remember. It is a love we have earned. It is the legacy our pets leave us when they go. And it is a gift we may keep with us as long as we live. It is a Love which is ours alone. And until we ourselves leave, perhaps to join our Beloved Pets--it is a Love that we will always possess.

-Written by Martin Scot Kosins

[chestermama]

IM so sorry for your loss

[anniernc]

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this tragic time. Cosmo knows how much you loved him and how hard it was to let him go but he knew it had to be done to end his suffering. He will always have a very special place in your heart that no other can replace but maybe one day you'll be able to love another little furbaby.

[BabyGirl Rosie]

I am so sorry for your loss. I can not even begin to imagine the heart ache you are feeling. Time will help but I don't think you ever really get over it. Just time heals the wounds. Your baby is happy playing on Rainbow Bridge now. Always remember you were a good momma. Prayers and hugs to you.

[Patti]

My heart breaks for you. I have lost several of my beloved babies and it is always so hard. For me getting another one to love and keep me busy helped. I always felt that each one had a special place in my heart and not that I was replacing one. You will know when the right time is for you.

[Jacksmom052709]

I am so sorry for you loss. I think everyone has said it very well. The grieving and healing process are different for everyone. We had to put our first pup down - Max - he was a 13 year old Sheltie. He was the best dog ever. Worst day of my life actually - my hubby and I both took him to the vet as he had, we believe, a stroke. As your home is empty, ours was too. Max had only been gone about 2 weeks and I had to go get a puppy to help me break out of my depression. I'm not so sure I would have gotten a puppy when I did but my manager at work had just bought her puppy and she told me about her, etc. I went to get another Sheltie, but the store had sold the two they had available. I looked at Jack and his sister and decided on Jack - He has been a huge light in our lives ever since. Good luck to you and please accept my deepest condolences.

[mamaj]

I am sitting here crying over your post. I lost 3 dogs in one winter. They were old. Getting a new pup soon. Hang in there. It takes time but then you will remember all the good things and be able to talk about them. RIP Cosmo Little angel

[citygirl123]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[BellarousasMom]

So sorry for your loss.

What's right for one person isn't right for another. I got Bella about a year and a half before I knew I would have to make that decision with my cattle dog. I knew that I had to have another dog which would make Cheyennes loss easier for me. But that wouldn't be the right thing to do for everyone, and I honestly don't know if I would have a pup now if I would have waited. Hang in there, you'll know when the time is right, really. Enjoy your memories of your little Cosmo.

[missingmycosmo]

I've been doing reserach on breeders and I have come across a unique breed or yorkie called Biemer? Has anyone heard or know much about this breed? I like that he/she wouldn't look exactly like Cosmo did, I'm considering because I am just SO lonely and I'm afraid that if I wait too long I will never do it...

[Yorkie Mom2]

I can only imagine your grief, but you did the right thing. When my mother lay dying, she said, "If a dog felt the way I do now, they would put it out of its misery." I will never let an animal I love suffer. With that in mind, I now have an 8 year old and a 10 year old yorkie. I dread the time when I must say good-bye. My prayer is that it happens naturally, but if I must make the choice, I pray I have the same strength you did and do the right thing.

[Sandysbabies]

RIP sweet baby Cosmo. You will never be forgotten.

[Donnainohio63]

I am so sorry for your loss. Yes I have been where you are at and luckily my child went out and got me another furkid because I cant say what would have happened without this new love of mine. Scooter in no way replaced Sophie Lynn, but he sure did help to fill that whole in my heart. I still think about my Sophie Lynn and I still shed tears from time to time but I know I will hold her in my arms again someday

[Jenny_60]

She was rescued from a puppy mill. We got her when she was 6 and was not quite 10 when she passed away. She had kidney problems and the odds were not in her favor. I cried and cried and cried. She was such a sweet little girl. I truly understand.

[Carmeow]

Pleasant or not, you did an amazing, selfless thing for your baby. My boyfriends aunt has a dog, blind and deaf, dying slowly and painfully as she loves it too much to let him go peacefully. You did the best thing you could have done in that situation, a finnal way to say I love you, and I commend you for that.

Please stay strong and think of the happy memories you had with Cosmo, and know he says "thank you, mommy" from the rainbow bridge, for letting his suffering end.