You Know the sad thing is....

[gemy]

It is so great to be part of a passionate and compassionate community of people.

Your obvious caring, and willingness to share the depth of your feelings has touched my heart deeply.

Thank you for being here, to listen, and to care.

[kjc]

Furbutt: I understand how you feel and just wanted to say this: I found it very hard too thinking of my Yorkie being 'gone' forever. I was sad and absolutely miserable. I decided to try and change my thoughts about death, instead of seeing it as an end to life, I now see it as moving on, to another dimension, to be Home with God, to be at Rainbow Bridge with friends. As I accepted this, I became calmer on losing my buddy, because I know now that I will see her again, when my time comes. And I truly believe that. Something with such a strong spirit cannot just go, they have to go somewhere, and that's where I will go too. In the meantime, she will remain in my heart... in her special place. Her things now remind me of happy moments as they trigger memories... her bed..I can still see her curled up in it. Her toys... I can see her running after them. Whenever I see a box of Milkbone dog biscuits... I laugh because she would stick her head and half her body in the box to get one out. I still miss her dearly, but I feel better knowing I WILL see her again.

Gemy: Great thread! I had problems getting a second, third, and fourth Yorkie... I thought I would be depriving someone else of having one and experiencing the love and joy of Yorkie ownership. But after some research and seeing the numbers of Yorkies needing homes, I thought differently, and acquired my pack. Mainly due to the fact that my single Yorkie seemed depressed when his older housemates passed. I thought we would have some special time together... and we did... but he longed for another fourlegged friend to be boss of. He's 13 years old... and the other night he awoke from a dead sleep and started howling (like a wolf). I guess having a housefull of Yorkies triggered some ancient cell memories and he woke up to call to his pack!

[furbutt]

Yeah i guess so. Just still so upsetting for me

[lisaly]

Natasha, I wish I could say something that could heal some of the pain you feel. Each of us handles grief differently. I know I won't ever let go of my little girls, but it won't stop me from loving again. You will always have the bond with your little boy; trust me, it doesn't go away. I know from how much love my husband and I feel for Ashley and her sisters and how many times we talk about them. When we talk about our little terror, our lovebugGracie, and our sweet, sweet Kiwi who tried to act so tough, we feel such overwhelming love and happiness. We talk about how Jolie learned to smile by imitating the way my husband looked when he saw her. When I brought Ashley to the vet, and the staff there would tell me how much they loved my other girls, it made me feel really happy that others remembered them. The pain is still there and it's deep, but it's not the pain that I feel right now after losing Ashley. It doesn't go away, but it eases in time. I knew with each passing year that it was going to be devastating to lose Ashley, but I poured my heart into her and gave her my complete love. It is what I owed her, and my feelings were so overwhelming, that I couldn't have pulled away even if I had wanted to. I don't ever want to move on and forget about these feelings--the pain or the love. But that doesn't mean I won't be able to live and feel happiness. You brought Poppy into your life, and I think that is wonderful. You may be trying to put your little boy out of your mind, but that's because it's too painful for you right now. That's how you are dealing with the grief, and that's what you need to do right now if it's right for you. You are being such a wonderful mommy to your precious Poppy, and I hope she melts away your grief in time. If I can help you in any way, please let me know. Give little Poppy some kisses for me.

[Pipers]

Natasha, I agree with Lisaly, she could not have explained the feelings we have for our animals. Am greatful for Gemy to start this thread. You are already on the way toward healing just by opening up about this. There will always be moments when you will think about your little buddy... You know I've had animals all my life and I always wanted a Yorkie since I was 8 years old, and now at 47 I finally received her as a gift. I have always departed with our beloved animals because for the most part we outlive them, and they always had good fulfilling lives, they were loved and taken care of....that being said I have said to my husband "I'm not looking forward to the day she is no longer with us." Only because my husband loves shelties (we found one as a stray, she was dirty, skinny with a broken rope around her neck we didn't know what she was she just desperately needed a home) when the vet told us she was a breed of dog my husband just fell in love with their loyalty, their easy medium size, etc. so we've had 3 shelties in 27 years, cat, birds, etc. I guess what I'm trying to say is I have a very strong bond with Piper. Of course I love every furry creature there is, but Piper is my baby, and I don't think what your feeling is unusual at all. It seems you never gave yourself closure or mourned your baby completely. Everything takes time, and I know you get such a charge out of Poppy, along with the problems you had with her breeder may have made you feel more "tweeked", but I know you are an amazing mom to her with the way you made sure she was eating, pooping LOL!!I know I have a real tight bond with Piper, but life is full of positive things to look forward to, sooooo give your baby lots of kisses, and its o.k. to always have your little boy in your heart, you have to grieve, have closure, then it will be easier. Poppy will have her own personality, she will give you so much love. cherish her. Hope we are helping you.
P.S. don't even try to talk to people who are not animal people, it's like talking to a brick wall!

[Pipers]

Also agree with kjc great thread, they definately just don't leave us, their spirit seems to show up......

[Pipers]

Originally Posted by gemy

It is so great to be part of a passionate and compassionate community of people.

Your obvious caring, and willingness to share the depth of your feelings has touched my heart deeply.

Thank you for being here, to listen, and to care.

Thanks for starting this thread Gemy, I think we all needed this.

[rhondah]

You said it all!!!!!! I can't count the times my little one has been by my side when I was feeling down. It is a great feeling when that little furbutt snuggles behind you. These animals are not crazy they no when you need some love!!!

[shawnzeppi]

[QUOTE=kjc;3247997]Furbutt: I understand how you feel and just wanted to say this: I found it very hard too thinking of my Yorkie being 'gone' forever. I was sad and absolutely miserable. I decided to try and change my thoughts about death, instead of seeing it as an end to life, I now see it as moving on, to another dimension, to be Home with God, to be at Rainbow Bridge with friends. As I accepted this, I became calmer on losing my buddy, because I know now that I will see her again, when my time comes. And I truly believe that. Something with such a strong spirit cannot just go, they have to go somewhere, and that's where I will go too. In the meantime, she will remain in my heart... in her special place. Her things now remind me of happy moments as they trigger memories... her bed..I can still see her curled up in it. Her toys... I can see her running after them. Whenever I see a box of Milkbone dog biscuits... I laugh because she would stick her head and half her body in the box to get one out. I still miss her dearly, but I feel better knowing I WILL see her again...

This is just the philosophy we have about our first Yorkie, who passed away 3 years ago now. It's very difficult to come to terms with accepting he's gone (in this world); still think about him and some of the great fun we had every day, even now. I think you have to realize that no new pet will ever replace the one you lost, just create another opportunity yet for another relationship with a wonderful new member of the family. Also a chance to build more memories to last a (human) lifetime.

[furbutt]

Thank you all so much. You all are so so kind. I try not to think or remeber him because it is to painful and thats why i couldnt even bring myself to tell everyone on here about whats happened because it was just to upseting, sounds horrible but i didnt want to be someone who had lost their little yorkie. Its just broke my heart so much.

Poppy is such a little bungle of life haha! She makes me smile and laugh and i cant stop fussing over her. I wake up like 7 times during the night just making sure she is still breathing i get so scared she is going to pass away. She is a stong little fighter tho. Shes asleep on my neck right now She has made me really happy xxxx

Thank you all for your kind words xxx

[KJLive]

Originally Posted by lisaly

Natasha, I wish I could say something that could heal some of the pain you feel. Each of us handles grief differently. I know I won't ever let go of my little girls, but it won't stop me from loving again. You will always have the bond with your little boy; trust me, it doesn't go away. I know from how much love my husband and I feel for Ashley and her sisters and how many times we talk about them. When we talk about our little terror, our lovebugGracie, and our sweet, sweet Kiwi who tried to act so tough, we feel such overwhelming love and happiness. We talk about how Jolie learned to smile by imitating the way my husband looked when he saw her. When I brought Ashley to the vet, and the staff there would tell me how much they loved my other girls, it made me feel really happy that others remembered them. The pain is still there and it's deep, but it's not the pain that I feel right now after losing Ashley. It doesn't go away, but it eases in time. I knew with each passing year that it was going to be devastating to lose Ashley, but I poured my heart into her and gave her my complete love. It is what I owed her, and my feelings were so overwhelming, that I couldn't have pulled away even if I had wanted to. I don't ever want to move on and forget about these feelings--the pain or the love. But that doesn't mean I won't be able to live and feel happiness. You brought Poppy into your life, and I think that is wonderful. You may be trying to put your little boy out of your mind, but that's because it's too painful for you right now. That's how you are dealing with the grief, and that's what you need to do right now if it's right for you. You are being such a wonderful mommy to your precious Poppy, and I hope she melts away your grief in time. If I can help you in any way, please let me know. Give little Poppy some kisses for me.

WOW! I am in tears at your loss and in awe of your strength. Thank you everyone for putting into words what I find so hard to explain.

[MyBabyFynnlie]

I couldn't have said it better myself!

I don't have a dog, I have a best friend.

[deonk1]

Originally Posted by Roxiesmama

I was one of *those* people. I never wanted a dog, and couldn't understand how people would treat their pets like people, or members of the family.

Everything changed when Roxie came to me last October. My whole outlook on dogs, pets, and animals in general has changed. I see how she has her own little personality. I laugh and smile at her little antics. I love when she curls up with me on the couch to watch TV. I look forward to her running towards me when I come down the stairs in the morning, or come in the door after being out somewhere. It's truly amazing how having her in my life has changed me.

I know I will never be able to impart my feelings on others...they just need to experience it themselves in order to know if they are going to give in to it or not.

I used to be scared of dogs. Ok I had my horses and they were my life for well most of my life... but then I got lonely after leaving the barn. Financially a horse wasn't an option, and my bf is deathly allergic to cats. So my friend suggested a dog. I thought she was nuts, because I was always afraid of them (mainly because my aunts dogs were all I'd known and they were usually bigger and rescues that weren't well trained, they jumped a lot which freaked me out) Well I started looking at breeds and thought... humm I think I want a Yorkie. it all started that day when I sat the bf down and said, "Honey I have a question, and I want you to think long and hard before answering, if you say yes your not allowed to say no later on... can we get a puppy?" The momment he said yes without hesitation we became owned by my little Yorkie who wasn't even born yet.

Harley has been a joy in my life, and has done so much for me. He's really saved me from spending a fortune on therapy for anxiety, and always gives me the love and care I need after a bad day. It saddens me to see people who just don't understand why we act the way we do with our babies.

[lisaly]

Originally Posted by furbutt

Thank you all so much. You all are so so kind. I try not to think or remeber him because it is to painful and thats why i couldnt even bring myself to tell everyone on here about whats happened because it was just to upseting, sounds horrible but i didnt want to be someone who had lost their little yorkie. Its just broke my heart so much.

Poppy is such a little bungle of life haha! She makes me smile and laugh and i cant stop fussing over her. I wake up like 7 times during the night just making sure she is still breathing i get so scared she is going to pass away. She is a stong little fighter tho. Shes asleep on my neck right now She has made me really happy xxxx

Thank you all for your kind words xxx

You don't ever need to talk about him if you don't want to. Just know that if you ever decide you need our help, we will be here for you. I related to the waking up during the night to check to see if Poppy is breathing part. With me, it was more like staying up all night to check on Ashley and also just to stare at her sleeping so peacefully. Ashley must have thought I was a big pest always checking on her, but she was so good natured and it probably felt like someone lovingly reassuring her when I touched her to check her breathing. I can't tell you the wonder I'd feel watching her do the same things she did every day. like flailing her arms like a baby and reaching out to me to get me to pick her up when my husband was holding her and she thought we'd be going for a walk or on an adventure. It was like a new thing to me, and my heart would melt each time. Ashley was pretty healthy, so it was my fear about her advancing age that made me more apprehensive. I always worried about her, even when she was little, because she was my baby. You are doing such a wonderful job with Poppy, and you are a great mommy. You also have Yorkie Talk guardian angels looking out for Poppy and she has her aunts who are pulling for the two of you. I knew how scared you were when you realized she was so young, which was certainly understandable. I now know you must have been completely terrified, but you lovingly and selflessly did what needed to be done to keep her alive and healthy. It makes me so happy that Poppy is bringing joy and laughter into your life. The two of you are going to have a wonderful life together. My husband and I are looking forward to the day when we can bring our little "Poppy" into our lives. Ashley and her sisters will be no less loved, and we will miss each of them just as much. They will always be a huge part of our hearts, but we learned from both of our mothers and our babies about unconditional love and how wonderful it is to love with a completely open heart. It's funny coming from me because I am a worrier about the people and animals that I love, but try to stop worrying if you can, and just enjoy the wonder of Poppy. Cherish each day with her, and keep laughing and enjoying your time with her. It seems like you have a little angel also.

[furbutt]

Oh gosh you have a way with words that makes me sob its so beautiful how you put things! Thank you so much i ts weird because i wont mention him to anyone and no one will mention him to me but yet i have started talking to him to you and i dunno its kinda helped alittle to maybe let go of the anger i have about it all, i guess i was more angry he had gone and upset. I also think Poppy must htink i am a pest the amount i pester her when i think she is in danger or has stopped breathing or even when she has puppy dreams i wake her up as i am scared haha! Is it ok if i PM you? xxx