Omg I Need To Vent !!!!!!!! Omg !!!

[lkirk4179]

I just started this forum or i would of loved to do something to help you in your time of need.
The ppl in here are just an awsome bunch and i know they will do what they can to help you through this.
Whatever i say will not bring precious ella back but i just want to tell you that im terribly sorry and wish you and your boyfriend the very best.
Im still praying for you
hugs
laura

syl- You made me cry

[Syl-]

Well grab your box of kleenex and read this sight. It will make you cry and it will make you laugh ad if you follow through will help to give you peace. My little Buddy is honored here and it helped. http://community-2.webtv.net/mayko2/MAX/

[YorkieMom55]

Originally Posted by Marcellacml

heres what we can do..whoever donated you could just post your name here..i'd hate for it to look like Melissa and I are taking all the credit for this

i'm so happy that they made you smile

me too, dear one.

[LunasMomma]

I was lucky enough to be asked to donate. I'm glad that you at least were able to smile a little today, my friend!!!

[RascalLucy]

I donated also, I am still thinking about you and your boyfriend and wishing for good things to come your way.






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[Tink's Mom]

I donated too. I'm glad it helped a little.

[chuey]

Aubrey,

Chuey and I got to send you a little something too! Hope you enjoy it! Its on behalf of all of us here at YT. I am so glad I found this site. I am praying for you. There are some great people here looking out for you that reached out to members like me. I know baby Ella is helping Chuey every step of the way through his illness, and because of this, he's getting better, slowly, but we're getting somewhere. My husband, Richard, sends his regards to all of you.

Take care,

Raquel, Chuey, Diablo-aka "Gentle Giant", and Ginger-aka "Killer" (she's such a girl right? you can tell by the pic which is which

btw Aubrey, Diablo's and Ginger's kisses are pretty messy!!

[ssmiles1980A]

I just wanted to THANK everyone again for the flowers, i have been crying all day, and i keep looking at the flowers thinking im so lucky to have you all, and i mean that from the bottom of my heart, what angels everysingle one of you are ....it just makes me cry and cry because i miss my baby ella just so very much, it hurts so so bad .

[ssmiles1980A]

Originally Posted by chuey

Aubrey,

Chuey and I got to send you a little something too! Hope you enjoy it! Its on behalf of all of us here at YT. I am so glad I found this site. I am praying for you. There are some great people here looking out for you that reached out to members like me. I know baby Ella is helping Chuey every step of the way through his illness, and because of this, he's getting better, slowly, but we're getting somewhere. My husband, Richard, sends his regards to all of you.

Take care,

Raquel, Chuey, Diablo-aka "Gentle Giant", and Ginger-aka "Killer" (she's such a girl right? you can tell by the pic which is which

btw Aubrey, Diablo's and Ginger's kisses are pretty messy!!

i KNOW ella is looking on down chuey and helping him everysingle day, and i know it may take time, but hes in my heart and thoughts and im praying for him, but i know with my baby girl up there chuey is being looked down upon and he will get better . Thank you so much again for everything i feel like i will never be able to repay you and everyone back for all the kindness and support and love and most of all the love for ella, i say it over and over but ella has NO idea how very lucky she was to have so many of you amazing friends .
Thank you again, Truly

[ssmiles1980A]

Originally Posted by chuey

Aubrey,

Chuey and I got to send you a little something too! Hope you enjoy it! Its on behalf of all of us here at YT. I am so glad I found this site. I am praying for you. There are some great people here looking out for you that reached out to members like me. I know baby Ella is helping Chuey every step of the way through his illness, and because of this, he's getting better, slowly, but we're getting somewhere. My husband, Richard, sends his regards to all of you.

Take care,

Raquel, Chuey, Diablo-aka "Gentle Giant", and Ginger-aka "Killer" (she's such a girl right? you can tell by the pic which is which

btw Aubrey, Diablo's and Ginger's kisses are pretty messy!!

OH aND by the way what absolutly beautiful pics ... i dont mind messy kisses, i will take them anyday


BIG HUGS

[ssmiles1980A]

Originally Posted by Syl-

Well grab your box of kleenex and read this sight. It will make you cry and it will make you laugh ad if you follow through will help to give you peace. My little Buddy is honored here and it helped. http://community-2.webtv.net/mayko2/MAX/

thank you, i started to read some and it made me just cry and cry , thank you again for the site

Hugs

[ssmiles1980A]

Originally Posted by lkirk4179

I just started this forum or i would of loved to do something to help you in your time of need.
The ppl in here are just an awsome bunch and i know they will do what they can to help you through this.
Whatever i say will not bring precious ella back but i just want to tell you that im terribly sorry and wish you and your boyfriend the very best.
Im still praying for you
hugs
laura

syl- You made me cry

Thank you so much that is very sweet of you , Truly

[ssmiles1980A]

Originally Posted by BellaWillow

Dear Aubrey:

My heart continues to break for you as you mourn the loss of your sweet little baby Ella. There is not a day that hasn't went by that I haven't cried when I thought of the pain that you are going through. I wish I could say something to ease your pain . . . but all I can say is that we are all here for you Aubrey. We are here for you as you go through the grieving process of what was a terrible tragic horrific accident . . . but truly an accident.

All those crazy mixed up emotions you are feeling right now . . . the hatred . . . the guilt . . . the sorrow . . . honey they are all part of the natural grieving process . . . and it is so important that you continue to stay connected to the people that truly love you as you go through this. Will loves you Aubrey and I know that he is just as torn up with grief and guilt over this horrible tragedy as well. The anger that you feel toward him is part of the natural grieving process and you must let yourself go through it in order to heal.

Try not to be too hard on him Aubrey. Will is hurting too. Will just may be hurting more than you will ever know. You two need to hold on to each other, cry together, and heal together. No little puppy will ever replace sweet baby Ella . . . but someday you may feel that another puppy might be what Ella would want for you to truly heal your heart and put some closure on this. Aubrey your little baby Ella is not mad at you and don't ever think that you weren't a good momma to her. You gave her a lot of joy and love in her short little life and no one could ever blame you or Will for this accident. Aubrey is was a horrible accident and it was not your fault . . . it was not Will's fault either. I know it is hard to understand that now . . . but in time I hope you can come to understand and accept it. Accidents do happen and you can't blame yourself, or hate yourself, or blame Will, or hate Will for it. You need to find acceptance. I know it is hard right now to see this . . . but in time I know you can.

Aubrey I continue to light a candle every night for you and Will and sweet little baby Ella. I pray that you somehow find it in your heart to forgive yourself and forgive Will. I continue to pray for your baby and pray that you somehow find comfort in knowing that she loved you very much and that God needed a sweet little baby angel yorkie there beside him. I know that words cannot ease your pain . . . but I pray that somehow you will find peace in knowing that you are truly loved . . . your baby Ella continues to love you . . . and we love you too.

Love Pegi Taylor

Thank you so so much for writing this to me, after a long day of crying and fighting with will, i have read what you wrote several times, and what you said touched me in everyway, thank you for taking the time to write this to me,im worried that my anger for will isnt going away, i mean i think its time i end that feeling because i know its not really how i feel, because i love him so much, i know i have been distant with him and when we do talk im either crying or yelling and saying hurtful things to him, and i dont want to do that, because in reality i just know the pain of losing her, i dont have the pain of being the one who stepped on her, and for that alone i know how unfair it is for me to be this way to him, i know he is hurting too, and im not helping the healing process, im only making it worse for both of us ....this just happened so fast that its so unfair, i know life isnt fair, i just miss her, i feel like i see her everywhere .....i just miss her so very much, i was so attached to her in everyway, we had a very short time together but i loved her just so very much, she deserved so much better, will says i need to start the healing process and i know that he is right, its just everday it becomes more real that she is really gone and never coming back . and it just hurts sooo bad

well i guess i just have to take one day a time

will went on to blockbuster to get a DVD so we can relax together and watch a movie ... have a great night my Friends
Love-Aub
(( HUGS ))

[jnguyen115]

Aubrey,
I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. I've been praying for Baby Ella from the very beginning and I know she's in a happier place now. I hope you feel better..<3

[xbeebeex]

OMG im so so sorry..i just read your post right now..the whole thing and it brought tears to my eyes...while i was reading i was holding my wyatt the whole time..i didnt want to let him go...i can say that i feel your pain when i lost my lowie..it hurts some much..that was before i knew about this site..and i didnt have all the love and support that we have here...just know that we are here for you and your love ones...and know that elle is smiling down on you (mom) and saying she did what she could and i love her for that...it was just an accident and i tried my best to fight...please dont hate your boyfriend for it..i know he has to feel really bad being that he made a mistake..but he loves you dearly...and i know he is sorry for what happend...but just know we all make mistakes and some of them unfortunate are life threating..but god knows our hearts and can heal them too..its just going to take time...love your little elle still and keep her in your heart...as we will too here on YT...sorry for you loss..and we keep you in our prayer!