Euthanizer = killer?

[tammy8833]

I am struggling with something..but im not looking for sympathy or pity just some rashional coversation.

my gidget last week was attacked in our yard by a mastiff..( i posted it earlier) i was to late to stop it, it happened so quickly.

when i found her, she walked to me and collasped and thats when she rolled over and i saw the blood i immediately rushed her to the vets..she was in extreme shock, she spendt the day there until i had to transport her to the ER in town. once there decisions had to be made...

her stomach lining was torn and her intestines and other items had spilled out and she was coated in infection..we could do emergency surgery which was $6000, w a week stay but the possibility of her surving it with the infection was slim.

she was in pain horrible pain. i opted to let her go..she was so much of my heart...

i signed he papers and held her as she slipped away...

now that the dust has settled,so to speak..i have this feeling..and it gets me in the quiet of the night.

that i signed for her death...what if i made a mistake? what if she would have rallied and made it? How could i kill her? i can honestly say she was one of the great loves in my life. i am tormented with this thought that i signed for her murder...i know she was in pain..i know it was probably the best thing for her.. but at night when the house is quiet..i question my self.

she trusted me to take care of her, and i didnt. i didnt protect her. she should still b here. she was a healthy, lively dog.

does anyone understand this feelin?

[yorkietalkjilly]

I think you did the right thing. What if she couldn't rally and spent days in horrible pain - no one thinks it's worth it to put a dog through pain when the vet says there is little hope. Don't second guess yourself because you did the humane thing and saved her a great deal of fear and agony.

[lillymae]

The feelings you are having are completely normal but I believe you did the rite thing for her. Most likely even with surgery, she would not have survived & suffered terribly. Love is hard sometimes & even harder to do what you KNOW is rite. This only shows how much you truly loved her. I will Pray that you can find peace soon. She trusted you & you did rite by her in ending her pain & terrible suffering.

[msyorktown]

Poor baby...she had to be in agony.....you did what was best for her.
Please don't second guess yourself, she is free from pain now, and is waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge.
Take comfort that she passed over with you right there with her...she did not go alone, she will always love you and watch over you....and you my friend will always love her and never forget her
RIP Gidget.......

[tammy8833]

thank u, its just so very hard

[Buster Brown]

I am so sorry you are having these feelings. Your poor baby was severely injured and in great pain. You made the hardest and most loving decision to do what was best for your baby given the condition she was in. As you stated the Vets determined her chances were slim. You did take care of her, she did trust you she came to you, and you held her and comforted her until she was released from her pain. I am so sorry I can't ease your heartbreak but you were and will always be her loving Mom. You did the right thing. RIP SWEET GIDGET

[tammy8833]

ty, i miss her so much she had such a big place here with us

[tpaxton23]

I had to make that same decision 7 years ago when my yorkie was attacked by a black lab while I was out walking him. I had my dog on a leash and the black lab was also on a leash but jerked away from his owner and ran across the road to attack us. He actually jerked my little boy right out of my arms as I was attempting to pick him up. He ended up paralyzing my little yorkie and he had no feeling from the neck down. I made the decision to put him to sleep because I knew even if we could keep him alive his quality of life would not be good. I had nightmares for months but I know I made the right decision. I carry a bat when I walk my dogs now and I have even used it a few times to chase big dogs away.

You never want to see your dog suffering. I am a nursing student and with the type of injury your little one had her chances would not have been good. I'm sure you made the right decision. It will just take time to heal.

[tammy8833]

Ty and I'm sorry to hear about ur yorkie. a bat is a good idea

[ladyjane]

I am so sorry...what a horrible thing to go through. As everyone else has said you did the loving thing for her. Please try not to torture yourself over it. Injuries such as you described are highly unlikely to be fixed....not to mention the pain she would go through.
I hope the time comes quickly where you will recall more of the good times and allow them to erase as much of this ending as possible.
Gidget is at peace and will be watching over you until you meet her again...

[Lil Sis]

Yes I did read your post.. I cried like a baby ..
I do belive you did what had to be done. Sometimes love is shown in so many different ways.. and letting that poor baby go in peace is love.

I lost a pup a few years back.. I hung on way past the time I should have let her go but finally I just knew it was time..she pasted in my arms the night before I was to take her in. It was so very hard so I know your pain.


Try ..try very hard to know you did the right thing and to remember the good times. I hope you get another yorkie someday to fill not replace her but just to fillthat spot in your heart

[ladyjane]

Here is an article I found after the death of one of my fosters. I was struggling with the "what ifs" just as you are and I found this and it really helped me put things in perspective. Perhaps it will help you....

I Killed My Dog!

[wisteria]

You were a wonderful Mommy! Making a decision: You put Gidget first, which had to be very hard. You saved her from all the pain and suffering. It was a truly a act of love.

[Maximo]

Your painful decision was a loving and caring act, giving Gidget freedom.

I am sorry for your loss and I wish you comfort knowing your girl is at peace.

[GeorgiesMomma]

Please don't beat yourself up. I know easier said then done but you did the right thing for sweet Gidget. I had to face the same decision with our senior Boxer and I know we did what was best for her just as you did for Gidget.

I pray that the memories of your sweet girl help you heal.