Please please pray for Missy :(

[Patti]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope Missy can come home and be with you for a little longer. It is the hardest decision we have to make but knowing we can stop their suffering when that time comes is a small consolation. Hugs and prayers.

[chattiesmom]

My heart is breaking for you and Missy. It is so very hard when your beloved furchild grows old way too soon. I fully understand the agony of having an aged furkid that is "living on borrowed time".

I will keep you and Missy in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for your thorough and thoughtful updates. Sending and

[Judy in Waco]

Sending prayers and hugs to you right now. What a difficult decision. I am so sorry. She sounds like a sweet baby.

[chestermama]

iM SO SORRY FOR ALL OF THIS HOW HORRIBLE OUR FUR BABIES ARE SICK. yYOU NEED TO FOLLOW YOUR HEART AND YOU ARE THE ONE TO DECIDE WHAT TO DO, NO ONE CAN JUDGE YOU FOR THAT, I HOPE THAT THINGS GET BETTER FOR YOU HUGS AND PRAYERS SANDY AND CHESTER

[AbbysMom08]

I am so very sorry you and Missy are going through this.
I am in tears and my heart is breaking for you.
Please be at peace with the decision that you made. I too would have made the same decision. Missy is a very lucky little lady to have such a loving mommy.
I will keep you and Missy in my prayers.

[QuickSilver]

I took your advice and gave Thor an extra hug. It it so hard to know that these little loves must leave the earth before us. My best to you and Missy.

[bailie]

thoughts and prayers sent to u and ur precious little baby

[143julz]

My heart breaks for you darling...i can not stop crying with you...i'm at a complete loss for words......

you are not alone...i hope things improve for your baby

[kjc]

Such sad news... I hope you are able to spent some time with her and she recovers and can come home...hugs and prayers to you and your sweet baby Missy...

[sunshinnes]

Hi, CoCo and I just wanted to tell you how sorry we are and sending prayers your way... you sound like a great mommy! you are making the right choice's and you furbaby know's how very much you love her!!!

[Cookie2]

Originally Posted by sushidoodidoo

My life has turned upside down since last night. I was in the kitchen cooking for the furbutts a new batch of food, when I noticed that Missy, my 13yo shih tzu was lying in the middle of the living room, breathing very heavily, in a huge pool of her own urine! That's the last time I remember my world the way it used to be....

It was around 11pm. I threw a coat on top of my pj's and rushed her to the nearest emergency clinic. By the time i got there her gums were all white, she had very low heart beat, she was panting even heavier, and I was told she could be going into shock. They told me that they need to keep her overnight to stabilize her, and do some tests to find out what it is that's doing this to her! Gave me her collar and sweater and told me to pay a deposit of $3000 and go home! Well, I paid the deposit but didn't go home until they told me that she is in ICU, a bit stablized, and they are doing tests on her and they will call me as soon as they know anytihng. I would have stayed there all night, but I was worried sick for Sushi and Mr.Big that were all alone at home. So I went back home.

About an hour later they emerg vet called me. He told me that so far they have done some preliminary tests and they can tell it's the heart that's failing, and her lungs are filled with fluids, and basically she is drowning. she was diagnosed with an early stage heart murmur a few months ago but the vet had decided to just monitor ir for now. She is also in early stages of kidney failure.

The emerg vet told me that they have to give her this medication to control the situation. It is going to be hard on her kidneys, but if thay don't she won't make it through the night. I gave them the go ahead. then they had to ask me the most difficult question of all: If she stops breathing, should we resuccitate her or should we let her go?!!.... I don't know how much you guys can relate to being in that position, but it felt like they were ripping my heart out of my chest. I asked the vet what he would do if it was his own dog. He told me it would be the humane thing to let her go if it gets to that point. Because she would immensely suffer if they get on her and try and bring her back, and even if they manage to do that (which would be very unlikely that she would in fact come back), that might give her another few weeks of misery. Not a good quality life that you would want for your loved one. So I told him if he thinks that's the right thing to do, then let her go in peace.

Please please don't judge me for having said that. At that point all I could think of was making sure she doesn't suffer. Oh god, please forgive me if I made a mistake.

The vet told me that he's not too certain that she will make it through the night. But he will call me if anytihng happens. He told me to be "prepared".All night I was sitting in bed with Sushi and Biggie, holding her collar in my hand and begging begging begging god to give her strength, to bring her back home to me, to give me a bit more time with her, so I could hold her tighter and longer in my arms, to spoil her even more than before, and to make her chicken which she goes absolutely crazy over.

I got a call early this morning that she made it. She is far from being perfect, still in ICU, still very dependant on the oxygen tent, but at least she's alert. They even told me she is being very affectionate and super cute, and making the staff melf for her.

A cardiolgist is seeing her this afternoon.(another $1000, yikes!). And then she will decide if it's ok for me to see her, or if the excitement would put too much strain on her weak little heart. It's up to the cardiologist to decide if and when she can come home. But they said maybe tomorrow afternoon, if that.

All I can do right now is sit her at work, with my cellphone right in front of me, and pretend that I'm actually getting some work done. Everytime the phone rings i almost wanna faint.

Since I came home last night without missy, Sushi has been a total pain. She's very jittery and irritable. She comes and curls herself up on my lap, stares at me and gives out these little whimpers every now and then. i'm sure she is picking up on something, she's very sensitive.

I apologize for the super lengthy post, I just had to get it off my chest. I can't sleep, i can't eat, and surprisingly I can't even cry. I constantly feel this lump in my throat that just doesn't wanna come out. I know she is not going to be with me forever, but all I can ask for is just a little more time.

OMG! I had no idea you were going though this. Ipray your furbaby continues to get better and your furbaby will be home soon. I know all too well about emergency vet fees. I got into thousands of dollars in debt because I could not just let him go. It is a very difficult decision to not want to recusitate your pet. No one here is going to judge you. I had to make that choice about 10 yrs ago and yes I felt horrible but my pet was in agony. I know your mind is only on your pet. As yousee I am wide awake at almost 1 am. You know what I'mg going through now and I must say that coming back to YT several times a day , helps calm me.

Keep me updated.
(((hugs)))

Gen

[randiik]

i am so sorry to hear about another baby and their human going through all this pain and sickness. its just heartbreaking. my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[YorkieShadow]

I am so very sorry you and Missy are going through this.
It just breaks my heart to read this. Im keeping her in my thoughts and prayers. bless her heart.

I know how you are feeling, when I lost my Minnie Jan 9th apart of me died.
she was fine when we went to bed, then I woke and she could not stand.
we rushed her to the ER vets. they checked her all out ran test and thought it was a pinched nerve in her back or her neck. they had sent her home to rest only she got worse and I rushed her to another man who said its not her neck/ back but in her head. he said maybe a tumor. he gave her a shot and told me to take her home that she would surely not make it through the night with out me. and told me to bring her in that morning for another shot. all that evening me and DH held her and cared for her, we thought for sure she was getting better, guess it was just the shot. she died in my arms that next morning. when I talked to another vet from the same place he said yes he knew she was dieing. but he felt she was better off home with me those last hours. I was so mad because I begged him to tell me if she was dieing. I remember him searching my face, my eyes. I could see the worry in his face, but yet he told me no she wouldn't die. But I never said no angry words to him after because I knew he too had just lost his wife and he to was grieving. all I said to him is she died and he looked and me and shook his head.

[YorkieShadow]

These little ones come into our hearts and its so very hard to let them go.

[sushidoodidoo]

Short story: Looks like my prayers (and yours) might have been answered!!!!

Long story: Sorry I have been MIA for the last couple of days. I logged in this morning and saw all the wonderful messages and PM's from you guys all worried about us and asking for an update. I know I should have been updating but believe me a part of me was dieing wiht Missy. I was in agony, didn't know my day from my night. Was at the hospital most of the time. This morning is the first time that I can actually take a deep breath and sit still at the computer and type a few words. Thank god my boyfriend flew over and was with me and helped with managing between visiting and worrying about missy and taking care of the other furbutts. I was not functional at all.

Saturday morning they basically told me that things were not looking good, all the bad numbers were going higher and higher, that she was fainting every couple of hours, and that I might have to do the "kind" thing on Sunday. They even recommended that I bring the other two dogs with me. God it crushes me to pieces even typing these words.

Saturday night was one of the worst nights of my life. I was pacing back and forth, begging begging god to give missy back to me. I was alreay told that Sunday is "the day", but there was noway, NO WAY that this could be her last night, especially in that lonely sad cage in ICU. Everybody was trying to convince me to make peace with reality, and accept what has been thrown at me, but no way. I KNEW that could not be the end. Not just yet.

Long story short, starting yesrterday around noon ,for some very strage reason the numbers started to look better and better, she stopped fainting, and last night they actually told me that the cardiologist is going to see her today again, and most likely she will be able to come home either tonight or tomorrow. Not for long though, they said a couple of months at best, but at least we can baby her and spoil her a bit more. Even more than before. And we will have another chance to tell her how much we love her.

I know I am thousands of dollards in debt but money will come back one way or another, but nothing can ever put a $ value on my little angel. I knew she needed another chance, and she proved to be a big little fighter. I was right!

Once again, thank you so so so much everyone for your wonderful thoughts and words. When I saw all the posts here and all the PM's in my inbox this morning I got all teary and emotional. I cannot begin to tell you how grateful I am for all your support!!! Missy feels even MORE special now. I will take time a bit later today and reply to all the PM's individually but I thought I'd post an update here for everyone to read.

But please don't stop praying for her just yet. The are still going to do the final tests today, and it all depends on the results. I will not be able to feel right again until I see her here at home, in my arms.