Short story: Looks like my prayers (and yours) might have been answered!!!!
Long story: Sorry I have been MIA for the last couple of days. I logged in this morning and saw all the wonderful messages and PM's from you guys all worried about us and asking for an update. I know I should have been updating but believe me a part of me was dieing wiht Missy. I was in agony, didn't know my day from my night. Was at the hospital most of the time. This morning is the first time that I can actually take a deep breath and sit still at the computer and type a few words. Thank god my boyfriend flew over and was with me and helped with managing between visiting and worrying about missy and taking care of the other furbutts. I was not functional at all.
Saturday morning they basically told me that things were not looking good, all the bad numbers were going higher and higher, that she was fainting every couple of hours, and that I might have to do the "kind" thing on Sunday. They even recommended that I bring the other two dogs with me. God it crushes me to pieces even typing these words.
Saturday night was one of the worst nights of my life. I was pacing back and forth, begging begging god to give missy back to me. I was alreay told that Sunday is "the day", but there was noway, NO WAY that this could be her last night, especially in that lonely sad cage in ICU. Everybody was trying to convince me to make peace with reality, and accept what has been thrown at me, but no way. I KNEW that could not be the end. Not just yet.
Long story short, starting yesrterday around noon ,for some very strage reason the numbers started to look better and better, she stopped fainting, and last night they actually told me that the cardiologist is going to see her today again, and most likely she will be able to come home either tonight or tomorrow. Not for long though, they said a couple of months at best, but at least we can baby her and spoil her a bit more. Even more than before. And we will have another chance to tell her how much we love her.
I know I am thousands of dollards in debt but money will come back one way or another, but nothing can ever put a $ value on my little angel. I knew she needed another chance, and she proved to be a big little fighter. I was right!
Once again, thank you so so so much everyone for your wonderful thoughts and words. When I saw all the posts here and all the PM's in my inbox this morning I got all teary and emotional. I cannot begin to tell you how grateful I am for all your support!!! Missy feels even MORE special now. I will take time a bit later today and reply to all the PM's individually but I thought I'd post an update here for everyone to read.
But please don't stop praying for her just yet. The are still going to do the final tests today, and it all depends on the results. I will not be able to feel right again until I see her here at home, in my arms. |