Broken Hearted

[MyPeanutAbbyGra]

I guess I feel a little differently. If he's not in any pain, I would say there's no hurry.
Shellie, this breaks my heart for you and Merlin. I'm sorry that you're facing this right now. You will know in your heart when it's time.
I don't know what else to say.
I'm praying for you and Merlin.

[yorkie mom-3]

Shellie,
My heart just aches for you and Merlin. I do believe the eyes are the mirror to the soul. He will tell you. Praying for you both.

[RMKC]

My Heart is breaking for you, and hope you will look within your Heart and know when the time is right ! I am so sorry Sweetie, sending you prayers and hugs !

[Beabble]

My heart is breaking with yours. I've been in your situation and I know how hard it is to be faced with the question of "when." It's a very hard thing to face, but as others have said, you will know in your heart when it is time to help your very loved one to rainbow bridge. I've only had to do this twice and it hurt like heck to have to make this choice, but in the end and after some time to grieve, I have no doubt whatsoever in my heart that our family made the right choice. I think the greatest gift of all is to love them enough to let them go when it's that time, and believe me hon, you will know in your heart when it's that time. Please post back when your able, we all care and are here to support you through this very difficult time.

[Monday]

praying for you and merlin ...

[sadiesamie]

Originally Posted by broodizt

Hello all,

This forum is the only place I could think to go after talking to my vet and crying and crying my eyes out for three days straight. I have not slept in days and all I can do is hold my little Merlin and cry. Merlin is my soon to be (in October) 17 years old yorkie, the love of my life. I've had him since 6 weeks old and we were inseperable. Now my parents live with me and they adore him as well. He went completely blind last year and seemed to go downhill fast after that. He has lost tons of weight and just eats bits of his food only after we beg him to eat. He is down to about two pounds and he used to weigh about 3 to 31/2 lbs. He drinks tons of water and unrinates tons and tons. He has been incontinent since he lost his sight. He mouth smells very foul but the vet will not clean his teeth by putting him under because she did a few tests and his numbers from the urine test was astronomical (indication of kidney function). She says normal is about 2 to 21/2 and his number is 30!!!!! And he gets too stressed out to have them cleaned manually. He has a collapsed trachea and if he gets too stressed this sets him off.

He is skin and bones now. All he does is sleep. He does not seem to be in pain but he appears very frail and weak. I am dying inside. Is there no hope? Is there anything on this earth I can do to help him? I just cannot seem to let him go. I am crying as I write this. I cry all the time. I do have another little one. Her name is Cassie. She is beautiful and very tiny (only two pounds full grown, but healthy except for reverse sneezing or allergies). But I spend most of my time with Merlin. He is the most special wonderful companion in the universe. I am so stuck. I do not know what to do. When is the right time to put him to sleep? Is it right to do this now? I am afraid I do not have the strenghth to let him go. Please Please, somebody help me. Shellie

I am curious to know what number was 30? Alt or BUN? what type of diet are you feeding him right now? Is he on any supplement? Losing any protein? Have you had UPC test done? I am just wondering more about Meryln that's all. Maybe his condition is bad but maybe, just maybeeeeeeeeee there is that bit of hope that a long with diet and supplements he would gain some strength.

Please let me add that I do not know how sick Meryln is exactly.. I don't know how much he is eating? I have read on one kidney site that I researched that enticining a dog with choc to get them to eat. I always thought and I still believe that choc is dangerous for dogs but as crazy as that sounds- that is was some have done to get their babies to eat. I think you should join the k9kidney group and get some support and post lab values. They are a wealth of info but you have to fill out a brief form to get accepted first. it's very very brief to get you approved.

Maybe your baby needs to eat to feel better and have more energy. I read this beginning post again and I am wondering what the value of 30 actually was? I know if it were my dog I would not give up hope until he looked at me and I knew for sure he was suffering. you have said you dog does sleep a lot and is frail. But no visible signs of suffering..

At this point I would look into yahook9kidney group immediately for suggestions and support. I will send you the link. Just wondering if the vet suggested a pres dog food or anything like that? Very curious to know what you are feeding.

[winstonw]

Shellie, I am so sorry you and Merlin are going through this. I do not really have any advice, except I think that you will know when it is time, but I wanted you to know there are many people thinking and praying for you both at this time. Your posting was so very heartfelt and I can only imagine how painful this must be for you. I can also feel the love that exists between the two of you. How wonderful that you have shared this most precious bond. My tears flow as I write this and upon reading yours and others' stories on this thread. We are all here with you. Hugs being sent your way.

[sadiesamie]

K9KidneyDiet : K9KidneyDiet

Kidney Disease

[YorkieRose]

If a dog is comfortable and eating enough/drinking, then I see no need to put them down either..but if a dog is not eating, (you said you must beg him to eat) that can be an unpleasant way to slowly die...but you are the one who must decide what is best for your pet...and I wish you all the best.

[Yorkiedaze]

Originally Posted by broodizt

Hello all,

This forum is the only place I could think to go after talking to my vet and crying and crying my eyes out for three days straight. I have not slept in days and all I can do is hold my little Merlin and cry. Merlin is my soon to be (in October) 17 years old yorkie, the love of my life. I've had him since 6 weeks old and we were inseperable. Now my parents live with me and they adore him as well. He went completely blind last year and seemed to go downhill fast after that. He has lost tons of weight and just eats bits of his food only after we beg him to eat. He is down to about two pounds and he used to weigh about 3 to 31/2 lbs. He drinks tons of water and unrinates tons and tons. He has been incontinent since he lost his sight. He mouth smells very foul but the vet will not clean his teeth by putting him under because she did a few tests and his numbers from the urine test was astronomical (indication of kidney function). She says normal is about 2 to 21/2 and his number is 30!!!!! And he gets too stressed out to have them cleaned manually. He has a collapsed trachea and if he gets too stressed this sets him off.

He is skin and bones now. All he does is sleep. He does not seem to be in pain but he appears very frail and weak. I am dying inside. Is there no hope? Is there anything on this earth I can do to help him? I just cannot seem to let him go. I am crying as I write this. I cry all the time. I do have another little one. Her name is Cassie. She is beautiful and very tiny (only two pounds full grown, but healthy except for reverse sneezing or allergies). But I spend most of my time with Merlin. He is the most special wonderful companion in the universe. I am so stuck. I do not know what to do. When is the right time to put him to sleep? Is it right to do this now? I am afraid I do not have the strenghth to let him go. Please Please, somebody help me. Shellie

It's time to give him permission to go to rainbow bridge. My little Chihuahua did exactly the same things and finally had a stroke. I had to have her put down then. She passed last September. When the quality of life is like theirs at the end, it's just selfish of us to try and keep them alive. You gave your little one a wonderful life, and you will see her again some day.

[YorkieAunt]

My heart breaks for you! Last summer I had to put down my 12yr old malmute\shephard cross. Is was the hardest thing to do but I knew it was best for him. He has a basketball size tumour on his side. He wasn't in pain but he lost ALOT of weight and would vomit when he ate. I knew his quality of life was not very good and that it was time to let hime go. I miss him everyday but I know it was best for him.
Hope this helps alittle and remember that he gave you so many years of love and happiness it is up to you to give him his peace.

[ILUVSADIE]

Shelly, God bless you with your decision - but I'm sure you know what you have to do - even though it will break your heart. One of the hardest decisions we ever have to make is to know when to put an end to our baby's suffering. We've all been there. You've come to the right place for support!!

[RoxyJosMom]

My heart goes out to you, Shelly. I have no advice, except to look into Merlin's eyes and he will tell you when he's ready. God Bless and watch over you both. Hugs and prayers.

[katelin]

Shellie,

I've been where you are too. Kizzie was 16 and so special to me. I put her in diapers, carried her around, fed her the special diets and continued to love her. She was blind, deaf, incontinent, skin and bones and had dementia. Sometimes she didn't know who I was. BUT, she wasn't in pain. Finally, there came a time when I was able to see that she was not happy and I gave myself permission to let her go. She went so fast, I was able to see just how fragile she had been.

She'll always be in my heart. I know you will know when the time is right for you and your baby.

Yorkie hugs to you.

[LoveMyJake]

I am so sorry you are going through this. But, how wonderful that you were blessed with Merlin for 17 years! I know how hard it is to let go. You will know when the time is right. God bless you both!