Broken Hearted

[yorkie mom-3]

Shellie,
I am so, so, sorry for your loss. May you rest in peace Merlin. My tears are falling along with yours. May you find peace in the days to come.

[rrosenberry]

Oh I'm in tears reading your last post. I'm so sorry you have this pain which I totally understand.
But you did the right thing. He told you so with his kisses to your tears. You did the most unselfish thing ..for him and he knows it.
It is tough and the next few days will prove that.. but in time you will remember the wonder 17 years you had with him. (17 years is amazing) I hope to be as lucky as you.

RIP Merlin.. run and play and be the pup you used to be.

[iowagal]

Oh Shellie...Im so very very sorry for the pain you are feeling right now...I have been crying nonstop since I first read this...my heart just breaks for you and I wish there was something I could do or say to lessen your pain...just know that we are all here for you if you need to talk...

~hugging you extra tight~...

R.I.P sweet sweet Merlin...

[snoopy42]

As I read your post, I can't help to think about my Dear Snoopy (my wonderful cat). When I was in my early twenties, I moved around a lot, changed colleges constantly, and could never stay at the same job for more than six months. The only thing constant was My Snoopy. He was the love of my life. About three years ago (Snoopy was around 13), I too had to make the same decision as you. You asked if there is anything you can do. When Snoopy was first diagnosed with kidney failure, I told the vet I would do what it takes to keep him alive. We tried everything. The first thing we tried was a form of dialysis, and when he came home from a 4 day stay at the vets, I was hopeful that he was going to get better. He was back to his old self, eating, wanting to cuddle with me and playing outside. After a week, he started to deteriorate again. Back to the vets for subq fluids. I ended up buying all the necessary tools to perform the subq procedure at home. Changed his diet several times to find something he wanted to eat, remaining hopeful as he rapidly declined in health. I even asked about a kidney transplant. My vet then suggested I try this new shot that would boast his red blood cell count. He told me it would cost $175 a week to start this new program. The reason I decided to not try it is because he could not guarantee his health would improve. That night I fed him and gave him water through a syringe and decided to take him to the vets in the morning. I laid with him all night long and feel asleep around 3 in the morning, eyes puffy from all the crying, and when I woke up, he was gone. I didn't hear him make a sound. Maybe I was so exhausted that nothing could have woke me up. The cost to keep him alive for another month or so cost me thousands and thousands of dollars. I felt so guilty because I felt that I just prolonged his agony.

I'm sure you will make the right decision. I just wanted to share my story to let you know there are options for you, but in the long run you may only increase his lifespan just a little and in his condition you may want to ask yourself if you can bare to see him like that any longer. You may see improvements but they are very short lived.

[mojo]

Oh honey, I am so sorry, we are all there crying with you. It seems it was really the right decision, as painful as it is.
He really is happy again, he can see, run, play and is waiting to see you again someday.

[mogli]

I'm so sorry Wish we could give you real hugs ... know that you're not crying alone and that Mr. Merlin is still right there near your heart with you.

[Thorsmomma]

Wow...I'm so sorry for you pain, and your loss. It was a gain for Merlin though. He is playing, running, laughing at rainbow bridge. He will forever watch over you. You story brought tears to my eyes...I hope you can fill your time with Cassie and may she heal your aching heart.

[MyPeanutAbbyGra]

Dearest Shellie,
Honey, I'm so sorry. My heart is breaking too. I honestly believe that you did the right thing for Merlin. Here's a poem that I've shared with a couple different people who have gone through what you went through with Merlin. I hope it helps a little.
Love and Prayers,
Tammy

The Last Battle
If it should be that I grow frail and weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
then you must do what must be done
For this, the last battle, can't be won.

You will be sad, I understand,
Don't let the grief then stay your hand,
For this day more than all the rest
Your love and friendship stand the test.

We've had so many happy years,
What is to come can hold no fears.
You'd not want me to suffer so;
When the time comes, please let me go.

Take me where my needs they'll tend
And stay with me, if you can, to the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time, you will see,
It is a kindness you do for me.
Although my tail its last was waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.

Don't grieve that it should be you,
Who must decide this thing to do,
We've been so close, we two, these years;
Don't let your heart hold any tears.

Smile, for we walked together for a little while.

- Author Unknown

[I Miss Shelby]

My prayers go out to you and Merlin. I know it doesn't help your pain right now but you did the kindest, most selfless thing that anyone can do. Merlin is running and jumping and seeing the flowers again. I am sure that my little Shelby met Merlin at the rainbow bridge and they are playing in the sunshine with all the others. You will meet up again. Until then I pray that the wonderful memories of Merlin will help get you through this painful time. God Bless.

[diach]

I am soo sorry for your loss. I had to make the same hard decision last year with my dog, Toby. He was my constant companion for 14 years, and like Merlin, Toby licked my tears while I was trying to decide. To the end he was comforting me,and I could not let him suffer anymore.
The next few weeks will be hard, but in time it will get better.
Take care!

[Grizzley Bear]

Shellie.. My heart is breaking for you . I just want to give you a hug and let you know that you are in the best company here. I am so sorry.Bless Merlin for the fabulous Mommy and the life you shared.

Hugs and love to you,
Mary

[SophieRose]

Dear Shellie. I am sending you a link and hope you will be able to click on it, watch it. The Rainbow Bridge

We do hold onto our beloved pets too long, I did and have regrets. However, for 13 years, Sophie was my constant companion and it was not easy to release her. Looking back, I spent weeks sobbing, unable to sleep yet knowing Sophie would not ever be the healthy pup she was in the past.

You did the most loving, graceful gift that can ever given to our animals --- you were Merlin's voice.

In our forum, there is a special place In Memory Of... (R.I.P.) - YorkieTalk.com Forums - Yorkshire Terrier Community. Here you will be able to read, write, cry and know you are not alone with your heartache.

Warmly, Deborah

[MeganS]

Shellie, I'm crying for your loss. I am so, so sorry. The poem that Tammy posted above me "The Last Battle" was what I was going to share with you as well. I hope that it brings you some comfort - no matter how little - during this difficult time. I wish I could hug you in person. Please know that everyone here on YT is grieving with you. You will be in my prayers. These next few weeks, maybe months even, will be hard. But I promise you you WILL have the strength to help your heart heal. Merlin loves you and hasn't left you, he's still watching over you.

Rest in Peace little Merlin.

Megan

[yorkiesmiles]

Shellie, I am so sorry that you are hurting right now. Merlin knows how much he was loved. What a blessed 17 years he had with you. Your story has me in tears, as I can hear that love in your words.

Please know we are here and you have found a family.

[katelin]

Oh honey, I'm so so sorry. Just go ahead and cry about it. It was terrible but very brave of you. Sweet thoughts coming your way, hoping you find peace in your heart.