Having an emotional next couple of weeks...thoughts appreciated

[mohawkmalli]

1 week from today my DD will be 5 years old...I cannot believe it has gone by so fast and on top of that 2 weeks from yesterday she will become a Kindergardner!!! In my mind I know that she will be fine but my heart tells me something totally different. This will be the only skin child I will ever have due to some medical circumstances and the more I think about her being in school and me being in school I am afraid I'm going to miss out on something. I know that parents do it all the time but I never really had a good home life and I strive to make sure she does. I don't know I guess everything is hitting at once and I've just been an emotional wreck lately. I cry about it (not in front of her) I know she is SUPER excited I'm just having a hard time letting go. Not to mention the fact that I am off on Monday's and she is my sidekick we usually are out and about together running errands, going to a matinee movie, the waterpark or whatever. I am going to be so LONELY. Yes I know that I will still have my furbutts but my house is constant chaos and I just do not know how to handle the thought of it or even how to handle it when it happens. I just feel like I am have my chest cut open, a piece of my heart removed and having to hand it over to someone I barely know. I am literally only 30 seconds from the school (we live on the same road as it) and that still makes me feel no better about it. Sorry for the sappy poor me post I just feel lost already.

[Weneebug]

I think it is very natural for mothers to go through this. I have a daughter and son....I know when I had to send mine to school for the first time I was devistated. Dropping them with a total stranger was the hardest thing for me. I had never even hired a babysitter before. If I had to leave them when they were young it was with my mother. I know it can be very overwhelming but you will pull through it. Mine are 13 and 15 now and how does the time fly....pretty soon I'll be worrying about sending my daughter on her first date Anyway, good luck...just be strong and try not to let her see it upsets you. You don't want her to be worried about you while she is at school.

[Patti]

I know how scary it is to let go a little but you will see her grow and mature in to a lovely young lady. I know on the first day of kindegarden I took off work, because we had recently moved and my Mom who had watched her while we worked was too far away so she would be going to a neighbors house before and after school and I wanted to see her off the first day. I thought she would be upset since she never went to preschool. I was the one crying when the bus pulled away and she was fine. Try not to worry.

[MeganS]

aw I'm sorry. My mom is going through something similar right now - my older brother is headed off to college in 2 weeks and she's feeling the same way that you are.

I can't imagine how hard it is to kind of "let go." I've got you in my prayers.

[hviola]

I remember driving my son to his first day of kindergarten. He was so excited and happy to go. When I got back to the car, and he was safely in school, I sat there and cried for at least 15 minutes. I know its hard. But it means our babies are growing up! Don't forget to take a picture.

Drake is starting second grade now in a few weeks. I'm not looking forward to it because I have been off work all summer due to a difficult pregnancy. Im going to be so bored at home when hes at school these next few months.

[mohawkmalli]

Thanks everyone...I'm sure I will cry when I take her that morning I just don't want to do it in front of her b/c I have to be her rock and let her know that she will be just fine there!

[jmdt]

Aw honey i know what that's like. I have 4 children and I remember each and everyone of their first days. I actually folowed the bus and went to the school to take pictures of them getting off that bus. I came home and cried my eyes out. Oh how I missed them. Would they be ok? Could they eat lunch without me? What about if they had to go to the bathroom? Who would help them like I do? It is scary and very normal to feel like you do. I was their whole world. I wiped their nose and I didn't want anyone to do that for me. Wait til they start bringing home their works of art, you won't have enough room on the fridge. My children are now 20, 18, 14, 10 and I still put their work on the fridge. My son is going to be a junior in college. His good grades get put on there. My daughter just graduated high school and I have been numb for about 2 months. Just keep crying. How could this be? I just put her on that bus. It is part of out jobs as moms to give them the foundation to be good people. We let go a little at a time, until they are ready to fly on their own. Your journey has just begun and it is wonderful. Our lives change so many times with our kids. Believe me she will have a great time. She will tell you about her day, and her new friends. It will be great. It won't be easy mama but you will get through it. When they get off that bus and they are in your arms again wow what a feeling. God bless you and good luck to your daughter on he first day of school. What a wonderful journey she is about to embark. Enjoy every moment for it will pass way too quickly. I'm still crying!! And i am also very, very proud of my kids and myself for turning out wonderful young people.

[tjdmom]

Can you sign up to be a homeroom mom? That way you can go in for parties and help out. It makes it a little easier! I know how you're feeling. My youngest just finished Kindergarten and will be going into first grade. But in Kindergarten, he only went 1/2 day from 8:20-11:10 so we always do things after school. We usually wind up going to Target and he loves to get pizza there for lunch and that has been our friday ritual since he was in nursery school. Once he starts first grade, I'll be on my own and I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself!

[shannonroselive]

I don't know if you've ever considered home schooling but that's what we do and it's worked out famously for all of us! Just graduated my oldest with a 4.9 as a matter of fact. #2 has a full scholarship to Duke and #3 is 6 yrs old, working at about a 10 yr old level. All are very well rounded, smart, kind people and yes, they have tons of friends and have more of a social life than I ever had lol.
Homeschooling is not what it used to be, it's SO much better. You might wanna have a look. Those feelings you have are natural and worth listening to.
Good luck with whatever your choice is. I wish you and your lil one all the best.

[TammyJM]

I am sorry that you are having such a rough time. I know EXACTLY what you are going through! My daughter is starting Kindergarten this year, too, and if that wasn't hard enough, my son will begin preschool. My daughter just turned 6 on the 21st of this month and that was VERY difficult for me to accept that she is no longer a toddler. I only signed my son up for two days of preschool (because this is what my daughter did), but honestly I only enrolled him because he wanted to go like his sister did. I am broken-hearted that my babies are growing so quickly...too quickly!! But I hide it from them because they are so proud and thrilled that they are "big"...as they like to tell me.


Tammy

[mohawkmalli]

Thanks for the warm thoughts and shared stories. I am definitely going to try to help out with parties and fieldtrips or just an extra set of hands since I only work 4 days a week and I am off on Mondays but at the same time I am also in school so I know that home schooling is out of the question. I don't know maybe just MAYBE it will be easier to get a grasp on a couple of weeks into it.

[PiePiper]

I have 4 grown children 35,32,30 and 24. I love looking back and remembering all the milestones through their childhood. Nursery school, grade school, middle school, high school, college and then marriage. Now I have my first grandchild and the cycle is starting all over again. Time flies by enjoy every minute with your daughter.