1 week from today my DD will be 5 years old...I cannot believe it has gone by so fast and on top of that 2 weeks from yesterday she will become a Kindergardner!!!
In my mind I know that she will be fine but my heart tells me something totally different. This will be the only skin child I will ever have due to some medical circumstances and the more I think about her being in school and me being in school I am afraid I'm going to miss out on something. I know that parents do it all the time but I never really had a good home life and I strive to make sure she does. I don't know I guess everything is hitting at once and I've just been an emotional wreck lately. I cry about it (not in front of her) I know she is SUPER excited I'm just having a hard time letting go. Not to mention the fact that I am off on Monday's and she is my sidekick we usually are out and about together running errands, going to a matinee movie, the waterpark or whatever. I am going to be so LONELY. Yes I know that I will still have my furbutts but my house is constant chaos and I just do not know how to handle the thought of it or even how to handle it when it happens. I just feel like I am have my chest cut open, a piece of my heart removed and having to hand it over to someone I barely know. I am literally only 30 seconds from the school (we live on the same road as it) and that still makes me feel no better about it. Sorry for the sappy poor me post I just feel lost already.