depressed/frustrated/lonely

[stingrhea]

Originally Posted by Bizzymammabee

Hon wish I lived closer I would come hold your hand through the test. Once again I want you to know your in my prayers and thoughts.

Thanks Beth, if you lived closer, I'd take you up on that. Sometimes it is so difficult going through these mini-crises alone. I have my friends, but they all have their own lives, and lots of times I go to these things alone. I will keep you in mind when I go this time.
And Sheilagh, I wish you were hear too, I need a hug or two now. You and everyone here will be in my thoughts when I have my tests on Mar. 17th. Thank you all!
Melody

[RMKC]

Praying that your Test Results will be benign ! Hugs

[ryorkies]

Melody, Thank you for letting me know that your test dates had changed.... I always love to hear from you.
I can sympathize with what you are describing and I too have a problem with my autoimmune system. Ever since I was diagnosed it seems that anything that comes down the pike seems to find me and I catch it. I swear some days I feel like I should wear a mask and gloves when I leave the house.
Please stay strong and remember that you have so many friends here who are praying for you and wishing you well.
Hugs to you .... Janie

[Mom to Hot Rod]

Sending you prayers and a ton of good vibes. Best of luck Hope that all tuns out well. So sorry you will be dealing with this alone. If you need a shoulder, please feel free to contact me. I have big shoulders.

[ryorkies]

Good Morning Melody!
Woke up thinking about you and wanted you to know that ...
I will message you a bit later today.
Have a wonderful, wonderful day.....!!!!

Hugs, Janie

[ARCHIE]

Melody, I hope your once again feeling better.
Prayer's still coming for you on the 17th. Close your eyes
when your being tested and think about all of us holding your
hand so you will not be alone because we will all be there with
you in thought. Hugs to you

[Charlies Angel]

My heart goes out to you during this difficult time, but I'll be praying for you. In the meantime try to stay focused on the positive and just relax. When it's all said and done you should go far far away myabe like St.Johns Island and just put your feet in the sand! You've got tons of Yorkietalk prayers going your way!!!!!

[stingrhea]

thanks everyone again for all the support!
thanks Janie, i wrote you an email I think on Sunday.
Archie and Charlie's angel, I will have to find a place to go in my mind and imagine you all here at YT there to be with me. great ideas!
I am doing fair. I have been depressed and lethargic. I hate when I feel this way. I just don't want to do anything. I have errands I need to run, I keep avoiding doing that. I need to do things around here, I am not doing that either. I need to just suck it up and do what I need to do. I know that, but feel so stuck. I just keep thinking "what if it's cancer, what will I do??" I am alone with only some friends relatively close by. Family, what there is left of it, is 500 miles away. I have my babies to worry about. Who will cook for William if I can't? ...lol sort of...But I really worry about that. Who will wash his behind when he gets doody on it...LOLOLOL, but it just happened. (the cats are easier, they are pretty independent.) i'm really sweating this one, the lump is so close to the chest wall, not more shallow like the other two. my mom's cancer was deep, and had projections down into the underlying muscle. my fear is really getting to me this time. thank G-d i do have William, if i didn't i think i would be perhaps suicidal. i have been there before and am really thankful i am not that depressed now. and having YT'ers are really helping too, i think i found this site, and then my William through this site, just to be here for me now. i really believe things happen like that sometimes. anyway, thanks again to all who have written to support me. i really appreciate each and every one.
Melody

[patty58]

Melody, You will always have someone on here to "talk" to anytime. You can PM me anytime. My daughters birthday is March 17 so it will be easy for me to remember that day and say special prayers for you. Have you talked with your dr about some meds for depression just to get you thru this? I am going to PM you now.

[Lexi Rae]

i will be praying real hard for you.. i kind a know what your going through,
as i am going through it right now... good luck and my fingers are
crossed for benign lumps...think possitive, we are all here for you, anytime..

[scoobiedooiscoo]

lacey and i will keep you in our prayers also. i know that feeling of heart sinking, lump in the throat i just want it to go away waiting. been there 3 times already. i do have family close to me to help me, but after watching them worry the first time i dont tell them anything until i know for sure. i tend to turn to online friends for some reason. just know we are all here for you

[Patti]

I am praying for good results on the 17th. Thinking Positive thoughts for you.

[ryorkies]

Good Morning Melody, I am thinking of you today and I hope all goes well.
Please email me when you get back to let me know how things are, okay?
Positive thoughts and prayers are with you today.....

[stingrhea]

Thanks Janie,I am gearing up to go...hoping it will be an easy time.
~Melody

[Brookef18]

Originally Posted by stingrhea

thanks everyone again for all the support!
thanks Janie, i wrote you an email I think on Sunday.
Archie and Charlie's angel, I will have to find a place to go in my mind and imagine you all here at YT there to be with me. great ideas!
I am doing fair. I have been depressed and lethargic. I hate when I feel this way. I just don't want to do anything. I have errands I need to run, I keep avoiding doing that. I need to do things around here, I am not doing that either. I need to just suck it up and do what I need to do. I know that, but feel so stuck. I just keep thinking "what if it's cancer, what will I do??" I am alone with only some friends relatively close by. Family, what there is left of it, is 500 miles away. I have my babies to worry about. Who will cook for William if I can't? ...lol sort of...But I really worry about that. Who will wash his behind when he gets doody on it...LOLOLOL, but it just happened. (the cats are easier, they are pretty independent.) i'm really sweating this one, the lump is so close to the chest wall, not more shallow like the other two. my mom's cancer was deep, and had projections down into the underlying muscle. my fear is really getting to me this time. thank G-d i do have William, if i didn't i think i would be perhaps suicidal. i have been there before and am really thankful i am not that depressed now. and having YT'ers are really helping too, i think i found this site, and then my William through this site, just to be here for me now. i really believe things happen like that sometimes. anyway, thanks again to all who have written to support me. i really appreciate each and every one.
Melody

Good Morning Melody, I just found this thread this morning and I realize your test is today. Just wanted to send encouragement to you.

I was being tested for cervical cancer a few years ago. I had to wait for over a week for the test results to come back. It turned out they were looking for cancer that had already spread.

My kids were still in school, and I got a little freaked out at first. But I am a Christian and I looked to the Lord to care for me. I found that as long as I was leaning on the Lord and trusting Him I was at peace. I truely knew God would take care of me and my life was in his hands no matter what the out come. I also knew my family was in His hands and he would take care of them as well. The only time I was not at peace was when I stopped trusting God. As soon as I LET the thoughts of what I was facing get to me I was a wreak. But as long as I kept my eyes on the Lord I really did feel peaceful. You can't be fearful and be trusting the Lord at the same time. If your fear is up your faith is down, and when I realized that I used it as a tool to keep my faith on track.

I'm praying this morning for you to have good test results. But also for you to have full peace in the Lord. That your trust in Him will CARRY you through what ever you face. I will also pray that for now and in the future the Lord will send some loving people to be a support system for you. I know our church cooks meals, does house work, and helps take care of those that need help.

The Lord will meet all your needs... You just have to trust. God Bless you today and every day.
I will pm you my phone number... I have a phone plan where I can call any time in the US and it won't cost any extra money. We pay a flat rate. You can call me if you need to talk or if you want me to pray with you. As of right now I am not working... so I'm around! Call me if you want to and I can call you right back! You are not alone... God Bless & Peace.