thanks everyone again for all the support!
thanks Janie, i wrote you an email I think on Sunday.
Archie and Charlie's angel, I will have to find a place to go in my mind and imagine you all here at YT there to be with me. great ideas!
I am doing fair. I have been depressed and lethargic. I hate when I feel this way. I just don't want to do anything. I have errands I need to run, I keep avoiding doing that. I need to do things around here, I am not doing that either. I need to just suck it up and do what I need to do. I know that, but feel so stuck. I just keep thinking "what if it's cancer, what will I do??" I am alone with only some friends relatively close by. Family, what there is left of it, is 500 miles away. I have my babies to worry about. Who will cook for William if I can't? ...lol sort of...But I really worry about that. Who will wash his behind when he gets doody on it...LOLOLOL, but it just happened. (the cats are easier, they are pretty independent.) i'm really sweating this one, the lump is so close to the chest wall, not more shallow like the other two. my mom's cancer was deep, and had projections down into the underlying muscle. my fear is really getting to me this time. thank G-d i do have William, if i didn't i think i would be perhaps suicidal. i have been there before and am really thankful i am not that depressed now. and having YT'ers are really helping too, i think i found this site, and then my William through this site, just to be here for me now. i really believe things happen like that sometimes. anyway, thanks again to all who have written to support me. i really appreciate each and every one.
Melody