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Originally Posted by stingrhea  thanks everyone again for all the support!
thanks Janie, i wrote you an email I think on Sunday.
Archie and Charlie's angel, I will have to find a place to go in my mind and imagine you all here at YT there to be with me. great ideas!
I am doing fair. I have been depressed and lethargic. I hate when I feel this way. I just don't want to do anything. I have errands I need to run, I keep avoiding doing that. I need to do things around here, I am not doing that either. I need to just suck it up and do what I need to do. I know that, but feel so stuck. I just keep thinking "what if it's cancer, what will I do??" I am alone with only some friends relatively close by. Family, what there is left of it, is 500 miles away. I have my babies to worry about. Who will cook for William if I can't? ...lol sort of...But I really worry about that. Who will wash his behind when he gets doody on it...LOLOLOL, but it just happened. (the cats are easier, they are pretty independent.) i'm really sweating this one, the lump is so close to the chest wall, not more shallow like the other two. my mom's cancer was deep, and had projections down into the underlying muscle. my fear is really getting to me this time. thank G-d i do have William, if i didn't i think i would be perhaps suicidal. i have been there before and am really thankful i am not that depressed now. and having YT'ers are really helping too, i think i found this site, and then my William through this site, just to be here for me now. i really believe things happen like that sometimes. anyway, thanks again to all who have written to support me. i really appreciate each and every one. 
Melody |
Good Morning Melody, I just found this thread this morning and I realize your test is today. Just wanted to send encouragement to you.
I was being tested for cervical cancer a few years ago. I had to wait for over a week for the test results to come back. It turned out they were looking for cancer that had already spread.
My kids were still in school, and I got a little freaked out at first. But I am a Christian and I looked to the Lord to care for me. I found that as long as I was leaning on the Lord and trusting Him I was at peace. I truely knew God would take care of me and my life was in his hands no matter what the out come. I also knew my family was in His hands and he would take care of them as well. The only time I was not at peace was when I stopped trusting God. As soon as I LET the thoughts of what I was facing get to me I was a wreak. But as long as I kept my eyes on the Lord I really did feel peaceful. You can't be fearful and be trusting the Lord at the same time. If your fear is up your faith is down, and when I realized that I used it as a tool to keep my faith on track.
I'm praying this morning for you to have good test results. But also for you to have full peace in the Lord. That your trust in Him will CARRY you through what ever you face. I will also pray that for now and in the future the Lord will send some loving people to be a support system for you. I know our church cooks meals, does house work, and helps take care of those that need help.
The Lord will meet all your needs... You just have to trust. God Bless you today and every day.
I will pm you my phone number... I have a phone plan where I can call any time in the US and it won't cost any extra money. We pay a flat rate. You can call me if you need to talk or if you want me to pray with you. As of right now I am not working... so I'm around!
Call me if you want to and I can call you right back!
You are not alone... God Bless & Peace.