As always thanks for the kind words. Some days are better than others but today was hard. I ran into so many people that "didn't know" - neighbors - and I had to explain it over and over again. By the time I met friends for lunch I had a headache and was tired. Then another friend joined us and she hugged me and the tears came back. I was okay for a while then I walked into a PetsMart and there was this adorable little Yorkie named Lexi. Someone asked me about the dobe in the picture. That was my other baby and her name is Lady Lexington or Lexi.
This was a rough summer for me. Lexi was also two years old and she was given to me as a gift from an ex boyfriend trying to win me back. She was a very good, gentle girl but suffered from separation anxiety and later was diagnosed with urniary incontinence. Basically she couldn't handle being confined for more than 4 hours without an accident or tearing something up. After several months of trying to do many things to accommodate her needs and many trips to the vet I made the painful decision to let her go. I went through a very nice doberman rescue and the people who took her said she is doing much better. The new owner is a stay at home mom who has been working with her. She has made great improvements. It was hard but I live alone and work long hours. Lexi just couldn't handle it but Mouse could.
Just as I was getting used to Lexi not being around Mouse was taken from me. So, like I said this was a very rough summer. It was hard enough to give up one dog but to loose two seems too much. So, when I saw that Yorkie named Lexi I lost it. I just told the other owner my dog had recently died so I didn't have to explain. He was very nice and let me pet his little girl.
Then after I got home a neighbor came running over asking me if I was interested in her friend's jack russel/beagle mix. I kept a smile on my face and thanked her but said it wasn't time. She tried very hard to get me to come over and see it. She even convinced my bf to go over and he did. He said it was a cute dog and he played with it a little but if I didn't want it than I should just say no. I think the neighbor understood as she didn't push.
Later still I went to my niece's birthday party and she told me she had a school teacher that did foster work for the Human Society. She told the teacher to let her know when any Yorkies came in. I thought it was very sweet of my niece but when I got home at the end of the evening the tears came back No matter what they just aren't going to be my Mouse. I just don't feel like I'll ever find the perfect dog again - one that bonds with me and likes to cuddle and play and go for walks and always be where I am.
Mom and dad want me to watch their dog for two weeks and I agreed but Molly just isn't as affectionate. I wish now I had not agreed but I won't go back on my word.
There have been so many people trying to help in their own way. I really do appreciate it but it's still hard. Thanks for listening.
Mouse's Mommy
