I hope in time the good memories will be something to hang onto and give you a feeling of peace but I've been there and I know the pain is unbearable.
Hugs to you and your wife.

I am soo sorry for your loss.

My heart goes out to you and your family. So sorry for your loss. :( My yorkie's name is Zack also. I'm sure in time another yorkie will fill your life with happy memories again. You'll be in my prayers.

Hi allan,

I hope you are doing better.
I also have Heidi as my wallpaper on my mobile phone I also have a couple of short video clips on there too so i feel i always have her with me.
I have framed photos all over the house too.
You lost Zackie just 3 days before i lost my Heidi so i often think of you.

Take care of yourself.

Kerry x

Thanks Kerry. One thing that I truly regret was that I did not take enough pictures of Zackie. I always felt like what was the need since he was right there? I took some when I first got him (to send to family and friends), but that was really it. One of the only pictures I took of him in recent memory was the attached, which I took on my cell phone since I was waiting in the car for her with Zackie on my lap and I was bored.... I always felt like I had 13 more years for pictures, but now I regret that terribly.

I have not post lately, since I have not really had anything to add. I still miss Zack so much. I actually saw a Yorkie on the subway today, but he/she looked nothing like Zack (but the dog was kissing its owner like crazy - which is something Zack always did).

That is it for now, and I wish everyone who has lost a Yorkie in the recent past the best of wishes.

-Allan

Allan, I'm so sorry for your loss.My heart goes out to you.

Hi, Allan. Because of you, I enclosed my deck with 8x4 plastic lattice, tied securely with plastic ties and feel secure. Before Sophie died, she would want to go outside on the deck, but was always afraid she would fall through because she was so tiny. Reading your posts, and hearing another story fro a friend whose tiny Yorkie fell to the ground, I went out and bought the enclosure so Charlie can venture out.

When you said you saw the Yorkie in the subway, I remembered seeing a Yorkie walking in the market (downtown Seattle). I followed the owner and dog, asked if I could just touch her dog (after telling her about losing Sophie). She was so generous, I patted the pup, felt her fur and then realized how strong her body was compared to little Sophie's.

I hope this message helps you in some way that I did respond to your request for all of us to secure our decks. Sophie is also on my cell phone background which makes me feel closer to her. As for pictures, I took so many videos and pictures when she was younger, and wish I would have taken videos of her in December. Like you, I just want to go back and look at her sweet little face.

Take care, Deborah

Deborah-

Knowing that Charlie will be safe from falling off your deck like Zack did really does make me feel so much better. Nothing will ever take away the pain of losing Zackie so soon and so suddenly, but knowing that his and my tradegy will help save other Yorkies truly takes a little bit of the pain away. I just wish I had known better before this all happened....

Allan

Allan --

Sorry you are still hurting so badly. Hopefully, time will be kind and at least ease your pain sooner rather than later. :love:

OH NOO NOO NOO! You are wrong Allen...you WILL see him again...and when you walk through those gates...be listening, cuz he will be the one barking like mad...he loves you as much now as he did in life. God puts these babies in our lives for a reason, and believe me...when he takes them, it is so hard to understand. I know because I have been in the same place you are. They are our best friends, our most loyal companions. I know the love She-Ra had for me was stronger than any human love. Just take your time, grieve all you need. Talking about memories helps with the pain. I made a memorial of She-Ra and put it in my room. Pics, her sweaters...some hairs from a hairbow, her collar. I know exactly how you are feeling. Yes, the no appetite is normal, the no sleeping is too. But God will heal the hole in due time. Just don't forget you WILL see him again one day...

You are in my thoughts today.


RIP little Zackie boy.

Amanda

Hi again Allan,

I took more photo's in the last 18 months of her than i did when she was younger because she was diagnosed with cancer so i took as many as i could.
The morning we were taking her to the vet for the last time my hubby got a camera out and i told him i didn't want pictures taken..but now i'm so glad i have those even though they still hurt me too much to look at them.
I was able to say goodbye even though it was the most painful thing i have ever had to do and that wasn't possible for you as Zackie was snatched away from you too soon...i think this is why it is probably harder for you right now and the fact that you are blaming yourself which you must not do...accidents do happen and we must learn by them..he did not die in vain..his death is making other dog owners aware of the dangers.
You have your memories and the fact that he was well loved and taken care of, Zackie knows this and he will always be with you..i feel Heidi is around me all the time...and when the house is quiet i'm sure i can still hear all the little noises she used to make to get my attention.
She will always be my special first baby.x

My hurt aches for you also
 

RIP Zack. Thank you for sharing your story. I just got your PM about my Duke. and looked up Zacks story. I it so hard. I am crying as I write you. May God bless both you and your wife. I also hope the pain passing soon. I know I cry every time I see one of Dukes toys or blankets or bowls etc.... I have so many people at work that knew my Duke and I have had to share his loss over and over and I knew they mean well but WOW it hurts.

Many prayers for you all. :rbyorkie: I sure Zack and Duke are playing together. Both without pain now. :fallen:

Allan~ first, let me say how very very sorry I am for your loss. Zach was really a darling little dog and you were so blessed to have him for the short time you did. I can tell he brought you much joy and happiness, and I'm sure you did the very same for him. Know that he knew how much he was loved and had a wonderful life, even if it was so short. There are so many millions of animals who will never know that love.
As far as your grief; cry...and cry often. Think about him and eventually, it won't be so terribly painful and sad. You'll be able to remember all the wonderful things about him with a smile instead of always tears. I know, b/c I lost my Moluccan cockatoo after having him since he hatched and he was 18 yrs old. He was the love of my life and we went thru so much together over the years. It has been just slightly over a year since he passed away (and also from a freak accident that even though I had nothing to do with, the mere fact that I had allowed someone else to take care of him, when I should have known how obstinate he was, still makes me blame myself). The only thing I can tell you is that I still cry almost every day over my birds, but it's a little less now and I can at least talk about them without breaking down every single time. It's amazingly painful, but it's what makes us human and such good pet stewards; that we care so acutely. Don't ever let anyone make you feel silly or anything else for your grief; just let it come out when it needs to. I at least know that now, nothing else can ever happen to them to hurt them and I know that they always knew that I was their person and that I loved them more than anything. I can't even imagine losing Max, so I can imagine just how sad you are. Here are two poems which helped me a little bit and I hope they'll help you too:

"Weep not for me though I am gone into that gentle night
Grieve if you will, but not for long upon my soul's sweet flight.
I am at peace, my soul's at rest, there is no need for tears.
For with your love I was so blessed for all these many years.
There is no pain, I suffer not, the fear now all is gone.
Put now these things out of your thoughts, in your memory I live on.
Remember not my fight for breath, remember not the strife.
Please do not dwell upon my death, but celebrate my life."




"Grieve not,
Nor speak of me with tears;
But laugh and talk of me
As if I was beside you...
I loved you so~
T'was heaven here with you!"
Isla Pachal Richardson

Hi Allan...Maybe that WAS little Zack in that yorkie on the subway letting you know he's still with you. I think of you often and I'm really hoping things get better for you. I know your heart is broken and in time it will get better...Hugs and please keep in touch ok ?

Hi everyone.

It is about 1:30 am and I cant seem to fall asleep. It all started about an hour ago. Turk (our cat) was sitting in the area of our living room where all of Zack's things were (his bed, pad, bowls etc...). Turk was just sitting there staring at the wall. My wife thought he sense a bug or mouse behind the wall. I think he just misses Zack (although they were never best friends or anything). Watching Turk seemingly miss Zack has made me really sad about Zackie's death. I have been getting over it little by little. Now, more often than not, I think of happy times with Zack without crying. But seeing Turk staring at Zack's "area" was just too much for me.

I still can't believe that my little Zackie is gone. I still miss him so much.

Allan

Allan ~ I am so sorry to hear about Zack. My husband and I were fortunate to have two big doggies that lived rather long lives, whom we dearly cherished... and then their time came to go to Rainbow Bridge. I truly know and understand your heartache. When my husband called me and told me about our Irish Setter, I was at work and wailed so deeply and loudly that my co-workers thought I had lost a "human" family member. Although Kaleb was our doggy, he was very much our family member. Please know that time does heal wounds. It doesn't make them go away, but the fond memories begin to become a brighter remembrance and the sadness and emptiness turns to laughter, joy and tears over the memories. For us, we bought a new puppy within 3 months, and soon the sadness turned to happiness again. I still immensely miss my Kaleb and tears well up even now thinking about him, but be thankful that you had the chance to experience what most people don't even have a clue about ~ the unconditional love of an animal. Your beautiful memories of Zack will last a life time.

God's peace to you and yours.

~Alina

Good morning, I am up also. Been awake waiting for Duke to come to bed. God the nights are long with out him. I wish my husband understood I how I feel. I am just so empty. The girl Chihuahua we were breeding with is still here and she walks around looking for Duke also. I breaks my heart.

oh my how devastating! I am in tears! I am so sorry, RIP Zack

Hi Allen,

Most of us just can't simply "get over" the loss of our precious babies. It's good that you can remember fondly of the happy times and it's definitely ok to still cry too. It's been over a year since my Jewel left us behind and I still cry too.

When you feel the time is right for you I pray you open your heart to another little Yorkie - The new pup will not replace Zack but will honor him and bring you new joy and much love.

Bless you Allen

Zackie
 

Allan,

I am terribly sorry for your loss. Only you will know when the time is right to let another little baby in your life and heart. I cry with you.

I am so sorry about this terrible tragedy. I don't know what to say. When I ready posts like this it just makes me cry. Prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

Heather-Mamma to Gracie and Hallee

Oh man - I am sooooooo sorry for you loss. The one good thing you have is memories - I have lost a few dogs over the years - I still think about them all the time - and remember all the good and bad about them - More good of course then bad - Time will definately help heal - My heart goes out to you and your wife - RIP Zack

Hi everyone. I thought it was about time for an update....

I don't even know where to start. It has been nearly two months since my little Zackie died. As I have stated many times above, Zack was my best friend. He was always there for me - when I was happy, when I was sad, when I was lonely, etc... For the first two weeks, I couldn't stop crying. Then, for a while after that, I was okay most of the time, but would still break down at times when I thought of Zackie, and how he died, and how we won't be able to play together again. Finally, I stopped crying. I am not why or how that happened, but I just don't really cry anymore. Please don't think that I don't miss my little guy anymore. In fact, that is the furthest thing from the truth. I still miss him so much. I still walk by his "area" in our living room and get sad. I still think about our late nights sitting on the couch together watching tv; our walks; everything... And I miss those things and him. I don't think those feelings will ever go away.

Well, I finally have good news to report. My wife and I decided to get a new puppy! Although I would have chosen a new Yorkie, for reasons that I cannot get into right now, we decided on a yellow labrador. We went to a few breeders, found one we felt comfortable with, and put down a deposit. Our new puppy (now 3.5 weeks old) will be coming home to us at the end of July. I can hardly wait!!!

Despite being so happy and excited about our new lab, at times I have mixed emotions. Like I said, I still miss Zackie so much. Some times I feel like I am "disrespecting" him by getting a new puppy (and a non-Yorkie at that). But, I keep telling myself that Zack loved me as much as I loved him and he truly would want me to be happy. And, if getting a new puppy helps me get over the loss of my best friend, he would be all for that. I still talk to Zack and tell him that his little sister is coming home soon. And, that I wish he were still alive to meet her. I am so sure Zack would have loved a little baby sister (who will grow to about 15 times his size)!

So, that is about it for now. I would again like to thank everyone on this board who helped me get through this difficult time. I don't know what I would have done without everyone's support. Zack will always be my first dog and he taught me how much people can love dogs. He is now resting forever in my parent's backyard. I will love him and miss him forever and I am sure he will smile down on me when he sees me loving our new puppy in the future.

-Allan

That is exactly what Zackie would want...to see you smile again and be happy. Enjoy your new pup when you get her...you'll find that you really do have room in your heart for another. I call Winston, Spencer's little brother all the time...and I know in my heart that Spencer understands, why I had to have another. Best of luck to you and your new found puppy love...

Dear Allan. You described your feelings perfectly, and Zak will always be your first pup and first love. As the months progress, the tears lessen but will reappear and go ahead and cry because they will help wash away the ache. A different breed is commonly advised so there isn't a comparison and I know you will grow to love your newest member as strongly as Zak.

Take good care and Zak is watching over you, Allan. Can you feel his presence? Warmly, Deborah

Congratulations on getting a new puppy. I hope that you will have a long happy life together.:)

Hi Allan

I have just read this thread through page by page and it upset me terribly but by the time I got to the end I felt better.

Your story is dreadful and I cannot imagine how hard life has been recently.

I also lost my dog in February, I originally brought three home fifteen years ago from the local animal care centre and Chloe was the last one to pass on. This literally ripped my life apart and I couldn't stop crying or thinking about her. Even when the tears stopped I couldn't sleep properly at night, I just missed her like crazy and couldn't understand why I was grieving so much over an animal. I then read that people experience as much (if not more) grief for animals as they do people for they are family to us. Once I recognised this fact I just allowed myself to recover slowly, then one day, my mind was made up, two months after Chloe's death I decided, I was getting a Yorkie! Bringing another dog into my house was the best thing I ever did, it is a home once more and alive with fur and fun!

Initially, I felt like you, I thought I was disrespecting Chloe and I was a traitor but then I turned it around, I told Chloe (I talk to her picture sometimes) that I had brought Oscar into the house as a tribute to her and to the other dogs I have lost. I also "talked" to Oscar about this brothers and sisters who would have loved to have met him. It sounds silly I know but it has helped me.

I am glad you have another dog and I'm sure he will bring you lots of love and joy. Life can be so cruel sometimes can't it.

There is a lump in my throat again now.
Bless you!