Allan, I am so sorry for your loss. Your story has touched me so deeply, I cannot hold back the tears. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Zackie what a beautiful little boy.

Hello. I'm not sure if this post will work as I am on my blackberry. Anyway, quick update - we went on a short trip to get away from everything. We are having fun (although the hotel lost my luggage - it was stolen - and now I have to buy all new stuff). Anyway, I still miss my doggie. My mom, though, keeps an eye on him and says that everything is fine with his grave. (That is the least that I can do for him.). It has gotten a little bit better in that I can think about my little Zackie and usually not cry. (I do still cry at times though).

That's all for now. Thanks again to everyone for all the good wishes. Zack would be happy to know how supportive Yorkie owners all are.

-Allan

Dear Allen,

I am in tears after reading this post and my heart goes out to you and your wife :love: Please know that you will be in my prayers. I'm sooooooo sorry at your loss....

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Dear Allen. I am so sorry for the loss of your dear Zackie. Please know that his death probably saved hundreds of little yorkies! After I first read about Zackie, I did some research and put some netting up on my deck between the lower railing and the floor boards, so my Gracie will not meet the same fate. Maybe that was Zackie's purpose on this earth? Please consider, when you are ready, loving again. You can never replace Zackie, but I am sure there is a bit of room in your heart for another. It might also help you to visit rainbowsbridge.com. There is a great support group there. You don't have to buy anything. If you want, you can create a virtual memorial for your Zackie. Proceeds go to animal shelters. Please take care, and thank you for sharing the loss of your Zackie with us.

Oh My...I just read this thread and I am so so sorry for your loss of little Zach. This has to be such a deep hurt. I am so glad you and your wife were able to get away and hope this hasn't come between you two. Each day will get a little better and you will always hold a special spot in your heart for Zach that nothing can ever fill but his special memories. You sound like such a compassionate and caring person that has so much love to give. Peace and acceptance will come, I promise. I hope you can share your love someday with another furbaby. There is one waiting out there that needs you and would be so lucky and blessed to share his life with you...Until then..time..time for you, so you can heal...:)

Gracie2006,
I felt good all over when I read your post. Knowing that Zackie's death (although totally senseless and avoidable) will save other Yorkie's lives makes me feel a lot better. The fact that Zack did not die in vail eases the pain of losing him (if only a little). We are still away, but I guess posting via my Blackberry works. Anyway, everyone pls pls pls make sure that your terraces/balconies/decks are Yorkie-proof. Even if your doggie never goes out there, pls puppy-proof it. Zack NEVER ran outside before. But, doing it once was one time too many. Pls make sure that my Zackie didn't die for nothing.

-Allan

I couldn't agree with you more...I think we should ALL take a look around our homes, make sure there is nothing that will harm our little ones, there really are so many things, things we take for granted, things that have always been there, that shouldn't be, that can cause injury or poisoning or yes, unfortunately even death to these little guys. Don't wait, check, do it now!!!

Alan we are also planning on putting netting up around the base of our deck to prevent Grayson and Abby from falling, I had never thought of it before until I read about Zackie, I hope your days are getting better. I am sorry for your loss.

I have just read this and I sit her crying my eyes out. I am soo very sorry for your loss and don't even know what else to say. Thinking about my babies and how I would feel. My thoughts and prayers for you and Zach

Hi Allen,

Just wanted to check and see how you are doing today. You are in my thoughts often.

Hey Allan - I hope getting away is helping and I think of you often.

Thanks to everyone for being concerned about how I am doing. Getting away was nice, although it had its mishaps. First, the hotel LOST my bag (which had EVERYTHING I brought with me). The shuttle driver picked us up at the airport and brought us to the hotel and said "go in and check in and we will take care of your bags." After taking 40 minutes to check in (which no one has yet explained to us why it took so long), we went with the porter to get our bags. My wife's was sitting on the curb, but mine was gone. (Someone stole it in the interim.) The hotel manager admitted that it was their negligence. In the end, it all worked out as they reimbursed us for the value of what was stolen; paid for us to buy some new clothing for me for the time at the hotel; and gave us two nights free. All in all, they did the right thing, but the whole episode was a fiasco. Then, the flight home was a nightmare.... First, a two hour delay; then a 3 hour delay; then they cancelled the flight; then, finally, they said they located a new crew and plane, and we ended up getting home around 3 am.

Although we had a really nice, relaxing time (other than the above), I did think about Zack. Whenever I went away in the past, the first thing I did when I got home was run upstairs to scoop him up and play with him. (He was always so excited to see me.) So, knowing that I was coming home to an empty house made me sad. And, I thought of Zack often during the quiet times lying out on the beach. But, things are getting a little easier, in that I don't cry as often. And, knowing that my mom checks on Zackie's grave at least once every other day, makes me feel a little better. Once last thing - I had saved the picture of Zack that I had attached in my original post as my cell phone wallpaper. (I had done that even before Zackie died.) I got really upset yesterday, so I opened my phone and talked (and cried) to the picutre of Zack and it made me feel like he was almost there listening to me, like he used to do in the past. That is probably the hardest part for me - whenever I was upset about anything, I would always take Zack for long walk, and I would talk to him and he would inevitably cheer me up.

Again, thanks to every one for caring and listening.

-Allan

Hi Allan
 

I watch for your thread and know this is a difficult journey. This will take time to come to terms with Zackie not being in your life. However, he really is with you everyday, Allan. I also have Sophie's picture on my phone and it gives me comfort. Just think, Zackie was loved so very much during his brief lifetime, and he is looking down saying "thank you, Daddy" for loving me and giving me such a wonderful home.

Take care and keep writing. Warmly, Deborah

Quick update - not much to report. I still sorely miss Zack. My mom has been repeatedly checking on his grave and tells me that it is fine. I still have not purchased a tomb stone for Zackie, because I have not yet decided what it should say. All I do know is that I still miss him and thinking about him makes me sad. It is still really hard.

That is it for now....

-Allan

Just checking in you and your family are in my thoughts

Zackie
 

I am sitting here with tears running down my face. I lost my 12 year old Shih Tzu, Merlin, to cancer 2 years ago and I still cry when I think of him. I lasted two weeks without a dog in the house bought a Yorkie puppy named Zena. While no new animal will replace Zackie having something to love that love's you unconditionally helps. Good luck

I can't immagine what you are going through right now, and I hope that you will eventually find peace. Your precious friend was just too young to go, and it was such a hard way to lose him. I am so sorry. I know that Zackie is with all the other beloved pets in that special place where they will wait for us, and we will see them again someday. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Hello-

I thought I'd write a quick response to everyone that says they can't imagine how I feel.... It is so hard. Zack's death was so unexpected. Whenever I thought about him dying (which to me would not be for another 13 years or so), I got sad. Thinking about my life without him was simply too depressing to contemplate. And then, all of a sudden, he was gone. I know it sounds like a cliche, but I feel like I lost a part of myself. Some of my favorite things to do were to take Zackie for a 5 minute walk to the market and buy some items. He loved those times. I used to take him to a park near my house to run around. I used to walk with him at all hours of the day. Our walks were some of the most enjoyable times of my life. And now, I can't stop thinking about what I lost and how I will never see his little smile again. It is so hard. Sometimes I think about wanting a new dog (which is a long and complex story in of itself), but then I sometimes think about little Zackie and how a new dog will never be able to replace what I lost. I just miss him so much. He was just sucha good little boy who was always there for me and was my best friend.

I just hope everyone here never takes their dog for granted. If he has an accident, or steals something you need, just take a step back and think about how much you love him/her and how sad you'd be without him/her and just give him a hug and kiss.

Allan

One more thing - right after saying that I have not been crying as much lately, I watched the Rainbow Bridge video from another post, and that made me miss Zack even more and start crying right at my desk. I just miss him so much. It is so hard without him.

Allan

:( :( :( :( I really feel your pain...I hope your trip was a little escape for you and you have friends here - keep posting and talking about him...I know in time it WILL get easier but it's such a raw pain :( ....I just can't imagine what you're going thru...I've been with my husbands cockers at their time but it was peaceful and due to illness & age....I was devestated but knew it was for the best....little Zack will always live in you.

Allan...I buried my sweet Spencer in my rose garden, the one place I tried so hard to keep him out of when he was alive...sad but true...I didn't want a typical tomb stone, didn't really want it to look like a cemetery, so I bought this beautifully engraved rock that simple says REMEMBER in cursive writing, I think it looks great and I will always remember, as I'm gardening I talk to him...think about him...and of course I still miss him dearly.

Allen,

After Jewel passed on, Dan & I couldn't even thing about getting another Yorkie. We just weren't ready and we didn't think it would be fair to a new pup to be compared to Jewel because in our hearts, we felt no other pup would ever live up to her. As the seasons changed from Spring to Summer to Fall, we slowly started to poke around YT nursery and breeder websites and finally after the New Year we decided the time was right for us to bring a new baby home. We ended up bringing home two.

I can tell you Allen, we were so nervous wondering if it's the right thing to do but within each we saw little glimmer of our baby Jewel and knew Jewel is the one who led us to the new babies. We still cry often missing Jewel and I pray I never stop missing her.

Zackey will forever be with you. He will lead you to a new love when he know's you are ready. Zackey want's you to laugh and play again.

Corinne

Hi. After reading wemple2's post, I started wondering the following. Does everyone talk to their dogs after they die? I know that I still talk to Zack all of the time - sometimes I do it when I am upstairs in the area where he used to sleep; other times when I look at his picture that is the wallpaper on my cell phone; and still other times when I simply just miss him. Is this normal? And how long does this last? I know this pain will never fully go away....

Allan

I can tell you from experience, you will always hurt for him, but time does ease the pain...my best suggestion to you when your ready is to get another one...he will not take your little Zackie place but it will help ease the pain...I am so sorry for your loss...:(

I can't speak for everyone, but it's been 3 years and 5 months, and yes I do still talk to him...I can't go to sleep at night without saying "goodnight Doodle, mommy still loves you...mommy still misses you". Call me crazy, but I do still talk to Spencer, his nickname was Doodle, all the time. And I'll always remember...

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your baby. Yes, as everyone has said, it will take a long time before you can think of your little pal without grieving or crying. I lost my little poodle of 17 yrs just 5 months ago. Reading your post, made me start crying again.

I too talk to my little "Boo" as I called him all the time. I think I always will. Even though I had gotten Tink before he died, I still miss him terribly. He was my best buddy in the world and had some very special gifts that I miss too.

The grieving will get some easier as time goes on, but it will never go away. And it shouldn't - that's how we remember and keep the memories in our hearts.

Dear Allen,

Words can not express your loss, at this sad time, I know God is cradling Zackie in his loving arms, and Zackie is telling him all about your special times and how much he misses you too. Time heals all, in the meantime, all of us at Yorkie Talk will crudely you in our arms, and pray that the sun will shine in your lives soon, and the memory of Zack will always linger on. May the Lord be with you to give you strength in your time of sorrow, and know we all feel your pain, and have you and your wife in our prayers! Stay strong, and love your wife, you both need each other right now, you are always in my thoughts and prayers, and little Zackie has captured my heart! Through your kind and loving words. He was an adorable little soul, and a piece of him is in your heart and will remain there until you meet again.

All of us at Yorkie Talk will cradel you in our loving arms, not crudely you, please frogive me for misspeling cradel. And know we are all here for you when you need us.

so so sorry
 

My heart goes out to you.you are in my thoughts tonight.

Hi,
I haven't really posted much as of late. That is not because I am "over" the loss of Zack. To the contrary, I am still really sad and often get depressed. Zack was such a part of my life and he was so young. I really thought I'd have the little guy for at least another 12 or 13 years. I am trying to only think of happy thoughts about my time with Zackie and how he did not suffer when he died, but I always feel bad for myself because I miss him so much. I still talk to him and feel such a sense of loss. It has been about a month, and although it has gotten a bit easier, it is by no means easy.

Thanks again for all the support that I have received on YT. I would be an even bigger mess without this outlet for my grief.

-Allan