Zackie, my 2 year old Yorkie died last night.
 

I don't even know where to begin. Some of you may remember the picture of Zack that I posted a few weeks ago. Zackie was an adorable 5 pound Yorkie that I got when he was about 3 months old. He was going to turn 2 on May 30. Zack was the best dog I could have imagined. He never barked; was trained on wee wee pads (and only had infrequent mistakes); he was the friendliest dog around - everyone would stop me and ask how he became so social (with people, dogs, cats...) I just said I had no idea - that was just Zack from the moment I got him. He was also so cute. Other Yorkie owners would stop me on the street and tell me how cute he was. (I have attached his most recent picture to this post). Best of all, Zack gave me unconditional love. No matter what, he was my best friend. I would be at work all day and when I came home, all Zackie would want to do was kiss me and play and just sit on my lap. He never got upset and just loved everyone and everyone loved him.

Last night, I had to go to work and Zack was watching tv with my wife. After watching tv, my wife brought Zack to the main level of our apartment to put him back in his pen to go to sleep. Unfortunately, Zack jumped down and ran outside through an open French door onto our small terrace. He kept going and fell around 40 feet. This took place at around 2:10 am as I was on the way home from work. My wife was frantic. I called the police and they came and helped us go through the neighbor's house to get to the backyard behind our apartment. (The people who live in our building wiht backyard access were not home). As soon as I saw little Zackie, I knew he had died. I climbed over the fence and picked up my little baby. I will avoid the gruesome details for you all. Anyway, I carried Zackie up to our apartment and put the mattress from his bed into a box and lay Zack on top of that. I alos put some of his favorite toys in there with him. He looked so peaceful, almost asleep that I just stared at him waiting for him to wake up.

Zack stayed on his mattress in the box in our room all night. I could not sleep at all. I have not been able to stop crying since this happened. Zack was my best friend who was always there for me no matter what. No matter how hard life became, he was there to cheer me up. I just had someone pick him up who will hold his body until I can bury him. I decided to bury Zackie in my parent's backyard (they loved him as well). That way I can visit him as often as I like. I have never lost a pet before. In fact, other than goldfish, Zack was my first pet of any kind. I am absolutely devastated. I know it has been less than 12 hours, but how long will it take for this feeling of loss and utter devastation to go away? This is absolutely killing me. I miss him so much already and can;t stop thinking about all the fun times we had and how much I will miss not having him in my life in the future.

Please please please tell me that this feeling of loss and sadness will go away. I miss my pal Zackie and always will.

Thanks,
Allan

I am so sorry to hear of Zack's passing. How traumatic this must have been for you. I hope your wife doesn't feel too guilty. Bad things do happen to good people.

I pray the Lord will heal your heart. I know Zack was met by my precious Chester and Rosebud at the other side of Rainbow Bridge.

Another yorkie will steal your heart when the time is right. There will never be another like Zack, but each one is precious in their own way.

My prayers go out to you and your wife.
Jacki, Harry, Chloe & Darla

i am so sorry for your tragic loss. the pain will lessen over time, but i don't think it even totally goes away. when the time is right another precious sole will come into your life to help ease the pain and you will have a new friend.

What a horrible tragic end to one so young. I'm truly sorry for your loss and I will send prayers for you and your wife.
You should put some kind of wire on that balcony if you ever get another dog. I have chicken wire on mine. Doesn't look beautiful, but they can't fall off either.
As for the greiveing, well the pain will be there for quite a long time I'm afraid, but it helps if you just think of the good times, and where he is right now..........playing with all the other little dogs in heaven..........rainbow bridge.
I do know the pain your going thru. I've been there.

I am so sorry for your terrible loss. I have no words but I know what you feel in this moment. I always have been a crazy dog lover since I was a kid. I lost 4 dogs in my life and every time, I felt like it was the end of the world. But with the time, little by little you feel better and after a few months you begin to consider the possibility to get another little yorkie.
My heart is with you. Your little angel is in heaven.

I am so sorry for your loss...What a tragic way to lose your little guy. I'm not sure what to say right now. This post just made me cry. My condolences to you and your family. He was very adorable, and I can tell he was very much loved.

I'm so sorry for you loss. Over time it will become easier, and you'll always have your wonderful memories of him. We grieve with you. :cry:

My hart goes out to you , i am so very sorry for your loss . Only time will help you with your sorrow and hurt.God bless you and your family.

I am so sad for your loss. Let yourself grieve and just give it time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Unfortunately, the pain will be with you for a long time. Eventually it lessens and you'll remember just the good times you had with Zack. :hands: :hands: :hands: for you and your wife. It's hard to believe right now, but there will be another little yorkie in your future who will steal your heart.

I am sorry for your loss . You are in my thoughts .

So sorry about your precious little baby. May time heal your heart...

im so sorry xx may Zach rest in peace xx

thank you for the kind words. It is just so hard. I can't stop thinking about Zackie or crying for that matter. We were thinking about moving to the suburbs, in large part t ogive him more room to run around and play. I can't imagine bonding with another Yorkie like I did with Zack. He was my best friend and I miss him so much. We arranged for someone to pick Zack up and hold his body until the burial. That took place a couple of hours ago; it killed me carrying zack down in the box with his bed and toys. I was okay at first, but when the guy put zack in the car I just lost it. I just can't beleive that I will never see my best friend ever again. The only thing that helps even a little is knowing that he didnt suffer at all and that I was able to get him when it happened (despite being at 3 am) and not have to leave him outside overnight (which would have absolutely devastated me).

I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I think you never really get over the loss of a beloved pet, but in time your sorrow is replaced with the good memories you had of him and the love you had for him and the love he had for you. It is very hard, and just allow yourself this time to grieve. Zack was special, thank you for sharing your memories of him with us. Take care!

I dont know what to say, i am soo sorry of the loss of your Baby, and i hope time will heal your sorrow !

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious little Zack. Time heals all but we will never be the same. Your family is in my prayers

Oh, I am sooooooo sorry about little Zack. I was crying so much when I read this. In the picture he looked so lovely. I am sure he is with loads more yorkies at the rainbow bridge. I am not sure what to say about the pain, but I do think time heals your soul. My prayers are with you and your whife.
Maria

May little Zack rest in peace, and may God give you strength to releave your sorrow and grief. I am so sorry for your loss, how tragic. Only time heals a broken heart, but it does get easier...maybe a few months from now, you will smile when you think of him instead of cry. Try to remember the good times and put the bad behind you.

I am crying along with you :cry: I'm so so sorry this happened! I cannot imagine and I'm trying not to. I send prayers to you and know that little Zackie is in heaven smiling down at you. I'm sorry for your loss and for this horrible tragedy. I'm sure the pain will ease with time but it will never go away, at least I wouldnt think so.
RIP Zackie :fallen: :angelyork

I can't imagine this pain ever going away. I can only hope that it subsides in time. This is absolutely killing me. I miss zack so much and cant stop thinking about him.

I am so very sorry. How tragic. The pain seems like it will never go away but it does get better. I have had 3 Yorkies pass away and each one held a special place in my heart. For me getting another one as soon as I could really helped distract me form my grief and you start to bond and fall in love with the baby. It does seem like you will never find that perfect one again but with Yorkies you can't help falling in love.

I'm so sorry for your loss... It broke my heart reading your post and I gasped out loud at what had happened to Zackie.

I too have lost my Jewel to an accident that came about because of her illness. The guilt we feel seems to be endless. It took a long while to get over the "What if's" and the "If Only's" and to accept that it was an accident and it was not anyone's fault.

Believe me I still get pangs of guilt when I think back to that day almost a year ago and brings tears to my eyes.

You will always have a special place in your heart for Zackie. Crying is a good healer as is writing down your thoughts, feelings and happy memories of him.

We are here to help you through your grief.

With Kindered Hearts,
Corinne

So Very Sorry
 

For your loss..........my heart is breaking for you. Time will help the pain.....
ELLIE

: Oh, I am so sorry for your loss of Zack..Time does heal the broken heart..Please stay with us and share all your good times you had with Zack..I have no words to heal your heart, however I will keep you and your wife in my prayers...:hands: :hands:..........Zack...:rbyorkie:

OMG I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SORRY ~! I don't know what to say but you have my deepest condolences :(

ps...I was so sad for you I forgot to say Zack was a little doll. I'm just so sorry that happened and hope in time you can remember him with only smiles....The pain is raw right now.... but it will get better. Rest in Peace sweetheart...you sound very loved.

Another day has gone by, and it is not getting any easier (if anything, maybe even harder as the reality of the fact that i will never see zack again is setting in). I took a sedative last night, so at least I was able to sleep a bit.

i keep thinking about all the things that i could have done differently so that would be sitting here, on my lap right now.

I miss him so much,
Allan