Amen!!!

OMG I am soooooooo very sorry for your loss and more shocked because he looks just like my Reece and I just cant imagine the pain you must feel...I dont know what to say to ease your heartache...:(

Im so very sorry. I have lost a few and its so so hard. I will be praying for you .

So sorry about your loss, my prayers for you,your wife and Zackie!

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you must be going through. My thoughts are with you. Lean on God in times like this and he will help ease your pain. I am very sorry and you will be in my thoughts...:littleang

Wow I can't imagine how hard this must be. I am sorry you had to go through this.

oh my god! I had tears as I read your post. I am so very sorry for your loss. How hurt you must be! As least he will now always be with you by your side, always.
I'm sure this pain will not go away fast, but in time it will heal.. at least partially.. as I know he will never be forgotten.
You and your wife are in my heart and prayers.

Thanks (again) for all the kind words. It is simply not getting any easier. I have been at work for the past 18 hours, which is good and bad. I still miss Zack like crazy and I keep thinking about him. But, at least being so busy, is keeping my mind occupied a little. What gets me the most sad is thinking that I will never ever see him or his little smile again. He always smiled... When we went for walks, he would always turn around and smile at me to make sure i was watching. Just writing that is making me cry again.

One more follow up - I have not been able to eat or sleep since this happened. Since Sat lunch, I have had a bagel and a bowl of soup. that is it. As for sleep, none on Sat night, and about 6 hours last night (with the help of a sedative). Is this normal? How long should it last?

Allan,

First, I'm incredibly sorry for your loss.

It is so hard when we lose a pet. So often the world does not understand our pain, so I am glad that you have found yorkietalk. I would also like to reiterate that someplace in your town/city may offer grief counseling. Please consider looking into this.

I can only speak from my own experiences. I have had pets my entire life, and sadly, with that comes the reality of dealing with their loss. I've been fortunate that all of my babies lived long lives which gave me time to prepare for their eventual loss. However, you are never truly ready, and having one snatched away as you did has got to be devastating.

Please know that in time, the pain does lessen and become bareable. Allow yourself time.

Please try to eat something, even little bits here and there to keep up your strength.

Do not beat yourself up. This could not have been foreseen and tragic accidents do happen. It sounds like you and your wife gave Zach a wonderful life and he loved you very much. He would not want you to be agonizing over what could've been.

If you decide to get another yorkie (now or in the future) know that, while he or she will never replace a beloved pet, the bonds that you form with a new pet will help in ways that nothing else can. Only you can decide when the time is right.

My heart breaks for you.

Im so sorry for your loss, I cannot imagine the pain you are going through, chester and I are sending you hugs and good thoughts to help you through this painful time. Yorkies are the best thing to happen to us.

I am at a loss for words....What a nightmare. You have lived a nightmare....I pray for Zackie...I am not sure you ever get over it. I had 2 ferrets. one died suddenly April 3 2006. No idea why he was bouncing around curled up in his bed and died....May 2006 (yes Mother's Day of all Days) My remaining ferret was helping me with laundry he curled up in the warm sheets and fell asleep in the middle of the floor. My daughters friend walked thru the living room stepped on the sheets and broke his back. He did not die instantly. I had to hold him for 10 minutes. HORRIBLE Yes, you are lucky Zackie did not suffer. Do not try to "get over" Zackie leave a part of your heart for him. I look at my ferrrets picture and still cry. And thats okay. I go to where they are buried and I talk to them. Just last night I sat behind the garage where they are and talked to them. It was 70 degrees at 8 at night (rare here in MI) And I told them they would enjoy the warm grass and warm air. I have Bella and Diggy (2 yorkies) They do not replace my Murphy and Willis they hold a whole different part of my heart. Leave part of your heart to Zackie...but open it up to new love. My yorkies helped me sooooo much. Im not saying run out and get another yorkie now but leave your mind open to new love. Maybe you can get a different breed if you think it will remind you too much of Zackie. I think you should allow yourself to be reminded of him. WHen you are reminded think of the love Zackie has for you and the good times! I know easier said than done. I was a disaster for weks but eventually could control it. Never went away, just controlled. I wish you all the best. By any chance are you catholic? Im not making this a religious thing but I found peace in at Hallmark, they have Saint Charms...and I have St. Francis charm on my Bellas collar and it says "Protect my Dog" It is especially for pets. Just an idea if you believe in that. ;)

I had to post again...I had Zack on my mind so much and just wanted to check in and see how you're doing Allen. PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU EAT !!! Even if it tastes like cardboard try to eat something healthy....Little Zack wouldn't want his daddy sick ok ??? My heart just broke when you said he always looked back to make sure you were watching him....My Chanel does that too....you can share her with me if it will help ???

I know your heart is broken but there IS light at the end of the tunnel and one day you will look back on his little smiley face with a smile of your own.....I don't know when :( :( but it will happen one day and that raw pain will lesson over time. Hang in there and you have friends here.

Sorry, I just saw this. I am SO sorry this has happened. I do understand what you're going through now. I was a mess after I had to put my 15 year old toy poodle down a few years ago. It was my first pet after leaving my parent's house and was like our "first born". I know I had so many good years with him and you only got to have a couple with yours. It's very normal for you to hurt this much but as many here have told you, it will get better with time. You will never forget your Zackie. Hold those memories close and try to take care of yourself. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Anyway, I pulled an all-nighter at work - mostly due to court filing deadlines of today, but in small part becuase I did not want to go home and lose it when Zack didn't bark to welcome me. Zackie virtually never barked. The only time he did was when I was walking up the stairs towards our apartment. Somehow he knew when it was me. (He never barked when it was just my wife coming home). The thought of walking up the stairs to silence was a bit too much to think about, so I decided to help our throughtout the night. At least I was able to stomach a bagel this am.

I am so sorry.. I know words are not enough right now but one day they will console,...if I could turn back time for you I would.. bless his little heart.. may god guard his soul..

Posting my thoughts seems to help a little bit... Here I am still at work, and the one thing that keeps popping into my head is that I cant wait to go home to see Zack. Then it hits me and I get all depressed again, thinking of the past. What hurts the most is the plain and simple notion of I'll NEVER see him again.

I just read your story, and it broke my heart. I too, have only had one pet, my beloved Rex, and I am dreading the day we lose him. I don't have any comforting words or poems for you, just (((hugs))). I am so very, very sorry for your family's loss. Zackie sounded like a one-of-a-kind little guy - and he was one of the cutest little guys I've ever seen!

Take care,
Kerry

You'll see him again, if only in your dreams. I agree, coming home to a quiet house was difficult after losing my Spencer, it got to the point where my husband and I would just look at each other, without saying a word...and we'd both be crying. I can't tell you how long this will last, but I can tell you that after awhile, you'll be able to think of him, and talk about him without breaking down, you'll actually smile when doing so, with pride for your little boy, Zack.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Allen I am still praying that you all are doing ok. You need to eat hun and Please Go home and hug your wife she needs you to. I know she has got to be just as heartbroken and needs you. Being with her and remebering the good times will help you both. God bless you and keep you.

Allan you will see him again like wemple2 said..in your dreams, and in your thoughts when you are able to handle the thoughts of all the good times you had and places you have been...mourning is a process that you have to go thru but know that each day will get better!! And what is a blessing for you is that you have this site to talk about Zack and express your feelings knowing that others here have gone thru what you have or simply have a willing heart to listen to another yorkie parent who is going thru!!! So you will be okay..........in time!!! Trust me on that!!!
Now on another note..You better start eating young man!!! I want to see you post on here that you are eating more than a bagel tomorrow and go home and give that wife of yours a big hug!! I am sure she is grieving as well!!!:p

I know nothing anyone says will help the pain
 

as I read this I had tears falling, I know no matter what is said to you your heart hurts but I had to reach out. I lost my best friend my baby she was the only pet I had ever totally falling in love with and we were never with out each other where ever you saw me you saw her even had the Dr's allow me to have her in the Hospital when I was in "cancer patient " they went as far as helping me get her service papers to allow her to go everywhere with me
Ms Hailey passed away in 2004 and I just have been able to get an new baby but I still morn and cry for her to the point they thought at one time I wouldnt make it because it hurt so bad I allowed it to affect my health.
But it does get better as far as the tears and pain but you will never forget him and you will find if you get a new yorkie you will laugh because you might see something your baby would have done or a look in the eyes I am sorry I had not gotten another baby sooner but my heart felt like it was not fair to Ms Hailey but my wonderful husband found my Lil Nina and she has become another baby to me I pray for you and your wife I know the pain is so hard right now but I will tell you it gets better and the sun will shine just know that he is looking over you and remember he wouldnt want you sad, even though its easier said then done the tears will slow down and you heart will mead may not be tomorrow or next week or next month but it will happen just find all the good you had with him and cherish it and keep looking at all the good it sometimes helps ...if you need soneone to talk to please dont hesitate to contact me ... lilbit4fun@yahoo.com I have been there and I understand and have a great ear...
with loves of thoughts and prayers your way
Dionna

I am beyond heartbroken for you, I have tears in my eyes and I can't imagine the pain you feel. I am so very sorry.

I am so sorry to read your sad news about Zack. My Sophie died in January '07, and the anguish does ease although you will always carry Zack in your heart. It is a shock when they are gone and takes time to recover. His death is no different than a human loss because love is love.

Sophie was cremated and her remains sit in a beautiful urn on my nightstand since I live in an apartment. Give yourself lots of time to grieve and the guilt will linger until you are able to work through the sorrow.

Such a devasting loss. Warmly, Deborah

http://www.indigo.org/rainbowbridge_ver2.html

This link helped me through the extremely sad times.

Warmly, Deborah

Thanks again for all the kind words. It is not really getting any easier for me. Knowing that we could have had 15 more years together absolutely kills me. Each time I go to the living room and see Zack's area (where his bed and toys and food were kept), makes me break down and cry. I am burying Zackie tonight - I decided on doing it in my parent's backyard so that he will never be alone. My parent's will be there for him and I can visit him to talk. Writing this now is bringing tears to my eyes and I don't know how I will even be able to cope tonight.

I miss him so much.

:( :( :( :( Oh allen ...I'm sorry and I think it's a beautiful idea to have him with family...I buried my longtime friend (a really cool cat named Midnight) at my parents and always say a little something to him when I'm there.....

I'll be thinking of you...little Zack just touched my heart as did you.

I'm new here, and just read this. I 'm so, so sorry for your loss. I don't even know what to say. I had to give my baby up on Monday, for various reasons, and I can somewhat relate. The only thing that is keeping me going right now is knowing that even though I can't replace Ras, that I will find the same love in another baby, hopefully soon.

My thoughts and prayers are with you....

~Melena

I am so very sorry for your loss. I know how devastating the loss of a pet can be. It will get less painful with time. You won't ever forget Zack and I'm certain you will hold him again.