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Carmeow · 06-21-2014, 09:19 PM

Today has not been good. We woke up early and immediately I just missed her so much it made me sick. I got home from work and she wasn't there to say hi. It feels really lonely in the house. I think Luma is very lonely too. She has no one to keep her company while we are at work.

Then we checked the mail and her bill had come. Its hard having this physical reminder that we tried and failed....and the worst part was that they had taken her weight and it was listed on the paper. She was 3-3.6 lbs normally. The morning she passed....she was 2.05 lbs. I can't stop thinking about that number. How did I let her get so bad...? She ate twice a day. She ate puppy food for the extra calories. She took a nutrient dense supplement to keep her weight up..I feel so SO guilty and terrible I have cried all day today.

capt_noonie · 06-21-2014, 09:26 PM

Carmen, please don't beat yourself up. I have so much guilt about how Scrappy passed also, but what happened was no one's fault. Heaven needed another angel.

wemple2 · 06-21-2014, 09:51 PM

Focus on the special memories of your sweet girl, the happy times, the silly things she did...we all go through the what ifs when we lose someone so dear to us. Please try to remember her with a smile on your face , yes let the tears flow but through those tears please smile, Rosie is watching from above.

crystalsmom · 06-22-2014, 05:22 AM

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Originally Posted by wemple2

Focus on the special memories of your sweet girl, the happy times, the silly things she did...we all go through the what ifs when we lose someone so dear to us. Please try to remember her with a smile on your face , yes let the tears flow but through those tears please smile, Rosie is watching from above.

Beautiful post Kathy, I agree.

Carmen it hurts, I know and you are in my heart. RIP little Rosie.

Pookie1w · 06-22-2014, 10:09 AM

I truly am sorry for your lose. My heart aches for you, Tony and Luma.

bellajayne · 06-22-2014, 11:46 AM

I actually have been thinking about you quite a bit today and wondering how you are doing. The loss is so difficult, I am sorry for your pain...please try to be grateful for the time you had her to love...some people never get to experience the special bond and some pups never have a family who loves them as much as you did. I do understand how you feel, some days are much worse than others unfortunately!

Carmeow · 06-22-2014, 02:18 PM

Honestly not doing so well. The stress and depression is so heavy. My fiancé is trying really hard to stay positive but I stay up all hours of the night sobbing, I wake him up from my crying, I cry at work in front of coworkers and have to excuse myself to get it together. I have tried everyone's advice of only thinking positively and appreciating what time I did have with her but its just not enough. The entire thing is so painful. My heart hurts just as bad as it did watching her pass.

Juliealfies mum · 06-22-2014, 02:42 PM

Carmen, it is only natural that you feel like this, but you are not to blame, this time will pass and you will think of better times you spent with your precious girl.

wemple2 · 06-22-2014, 08:03 PM

Carmen, I have to tell you that I had to take time off of work to grieve when I lost my first Yorkie Spencer...I was such a mess. My husband and I would just look at each other, without saying a word, and we would both break down sobbing. You need time to heal...it will always hurt, you will always miss her...but it becomes less raw only with time. I have lost many loved ones, including my parents, siblings and in-laws...nothing hurt my heart so bad as losing Spencer...nothing.

chestermama · 06-22-2014, 08:06 PM

I'm in tears I'm so sorry for your loss she was a beautiful dog. Sending prayers

capt_noonie · 06-22-2014, 10:38 PM

Yes I agree with Kathy. After Scrappy passed away, we closed up our shop for about two weeks. I just could not deal with customers for a while. Carmen, please take care of yourself first.

mky · 06-23-2014, 03:50 AM

I am so sorry...

bellajayne · 06-23-2014, 05:48 AM

When we lost Bella I too took some time off of work. I spent 3 days in my bedroom just sobbing and trying to wrap my brain around losing her. It takes a while to even get through a day without crying. As impossible as it seems right now, the days will come though when you can just smile thinking about her. You need time to grieve and be sad, it is still raw...your heart is broken and needs time to heal. I am praying for you, I am so very sorry for the pain you are feeling...I wish I could say something to make it better but just know you are not alone, there are so many on this site that have known the pain you feel and will be here to support you! Hugs.

rubymoon2072 · 06-23-2014, 06:18 AM

I can only imagine the difficulty of trying to gets passed the heart break and agree maybe you should try and take sometime for just yourself to heal at home with Luma. So sorry you are having to go through this and please try not to beat yourself up about not knowing how ill she was I don't believe she would want you to carry that burden. hugs Carmen I so wish we could do more to help you though this very difficult time.

rhondah · 06-23-2014, 06:43 AM

I am so sorry for your loss

I can only begin to imagine the heart break you have. They are our babies and thats how we treat them. Cherish those sweet moments you had and never let them go. Sending big hugs your way.

Rhonda

06-21-2014, 09:19 PM	#61
Carmeow I♥ my girls Luma+Rosie Donating Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: Aggieland, TX Posts: 3,359	Today has not been good. We woke up early and immediately I just missed her so much it made me sick. I got home from work and she wasn't there to say hi. It feels really lonely in the house. I think Luma is very lonely too. She has no one to keep her company while we are at work. Then we checked the mail and her bill had come. Its hard having this physical reminder that we tried and failed....and the worst part was that they had taken her weight and it was listed on the paper. She was 3-3.6 lbs normally. The morning she passed....she was 2.05 lbs. I can't stop thinking about that number. How did I let her get so bad...? She ate twice a day. She ate puppy food for the extra calories. She took a nutrient dense supplement to keep her weight up..I feel so SO guilty and terrible I have cried all day today. __________________ Carmen, mama to Luma & my little angel in Heaven, Rosie.

06-21-2014, 09:26 PM	#62
capt_noonie www.yorkierescue.com Donating Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: Las Vegas & Orange County Posts: 17,408	Carmen, please don't beat yourself up. I have so much guilt about how Scrappy passed also, but what happened was no one's fault. Heaven needed another angel. __________________ The T.U.B. Pack! Toto, Uni, & Bindi RIP Lord Scrappington Montgomery McLimpybottom aka El Lenguo the Handicapped Ninja 10-12-12

06-21-2014, 09:51 PM	#63
wemple2 Wee Winston Wiggles Donating Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Kewanee, Illinois Posts: 9,666	Focus on the special memories of your sweet girl, the happy times, the silly things she did...we all go through the what ifs when we lose someone so dear to us. Please try to remember her with a smile on your face , yes let the tears flow but through those tears please smile, Rosie is watching from above. __________________ As Ever, Kathy Intruducing Bentley Winston and Spencer: RIP My Sweet Angels

06-22-2014, 10:09 AM	#65
Pookie1w Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: Central, NJ Posts: 268	I truly am sorry for your lose. My heart aches for you, Tony and Luma. __________________ Dinorah, Coco Chanel and Rico Suave

06-22-2014, 11:46 AM	#66
bellajayne Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: Western NY, USA Posts: 122	I actually have been thinking about you quite a bit today and wondering how you are doing. The loss is so difficult, I am sorry for your pain...please try to be grateful for the time you had her to love...some people never get to experience the special bond and some pups never have a family who loves them as much as you did. I do understand how you feel, some days are much worse than others unfortunately! __________________ Guinness and Hazel - Isabella R.I.P. Sweet Girl (2/21/14)

06-22-2014, 02:18 PM	#67
Carmeow I♥ my girls Luma+Rosie Donating Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: Aggieland, TX Posts: 3,359	Honestly not doing so well. The stress and depression is so heavy. My fiancé is trying really hard to stay positive but I stay up all hours of the night sobbing, I wake him up from my crying, I cry at work in front of coworkers and have to excuse myself to get it together. I have tried everyone's advice of only thinking positively and appreciating what time I did have with her but its just not enough. The entire thing is so painful. My heart hurts just as bad as it did watching her pass. __________________ Carmen, mama to Luma & my little angel in Heaven, Rosie.

06-22-2014, 02:42 PM	#68
Juliealfies mum YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: scotland Posts: 2,224	Carmen, it is only natural that you feel like this, but you are not to blame, this time will pass and you will think of better times you spent with your precious girl. __________________ From Julie Alfie & Lottie

06-22-2014, 08:03 PM	#69
wemple2 Wee Winston Wiggles Donating Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Kewanee, Illinois Posts: 9,666	Carmen, I have to tell you that I had to take time off of work to grieve when I lost my first Yorkie Spencer...I was such a mess. My husband and I would just look at each other, without saying a word, and we would both break down sobbing. You need time to heal...it will always hurt, you will always miss her...but it becomes less raw only with time. I have lost many loved ones, including my parents, siblings and in-laws...nothing hurt my heart so bad as losing Spencer...nothing. __________________ As Ever, Kathy Intruducing Bentley Winston and Spencer: RIP My Sweet Angels

06-22-2014, 08:06 PM	#70
chestermama YT 3000 Club Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: washington Posts: 3,383 Blog Entries: 1	I'm in tears I'm so sorry for your loss she was a beautiful dog. Sending prayers

06-22-2014, 10:38 PM	#71
capt_noonie www.yorkierescue.com Donating Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: Las Vegas & Orange County Posts: 17,408	Yes I agree with Kathy. After Scrappy passed away, we closed up our shop for about two weeks. I just could not deal with customers for a while. Carmen, please take care of yourself first. __________________ The T.U.B. Pack! Toto, Uni, & Bindi RIP Lord Scrappington Montgomery McLimpybottom aka El Lenguo the Handicapped Ninja 10-12-12

06-23-2014, 03:50 AM	#72
mky YT Addict Join Date: Sep 2011 Location: Florida Posts: 316	I am so sorry...

06-23-2014, 05:48 AM	#73
bellajayne Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: Western NY, USA Posts: 122	When we lost Bella I too took some time off of work. I spent 3 days in my bedroom just sobbing and trying to wrap my brain around losing her. It takes a while to even get through a day without crying. As impossible as it seems right now, the days will come though when you can just smile thinking about her. You need time to grieve and be sad, it is still raw...your heart is broken and needs time to heal. I am praying for you, I am so very sorry for the pain you are feeling...I wish I could say something to make it better but just know you are not alone, there are so many on this site that have known the pain you feel and will be here to support you! Hugs. __________________ Guinness and Hazel - Isabella R.I.P. Sweet Girl (2/21/14)

06-23-2014, 06:18 AM	#74
rubymoon2072 Cedric♥Lola♥Keylo Donating Member Join Date: Nov 2011 Location: Gilford, NH, USA Posts: 9,209	I can only imagine the difficulty of trying to gets passed the heart break and agree maybe you should try and take sometime for just yourself to heal at home with Luma. So sorry you are having to go through this and please try not to beat yourself up about not knowing how ill she was I don't believe she would want you to carry that burden. hugs Carmen I so wish we could do more to help you though this very difficult time. __________________ Cedric N Lola N Keylo RIP Punkee Princess

06-23-2014, 06:43 AM	#75
rhondah Mama's girl Phoebe Donating Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: nc Posts: 887	I am so sorry for your loss I can only begin to imagine the heart break you have. They are our babies and thats how we treat them. Cherish those sweet moments you had and never let them go. Sending big hugs your way. Rhonda __________________ Rhonda ...Mama to Phoebe RIP sweet girl