When we lost Bella I too took some time off of work. I spent 3 days in my bedroom just sobbing and trying to wrap my brain around losing her. It takes a while to even get through a day without crying. As impossible as it seems right now, the days will come though when you can just smile thinking about her. You need time to grieve and be sad, it is still raw...your heart is broken and needs time to heal. I am praying for you, I am so very sorry for the pain you are feeling...I wish I could say something to make it better but just know you are not alone, there are so many on this site that have known the pain you feel and will be here to support you! Hugs. |