Today has not been good. We woke up early and immediately I just missed her so much it made me sick. I got home from work and she wasn't there to say hi. It feels really lonely in the house. I think Luma is very lonely too. She has no one to keep her company while we are at work.
Then we checked the mail and her bill had come. Its hard having this physical reminder that we tried and failed....and the worst part was that they had taken her weight and it was listed on the paper. She was 3-3.6 lbs normally. The morning she passed....she was 2.05 lbs. I can't stop thinking about that number. How did I let her get so bad...? She ate twice a day. She ate puppy food for the extra calories. She took a nutrient dense supplement to keep her weight up..I feel so SO guilty and terrible I have cried all day today. |