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Originally Posted by daisy511  I have never felt this kind of pain in my whole life. Daisy was only 6 yrs old and has been sick on and off for several years. She was so strong and so brave and I can't believe she is gone.She has been my life and my best friend since I first saw her. I am so scared that this pain will never go away. I am having trouble remembering her happy face and can only see those last moments at the Vet..I don't want that. I want her back so bad, I want to hold her and kiss her one more time...how does anyone do this? Please help.Deb |
First of all, Deb, I didn't see your post until tonight. I am so very sorry for not responding sooner. I do care- really, I do! It sounds like there are quite a few of us who are still hurting. Yesterday, I wondered why Mia's St. Patrick's Day collar didn't fit her. Then it dawned on me, it wasn't Mia's collar, it was Lucy's collar. I turned into a blubbery mess. Oh, how I miss that sweet little furry face. I've been going through her things. It's hard to decide what to keep, what to give away, and what to let the other pups have. There are memories everywhere I look.
Last week I got her ashes back. I live in Maryland, and Lucy died in Florida. The ashes came in a little cardboard box. Her ashes were just laying there in a plastic bag with a rubber band wrapped around it. I felt physically sick. Sending them like that was so mean, cruel and insensitive. She deserved so much more than that. Ladies, I don't think this ache is going to go away for a very long time. I know it will get better with time, but right now, it's still very raw. Most of my friends do not understand. Lucy came along during a rough patch in my life. I was so blessed to have that sweet baby. I know I won't give in to the should of, could of, and would of that bombard me daily, and tries to rob me of the precious, happy memories, but I'm also taking all the time I need to grieve my little angel. The day she died is a nightmare burned in my brain. But that was just one day, and that one day does not define the joy I had with her during the other 659 days we were together. To make her death my key memory is unfair to her. My memories have to be the quiet times, the silly times, the playful moments, the head tilt, the puppy dog eyes and that adorable waggly tail. I'm choosing to remember the things she loved (and the things she didn't), the things that made her the happiest little pup on the planet. I'm choosing to remember, so that I'll never forget. Janice, I'm so sorry for your loss of Katie. Deb, I'm so sorry for your loss of Daisy. Susan, I'm so sorry for your loss of Keally. Susie, I am so sorry for your loss of Roxie. RubynRosie, I'm so sorry for the loss of your Lola. It does help to know that there are others who understand and care. And again, Deb, I'm sorry I didn't catch your post earlier. I feel so bad about that. Thank you, everyone for your kind words of sympathy. My YT sisters are just the best!