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RIPMyLittleCase · 02-26-2009, 05:07 PM

I am so sorry about your loss. Know in your heart always that she knew how much you loved her and how special you made her life. I am sure that she misses you as much as you miss her and she is watching over you. Please take care of yourself. That way she can watch you with a smile on her adorable little face. RIP precious Cherry

Sandysbabies · 02-26-2009, 05:15 PM

I am so sorry about little Cherry. I know there are no words that help right now. Crying and grieving are healing and time does help even though thats not what we want to hear when we lose one of our babies. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore and felt like I couldn't even breathe, but believe me it does get better. Praying for you.

Wabbit · 02-26-2009, 05:18 PM

Awww sweetie....so many of us unfortunately know EXACTLY how you feel... I too lost a wonderful dog....what I can say is that it does ease up a bit...with time....your raw and broken heart will start to mend....even though right now I'm sure you can't imagine when that day would ever come....

Just try to KEEP remembering all those little things you loved and adored that your cherry did....things that made you smile....and remember that you were so lucky to have her in your life....even if it was for a brief flicker of time....and know that she was so very lucky to have you....someone who LOVED her so dearly...in her precious life!!!

This will not cure your broken heart...but it will certainly help you mend.....think about getting another dog as soon as you feel you can handle it...

I am so sorry for the pain you are going through....and know that we are here to support you and listen when you need a shoulder to cry on....HUGS!!!

snickers65 · 02-26-2009, 08:47 PM

I am so sorry for the loss of Cherry. I felt exactly as you are feeling now last June. I am in tears as I read your story. It reminds me how hard it was for me and my family when I lost my Snickers. I felt very guilty because I took him to U.G.A. for an ultrasound and they killed him with an overdose I.V. After that I was depressed for weeks. I miss him as you do, but time will help heal your pain. We got another yorkie three months after Snickers died. I still cry for him because I still miss him a lot, but my new yorkie has helped us ease the pain. We will always have Snickers in our hearts and memories. My new yorkie makes us laugh, has put smile on us and brings happiness to our saddened hearts. Please, take care of your health. Try to think of the good times with Cherry and that she didn't have a long sickness.You will feel better as time goes by. We will have you in our prayers. God bless you.

AbbysMom08 · 02-26-2009, 09:39 PM

I am so very sorry for your loss.
I know full well the pain you are going through. I too lost my little one last July and it feels like yesterday.
Please know that you are in my prayers.

briana smith · 02-26-2009, 10:07 PM

I am just now seeing this. I am so very sorry for your lost of Cherry. I know she was very, very special to you. She was a beautiful girl. I had a similar experience with my first maltese pup about 7 months ago. I know how you feel. Life goes on whether we like it or not. In time things will get better but I know, you'll never truly get over it. I don't think anybody will ever get over the death of a loved one, especially an animal. But life goes on...and they'll never be forgotten.
Did you contact the breeder? I know you've had problems with her in the past and she's all the way in Canada, but did you have a health contract? If it was a heart problem then that is most likely hereditary, therefore, it is not your fault, but the breeders.
Please PM me if you need anything. *hugs*

briana smith · 02-26-2009, 10:35 PM

I looked at Cherry's breeder's website and I looked at her parents' pedigrees.
You told me before that Captain was Cherry's sire and Mia was Cherry's dam.
Beautiful dogs but I noticed that Captain is Mia's sire. I'm not an expert on the genetics of breeding dogs in all but I think that Cherry was too closely bred

PhoebeK · 03-04-2009, 06:38 AM

I am so sorry and I can only imagine what you are going through because it was hard and I got tearyj ust reading it. It's so hard to know what to say because there is really nothing anyone can say that is going make you feel better right now. I can relate to your depression and anxiety and this is so hard to go through when you are a "Normal" and happy person and its harder when you are already feeling down anyway. I am sure that Cherry was the one who when you were having one of those bad days she put a smile on your face and things didn't seem that bad. I know that is what Phoebe does for me. My heart goes out to you lean on your fiance as much as you need to right now. Give yourself some time to grieve and although you'll probably never get over it it will get easier with time. Time is the best healer and in time maybe you will decide to get another little one. Of course it will never replace Cherry but I am sure Cherry would want to see you happy again and she will always be in your heart. I take Phoebe to Doggie Daycare and one of their beloved German Shepards passed away suddenly and his owner went to a couple of Funeral Homes in the area and asked if she could have some type of service with her dogs ashes. Many people said no but one place said yes and she is the first person in MA to have a wake for her dog. Just for some closure to an animal and friend and member of the family that meant so much to them. Maybe you can do something like that and it will help in the grieving process that you are going through. And don't feel guilty or bad because how could you have known? She knew you loved her and she loved you and you will always have that. I know it's hard but stay strong. Sometimes it's so much harder to lose a loved one that is a pet because they just love you unconditionally. Stay strong.......

Yorkie_Mama · 03-04-2009, 08:32 AM

I am so sorry for you loss .. when I lost my two bebes I too felt Guilt and Depression .. I still get twinges of the Guilt and I have to for my own sanity think they knew how much they were loved and cherrished... while I was in heavy Grief a rescue I didnt want fell into my arms .. I fought it and said I didnt want her .. but its like she was sent to me with a whisper in her ear from Kissy and Nemo she layed in bed with me and chewed on my pinkie finger just like kissy usto do .. and was so demanding of me ...I somtimes think the dogs know what we need more than we do ..I Found that talking about it helped alot ...so keep talking dear

danjr68 · 03-05-2009, 01:42 PM

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Originally Posted by ilovecherry86

i feel so alone, confused and cold in this nightmare...i want to just wake up...

WE lost our Mya Mia on Mon. she would have been 5 months on Wed. I know what you are going through.It hurts so much.Thank God we have Bella.

Judith Ann · 03-05-2009, 08:25 PM

Tears came to my eyes when I read your post. I am so sorry about your lost baby. Two years ago I lost my Pierre, who died in my arms, from an enlarged heart and liver. He was on several meds and just couldn't get his breath. I buried him in the backyard, but four days later could not bear the thought of his lying there and dug him up and took him to a pet crematory and now have his ashes in a small urn in my home. I can hold the urn now and feel somewhat closer to him. He loved watching television and knew every commercial with a dog in it. He would run into the room and bark excited to see a dog, even when it was a small part of the picture. We had a hard time watching television because he loved to bark at a dog in any scene. He was so enthusiastic and would run into the next room looking for the dog, we had to laugh at him. He was such a dear. He is waiting at the Rainbow Bridge, I am sure.
Talk about your Cherry to make her feel close to you. And cry when you need to, as crying does help. Losing a pet is like losing a best friend, a human friend, so you are not over reacting. You will always miss her, just accept that. There will never be another Cherry. Each dog is so unique in their personality and looks. I think of Pierre at the Rainbow Bridge, and feel he misses me too.
I have a 13 year old, 10 year old, and 10 month old Yorkie now and even though my 13 year old Yorkie, Kiko, is jealous ( but does like and play with her) I know it will be easier when he passes because he was my first Yorkie and we have quite a history together. He is pretty healthy, but also has an enlarged heart and is on Lasix and a Beta Blocker now. I do not want to lose another of my babies. Having a life span of them keeps the older ones younger and will help when the next one goes to the Rainbow Bridge.
Hugs to you and just remember how good it felt to love something so much, and have it love you back.

stedmansmommy · 03-06-2009, 08:33 AM

Oh my goodness girl....I saw the link to this thread that you left me in my profile - I don't know how on earth I missed this. I am so, so, so incredibly sorry for your loss of sweet little Cherry. Honestly, I am just in shock right now and I can't even believe this happened. You are right, I loved little Cherry soo much and you know what we always thought that Cherry and Tatum looked so much alike. This just completely and totally breaks my heart. I just bawled crying while reading your post. My heart is broken into a million and one pieces for you

I wish I could find the right words, I wish I could take away your pain....

I can't even imagine what you must be going through right now. I am just in tears over this.

I know that you loved little Cherry with all your heart and soul and I know that you are missing her terribly. Cherry knew that you loved her and she loved you...and she is looking down at you from The Bridge, smiling.

You were a FANTASTIC mommy to her and she knew that. I know that she will always and forever be in your heart and I pray that time will help ease some of the awful pain that you are feeling right now

I am sending you a ton of hugs sweetie....a ton.

R.I.P. Sweet little Cherry - we love you little angel

Lou · 03-06-2009, 11:05 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss.

andibaby · 03-06-2009, 06:40 PM

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Cherry. Big hugs to you.

Chellbe46 · 03-07-2009, 10:44 AM

Oh honey i wish there was something i could do to take all the pain way but i can not, all i can do is be here 4 you and if you need someone to talk to please feel free to do so. All our love and thoughts are with you xo

02-26-2009, 05:18 PM	#48
Wabbit Love my little flowers Donating Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: In Gorgeous Montana!!! Posts: 4,499	Awww sweetie....so many of us unfortunately know EXACTLY how you feel... I too lost a wonderful dog....what I can say is that it does ease up a bit...with time....your raw and broken heart will start to mend....even though right now I'm sure you can't imagine when that day would ever come.... Just try to KEEP remembering all those little things you loved and adored that your cherry did....things that made you smile....and remember that you were so lucky to have her in your life....even if it was for a brief flicker of time....and know that she was so very lucky to have you....someone who LOVED her so dearly...in her precious life!!! This will not cure your broken heart...but it will certainly help you mend.....think about getting another dog as soon as you feel you can handle it... I am so sorry for the pain you are going through....and know that we are here to support you and listen when you need a shoulder to cry on....HUGS!!! __________________ Tam Flower babies: *Daizy Mae and Tulip Petals* RIP Honey Rose & Jasmine

03-04-2009, 06:38 AM	#53
PhoebeK Yorkie Talker Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: Arlington, MA Posts: 22	I am so sorry and I can only imagine what you are going through because it was hard and I got tearyj ust reading it. It's so hard to know what to say because there is really nothing anyone can say that is going make you feel better right now. I can relate to your depression and anxiety and this is so hard to go through when you are a "Normal" and happy person and its harder when you are already feeling down anyway. I am sure that Cherry was the one who when you were having one of those bad days she put a smile on your face and things didn't seem that bad. I know that is what Phoebe does for me. My heart goes out to you lean on your fiance as much as you need to right now. Give yourself some time to grieve and although you'll probably never get over it it will get easier with time. Time is the best healer and in time maybe you will decide to get another little one. Of course it will never replace Cherry but I am sure Cherry would want to see you happy again and she will always be in your heart. I take Phoebe to Doggie Daycare and one of their beloved German Shepards passed away suddenly and his owner went to a couple of Funeral Homes in the area and asked if she could have some type of service with her dogs ashes. Many people said no but one place said yes and she is the first person in MA to have a wake for her dog. Just for some closure to an animal and friend and member of the family that meant so much to them. Maybe you can do something like that and it will help in the grieving process that you are going through. And don't feel guilty or bad because how could you have known? She knew you loved her and she loved you and you will always have that. I know it's hard but stay strong. Sometimes it's so much harder to lose a loved one that is a pet because they just love you unconditionally. Stay strong....... Last edited by PhoebeK; 03-04-2009 at 06:41 AM. Reason: Spelling

03-04-2009, 08:32 AM	#54
Yorkie_Mama YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Chico,California Posts: 597	I am so sorry for you loss .. when I lost my two bebes I too felt Guilt and Depression .. I still get twinges of the Guilt and I have to for my own sanity think they knew how much they were loved and cherrished... while I was in heavy Grief a rescue I didnt want fell into my arms .. I fought it and said I didnt want her .. but its like she was sent to me with a whisper in her ear from Kissy and Nemo she layed in bed with me and chewed on my pinkie finger just like kissy usto do .. and was so demanding of me ...I somtimes think the dogs know what we need more than we do ..I Found that talking about it helped alot ...so keep talking dear __________________ Dog show Rookie

03-05-2009, 08:25 PM	#56
Judith Ann YorkieTalk Newbie! Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Corrales, NM, USA Posts: 9	I'm dying and bleeding inside Tears came to my eyes when I read your post. I am so sorry about your lost baby. Two years ago I lost my Pierre, who died in my arms, from an enlarged heart and liver. He was on several meds and just couldn't get his breath. I buried him in the backyard, but four days later could not bear the thought of his lying there and dug him up and took him to a pet crematory and now have his ashes in a small urn in my home. I can hold the urn now and feel somewhat closer to him. He loved watching television and knew every commercial with a dog in it. He would run into the room and bark excited to see a dog, even when it was a small part of the picture. We had a hard time watching television because he loved to bark at a dog in any scene. He was so enthusiastic and would run into the next room looking for the dog, we had to laugh at him. He was such a dear. He is waiting at the Rainbow Bridge, I am sure. Talk about your Cherry to make her feel close to you. And cry when you need to, as crying does help. Losing a pet is like losing a best friend, a human friend, so you are not over reacting. You will always miss her, just accept that. There will never be another Cherry. Each dog is so unique in their personality and looks. I think of Pierre at the Rainbow Bridge, and feel he misses me too. I have a 13 year old, 10 year old, and 10 month old Yorkie now and even though my 13 year old Yorkie, Kiko, is jealous ( but does like and play with her) I know it will be easier when he passes because he was my first Yorkie and we have quite a history together. He is pretty healthy, but also has an enlarged heart and is on Lasix and a Beta Blocker now. I do not want to lose another of my babies. Having a life span of them keeps the older ones younger and will help when the next one goes to the Rainbow Bridge. Hugs to you and just remember how good it felt to love something so much, and have it love you back.

03-06-2009, 08:33 AM	#57
stedmansmommy I Love My Lil' Punkin's Donating Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Stedman and Tatum's World :) Posts: 15,331 Blog Entries: 5	Oh my goodness girl....I saw the link to this thread that you left me in my profile - I don't know how on earth I missed this. I am so, so, so incredibly sorry for your loss of sweet little Cherry. Honestly, I am just in shock right now and I can't even believe this happened. You are right, I loved little Cherry soo much and you know what we always thought that Cherry and Tatum looked so much alike. This just completely and totally breaks my heart. I just bawled crying while reading your post. My heart is broken into a million and one pieces for you I wish I could find the right words, I wish I could take away your pain.... I can't even imagine what you must be going through right now. I am just in tears over this. I know that you loved little Cherry with all your heart and soul and I know that you are missing her terribly. Cherry knew that you loved her and she loved you...and she is looking down at you from The Bridge, smiling. You were a FANTASTIC mommy to her and she knew that. I know that she will always and forever be in your heart and I pray that time will help ease some of the awful pain that you are feeling right now I am sending you a ton of hugs sweetie....a ton. R.I.P. Sweet little Cherry - we love you little angel __________________ Mommy Loves Stedman and Tatum! They have us wrapped around their little paws!

02-26-2009, 05:07 PM	#46
RIPMyLittleCase Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: Bolingbrook,IL,USA Posts: 264	I am so sorry about your loss. Know in your heart always that she knew how much you loved her and how special you made her life. I am sure that she misses you as much as you miss her and she is watching over you. Please take care of yourself. That way she can watch you with a smile on her adorable little face. RIP precious Cherry

02-26-2009, 05:15 PM	#47
Sandysbabies YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Dallas, Texas Posts: 2,234	I am so sorry about little Cherry. I know there are no words that help right now. Crying and grieving are healing and time does help even though thats not what we want to hear when we lose one of our babies. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore and felt like I couldn't even breathe, but believe me it does get better. Praying for you.

02-26-2009, 08:47 PM	#49
snickers65 YT Addict Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Aug Posts: 282	I am so sorry for the loss of Cherry. I felt exactly as you are feeling now last June. I am in tears as I read your story. It reminds me how hard it was for me and my family when I lost my Snickers. I felt very guilty because I took him to U.G.A. for an ultrasound and they killed him with an overdose I.V. After that I was depressed for weeks. I miss him as you do, but time will help heal your pain. We got another yorkie three months after Snickers died. I still cry for him because I still miss him a lot, but my new yorkie has helped us ease the pain. We will always have Snickers in our hearts and memories. My new yorkie makes us laugh, has put smile on us and brings happiness to our saddened hearts. Please, take care of your health. Try to think of the good times with Cherry and that she didn't have a long sickness.You will feel better as time goes by. We will have you in our prayers. God bless you.

02-26-2009, 09:39 PM	#50
AbbysMom08 Donating YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Illinois Posts: 2,268	I am so very sorry for your loss. I know full well the pain you are going through. I too lost my little one last July and it feels like yesterday. Please know that you are in my prayers.

02-26-2009, 10:07 PM	#51
briana smith Yorkie Yakker Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: virginia Posts: 65	I am just now seeing this. I am so very sorry for your lost of Cherry. I know she was very, very special to you. She was a beautiful girl. I had a similar experience with my first maltese pup about 7 months ago. I know how you feel. Life goes on whether we like it or not. In time things will get better but I know, you'll never truly get over it. I don't think anybody will ever get over the death of a loved one, especially an animal. But life goes on...and they'll never be forgotten. Did you contact the breeder? I know you've had problems with her in the past and she's all the way in Canada, but did you have a health contract? If it was a heart problem then that is most likely hereditary, therefore, it is not your fault, but the breeders. Please PM me if you need anything. hugs

02-26-2009, 10:35 PM	#52
briana smith Yorkie Yakker Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: virginia Posts: 65	I looked at Cherry's breeder's website and I looked at her parents' pedigrees. You told me before that Captain was Cherry's sire and Mia was Cherry's dam. Beautiful dogs but I noticed that Captain is Mia's sire. I'm not an expert on the genetics of breeding dogs in all but I think that Cherry was too closely bred

03-06-2009, 11:05 AM	#58
Lou Donating YT 3000 Club Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: A little town south of Chicago Posts: 4,525	I'm so sorry for your loss. __________________ http://www.its-a-yorkie-thing.com Gracie Skeeter Adie Tyler

03-06-2009, 06:40 PM	#59
andibaby Owned By Ace and Lizzie Donating Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: oklahoma Posts: 1,028	I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Cherry. Big hugs to you. __________________ Andrea-Momma to Ace Lizzie and baby Sid

03-07-2009, 10:44 AM	#60
Chellbe46 YT Addict Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Hayes, London England UK Posts: 286	Oh honey i wish there was something i could do to take all the pain way but i can not, all i can do is be here 4 you and if you need someone to talk to please feel free to do so. All our love and thoughts are with you xo __________________ Michelle & Valentino *New.facebook.com/profile.php?id=737754453*