[PhoebeK]

I am so sorry and I can only imagine what you are going through because it was hard and I got tearyj ust reading it. It's so hard to know what to say because there is really nothing anyone can say that is going make you feel better right now. I can relate to your depression and anxiety and this is so hard to go through when you are a "Normal" and happy person and its harder when you are already feeling down anyway. I am sure that Cherry was the one who when you were having one of those bad days she put a smile on your face and things didn't seem that bad. I know that is what Phoebe does for me. My heart goes out to you lean on your fiance as much as you need to right now. Give yourself some time to grieve and although you'll probably never get over it it will get easier with time. Time is the best healer and in time maybe you will decide to get another little one. Of course it will never replace Cherry but I am sure Cherry would want to see you happy again and she will always be in your heart. I take Phoebe to Doggie Daycare and one of their beloved German Shepards passed away suddenly and his owner went to a couple of Funeral Homes in the area and asked if she could have some type of service with her dogs ashes. Many people said no but one place said yes and she is the first person in MA to have a wake for her dog. Just for some closure to an animal and friend and member of the family that meant so much to them. Maybe you can do something like that and it will help in the grieving process that you are going through. And don't feel guilty or bad because how could you have known? She knew you loved her and she loved you and you will always have that. I know it's hard but stay strong. Sometimes it's so much harder to lose a loved one that is a pet because they just love you unconditionally. Stay strong.......