My Natalie Is With The Angels....

[saphire]

I've just watched the video Dena, it took me hours to download. It is beautiful. You have captured all of Nats special moments. She was a tiny treasure, and she couldn't have had a better mommy. Give your love to the other little ones now, they need you and will bring you joy at this sad time. Natalie will never be forgotten, she will live in all our hearts forever. Thank you for sharing your baby with us.

Love and hugs,
Sheilagh.

[Rusty's Momma]

Dena,
That was BEAUTIFUL... you did a fantastic job memoralizing your precious baby girl who was, indeed, a gift from god. I want to Thank you for allowing me to hold your sweet baby that day we met. She truly was a fighter.

It is ok to need help getting through this time of grief. You ask is it silly to call her your Best Friend and what does that say about your life??
I hope it says alot because I tell Rusty EVERY SINGLE DAY and everyone else knows it too... "Rusty, you're my BESTEST Friend" I too do NOT know what I will do when he passes. I hold and love him everyday the way you did Natalie.
You filled her life everyday with love and care and that is the what a best friend should do.

I also wanted to say... I LOVE the part in the video of Natalie & Gracie playing... how sweet that she had a fursister to play with in the final stages of her life.... Gracie seems so careful with her while playing... sooo sweet.
Take care and big hugs
Angi

[zoeybear]

Gracie looks like good medicine. I hope you are felling even a tiny bit better today.

[KimberlySRN]

I'm so sorry for your loss...

[diggy4]

I am soooooo sorry. I sat here, quiet trying to think of what to say and I just cannot type the way I feel, nor can I hug you the way you deserve to be hugged. I am so sorry.

[Mom2BabyNatalie]

Again, I thank you all for your continued prayers and words of kindness.

Tomorrow we pick up Natalie's ashes........... please send up some extra heavy duty prayers of strength to get through!

[Tiger's Mom]

I just watched her video . . that was truly wonderful Dena . . Goodbye baby natalie . . .your will forever be in my heart.

[LunasMomma]

Originally Posted by Mom2BabyNatalie

Again, I thank you all for your continued prayers and words of kindness.

Tomorrow we pick up Natalie's ashes........... please send up some extra heavy duty prayers of strength to get through!

Dena, I have not been able to keep you and little Natalie out of my mind for very long over the last few days. My heart just aches for you, and I know what a hard time this is for you You can count on continuing prayers from me, that's certain You have a lot of folks here that care, and we all loved little Miss Natalie so Hang in there, friend!!!

[Mom2BabyNatalie]

It's been 7 days... to the hour....

(at least it was when I started writing this... minus a few "bawl breaks") ugh!

Physically, I'm doing better.... the welts are still visible and I'm still a bit itchy, but much improved. No more nausea except when I have the little "melt-downs" from time to time... and then my stomach starts to turn a bit..... but I'm sleeping a good 4 hours at a time so I suppose that's something.

Trying to keep myself occupied..... obsessing about stupid things.... and still deeply missing my angel.

We brought her ashes home and of course, I didn't handle that well.... (for future reference, and forgive me, but at the risk of offering a quite graphic image, I'll leave it at this.... just don't EVER open the container!!) - - - I, needless to say.... did...... and shouldn't have....

(NO, I didn't spill them..... they're sealed inside a plastic bag and then inside the glass container)

So, I've yet to find an urn or something special to permanently hold Natalie's ashes.... and I'm not sure really if I want to seal them up just yet.

I've read of some lovely things you can do with the remains... my favorite being the "LifeGem"..... diamonds created with a lock of hair or a loved one's ashes....

They run into the thousands, but I hope to eventually do at least something small with LifeGem....

I'm not partial to the "scatter gardens" - - I don't know why.... and with Natalie having been soooo tiny... and cold, most of her short life... I just can't bear to put her in the ground..... so buring her ashes is out of the question...

(Yes, I know, the remains are JUST that of her body.... the mere shell that contained her precious soul - which has now left this place... but all the same... I can't do it)

Gracie and I have "recommitted" ourselves and I'm much more comfortable with her now..... she is such a little mama's girl.... she has become SO "clingy" since Natalie's passing.... it's precious.

So................... it's been tough..... and I still have a ways to go.... but I think we're getting there.

Thanks to the love, support and constant prayers of all of you - I know we'll be okay....

May you be blessed my friends,

Dena

[Isabel]

Dena, don't be so hard on you... there is not pain-meter... nobody feels the same... you are not loosing it because you feel that sad, or may need some medication... embrace the help, go thru the pain, and one day, believe me, you will remember her and just smile. There is not "right" lenght of time to recover... just take one day at a time, and take care of yourself... We love you, and are here for you...

[nvnvgirl]

Dena~ I just got home from being gone for the holiday and I'm completely devastated (not as much as you must be, but it has really ripped open the wounds of losing my parrots a year ago for me) over your loss of sweet little Natalie. I can't even speak right now and thank goodness my dh is asleep or he'd be frantic over my complete decompensation here....I am at a total loss for words right now, other than to say I'm so terribly terribly sorry. I am looking at a package I have wrapped and ready to send to Natalie but wanted to wait til I got back home to do it so that I could take the time to get a confirmation (as our mail is SO lame here) which means taking it to the post office. I am literally sick to my stomach just looking at it. There is so much I want to say to you, but the main thing is that Natalie had the very best of everything she could possibly have had. She had more love than just about 20 of any other dogs I know put together and I know she knew that. You know, sometimes, it seems like they're so much better, and they are, while we're around, b/c they're putting their best foot forward for us b/c they love us so much. And they just wait til we are gone to let down and go...you did so much to give her the very best chance for a good and healthy and happy life~ it was good and it was happy for her; the health you had little control over unfortunately. And don't think about the "what ifs" or "If I'd only...."...believe me, I've been going thru that for the last 2 years. We're human and we can't know everything. We can't project what's going to happen in the next second, much less the next 24 hours or so....I'm the last person to tell you anything about not beating yourself up about things like this, but I'm so glad that you have Gracie~ I don't think I'd even be here if I hadn't gotten Max when I did~ he gave me something that I absolutely had to deal with, and he seemed to understand that when I cried, he needed to be close to me; it's like his "job" to make me feel better. So let Gracie help you. I can't say that you'll get over Natalie's loss any sooner, but it will be much less painful I think, to have the love of a Yorkie who seems to understand. Plus, she lost her friend too....I'll have to get some sleep and come back when I'm not in such a state of shock. I'm so sorry for you. You are the best thing that could ever have happened to that little girl! Seana and Max

[nvnvgirl]

P.S....This might sound a little weird (and I hear ya about looking at the cremains....not the best idea from one who did it also), but I want to get a piece of jewelry made that I can wear all the time like maybe a locket sort of thing or something that will encapsulate a bit of my parrot's remains. I am sure that if you went to a goldsmith or jewelry designer, they could make something for you that would be exactly the right thing for you and the remains would be totally sealed. I still haven't figured out exactly what I want, but it's one of my things to do this year~ there is no way I'd ever scatter their ashes away from me or bury them or anything else. I know it sounds a little Angelina Jolie-esque, but I really want to have them as close to me as possible and I thought this would be it...just a thought. Bless you!

[Sukoshi's Mom]

Dena - I am just now seeing this thread, and I cannot stop crying after watching your beautiful tribute to baby Natalie . I will treasure the wonderful pictures you sent me of the girls with your Christmas card even more now, as those are such special pictures of your angels. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through, but I will keep you in my prayers that each days gets a little easier. I got Sukoshi to help me through my grief of unexpectantly losing my bunny rabbit last November (like you, I couldn't stop crying), and a year later, I can't imagine my life without her. Hold tight to Gracie and let her help you through!! I'm so sorry for your loss!

[xxmxaxrxyxx]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know you did everything you could for Natalie and she is more than grateful for what you have given her. And thanks for the wonderful christmas cards you sent with your babies on there.

[spr377]

So sorry for your loss, hoping that the pain eases with each day.