Does it get better? Loss of Callie

[sandy simpson]

Taylor I have tears reading about your sweet Callie. It is heartbreaking to see our dogs go home. Cry and dont feel bad. It was what's best for Callie. I believe we are not home here .
Heaven is our home and dogs too. So our precious dog goes back in the arms of their creator. Waiting there for you at the gate. It comforts me to know that. I have pictures of dogs past and I will always remember them. Tears will be turned into sweet memories and Callies little spirit is with you always!

[Yorkie guy]

Ohhh,sweetie I’m so sorry to hear this ,seems like Callie was such a part of this forum. I’m sure Winston met her at the bridge and will watch over her.
Larry.

[Lovetodream88]

I really do appreciate everyone’s comments. I was going through stuff yesterday and found all the frames from Petco and Petsmart, her first Christmas, Halloween and some of their just different events.

[sandy simpson]

I just looked at the pictures of beautiful Callie and all the wonderful things you shared.
She was truly a sweet family dog. You are a great dog lover for the way you care for your dogs. I so appreciate all the info you share! Prayers of comfort for you!

[Britster]

I'm still so sorry. I think everyone else summed it up - the pain itself will lessen, or not sting as much, but you'll never just "get over it". I can't even think of the day with Jackson without welling up. I have to not think about it.

I've been through 3 dog losses in my life that hit hard, but nothing compared to what Jackson will be. My childhood dogs, and then my dads dog Lilly was the first dog I was actually with when she got put to sleep and my dad and I cried for days. I would be driving in the car and think of her taking her last breath and just start crying. And she wasn't even my dog and frankly she wasn't even that nice of a dog but we loved her so much anyway.

Never apologize or be sorry for your feelings. Post as much as you want on fb, here or wherever. Your feelings are valid and it's very understandable. You did nothing wrong and I think one day you will look back and know you made the right decision and be able to look back with sweet happy memories.

[Captainzing]

Will Rodgers once said if, dogs don’t go to heaven, I want to go where they are when I die.
My heart goes out to you 😥

[MauiGirl]

Originally Posted by Lovetodream88

I really do appreciate everyone’s comments. I was going through stuff yesterday and found all the frames from Petco and Petsmart, her first Christmas, Halloween and some of their just different events.

I will never forget her Halloween pic with her in a bathrobe with curlers in her hair. It was a classic. She was such a special girl and much loved by all the YT gang here.

[Lovetodream88]

Originally Posted by MauiGirl

I will never forget her Halloween pic with her in a bathrobe with curlers in her hair. It was a classic. She was such a special girl and much loved by all the YT gang here.

Lots of people still talk about that one lol. I dressed her as a hippo with a tutu one year and she got first place at Petsmart and for months when they would see me at Petsmart they would go oh it’s the hippos mom lol. She was so compliant with everything.

[Lovetodream88]

So I started back with my therapist, I haven’t seen her since lock down. I was able to talk about Callie without crying which is a huge step but started crying when talking about how it affected Joey. Joey still isn’t 100% and seems kind of depressed but not sure there is much else I can do.

[ladyjane]

Originally Posted by MauiGirl

I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. Callie was a special member of your family, and grieving her loss is inevitable, it is also a reminder of how special she was in your life. In time, you may feel a little less sad, and find comfort in the good memories you had with her. Although, you will always miss her, and will still cry sometimes, many years from now.

If Callie could talk to you from heaven, she'd be thanking you for all your love and giving her a wonderful life, and for letting her rest in peace when her body was worn out. Not letting her suffer longer was the greatest gift you could have given her.

It has been 6 years since my Meika passed (at only 5, being poisoned by a toad), and I am crying right now just thinking about her. I never took her out of my avatar picture here. But my other 3 pups adjusted, and bring me so much joy.

Wow...six years since Meika passed? I remember that day so well. My heart broke for you. What a horrifying experience.

It is true....we do move on but that pain and that hole in our heart is still there from time to time.

[ladyjane]

Taylor I know it is easier said than done, but you should get rid of ANY and all guilty feelings that creep into your thinking.
Callie was a very loved pup and you would never have done anything but the best for her.
Having to make that final decision for our babies is heart wrenching. I just went through it recently and my vet said that while the pup is in a better place, it is us who are left in a very painful place. I have cried every day now for a couple of weeks ... and honestly I still cry over others who left me long ago....it is just less as time goes on. But, it never goes completely away .. why? Because we loved them so.

[Lovetodream88]

Originally Posted by ladyjane

Taylor I know it is easier said than done, but you should get rid of ANY and all guilty feelings that creep into your thinking.
Callie was a very loved pup and you would never have done anything but the best for her.
Having to make that final decision for our babies is heart wrenching. I just went through it recently and my vet said that while the pup is in a better place, it is us who are left in a very painful place. I have cried every day now for a couple of weeks ... and honestly I still cry over others who left me long ago....it is just less as time goes on. But, it never goes completely away .. why? Because we loved them so.

It still is so hard. Seeing things about senior dogs even makes me sad. I almost can’t even talk about my dad saying goodbye to her it just makes me bawl so hard. He is not in to kissing the pups but before he handed her to me he gave her a big kiss on the head. She was so loved. Even family that maybe spent 10 or 15 visits with her over her life we’re devastated so much. Shortly after my uncle lost his legs and most of his fingers from a coma we went and stayed in the guest room in the basement and Callie somehow got the door open and went and got in bed with my uncle and he has never forgotten. My other uncle who isn’t a dog person came over when she was recovering from being spayed and he picked her up and held her most of the time. She had this way of making even the most non dog people love her. She was just incredibly special. I know she had to be so happy to see my grandfather in Heaven and Sammy. She loved them so much.

[ladyjane]

Originally Posted by Lovetodream88

It still is so hard. Seeing things about senior dogs even makes me sad. I almost can’t even talk about my dad saying goodbye to her it just makes me bawl so hard. He is not in to kissing the pups but before he handed her to me he gave her a big kiss on the head. She was so loved. Even family that maybe spent 10 or 15 visits with her over her life we’re devastated so much. Shortly after my uncle lost his legs and most of his fingers from a coma we went and stayed in the guest room in the basement and Callie somehow got the door open and went and got in bed with my uncle and he has never forgotten. My other uncle who isn’t a dog person came over when she was recovering from being spayed and he picked her up and held her most of the time. She had this way of making even the most non dog people love her. She was just incredibly special. I know she had to be so happy to see my grandfather in Heaven and Sammy. She loved them so much.

Such wonderful memories.....

[Chas W]

We lost our little Graysee February 29, and I still cry daily! Even through three fosters since then. Graysee was with us 12 years, from a 9 week old puppy. I have her ashes on our mantle; her picture next to her favorite toy in my bedroom; a banner with her picture on it in our rear garden! She was the love of our lives, and as she got sick and deteriorated, it was the most heart-wrenching experience of my life! So, I don't know how long it takes to get "better", or even if it ever does. Every day since losing Graysee has been lonely, except when we had foster dogs here. We let our third one go on the 18th, and now our home is empty again. Please understand that there are those of us here who know how you feel, and we empathize with your grief!

[Lovetodream88]

Originally Posted by Chas W

We lost our little Graysee February 29, and I still cry daily! Even through three fosters since then. Graysee was with us 12 years, from a 9 week old puppy. I have her ashes on our mantle; her picture next to her favorite toy in my bedroom; a banner with her picture on it in our rear garden! She was the love of our lives, and as she got sick and deteriorated, it was the most heart-wrenching experience of my life! So, I don't know how long it takes to get "better", or even if it ever does. Every day since losing Graysee has been lonely, except when we had foster dogs here. We let our third one go on the 18th, and now our home is empty again. Please understand that there are those of us here who know how you feel, and we empathize with your grief!

I’m so sorry. Thank you for the kind words. I am lucky to still have 3 that keep me on my toes. I have 2 that are 4 and the youngest is 2. I’m not sure I would even be able to get up and try to move on without them.