I don't know how much more I can handle

[envrobear]

I thought I would give you an update. Went to see my mom last night, it was hard. I immediately had flashbacks to the visits to the nursing homes seeing my grandfathers. Mom was standing by the door of her room starring out to the hall where we walked into. She looked so helpless. All I wanted to do was gather her and her stuff and take her home. But I know that won't make it any better. She was very fidgety and nervous. But she said that she was happy with the therapist, he was one we were trying to get an appt. for her with, but he didn't have openings until March 31. She was a little scared because some man who is in the men section of the ward came into her room while she was trying to take a nap, thankfully he didn't bother her. The lady who was in with mom had major issues and before she left yesterday morning she rifled through my mom's things while mom was in the bathroom and then sat one my mom's bed and peed on it. A bit unnerving for all of us. Thankfully for my mom that lady left. It was horrible leaving mom there, my dad told me as we walked out "you know it's the best thing, she can get the right meds and have a therapist to talk to and she will be home" I know that's true but still. My dad had to leave to go out of town today so I am going to see her tonight for about an hour, mom wants me home before it gets too dark. I'm sure I will be online after. Going to be odd having a quiet house. I'm still trying to decide if I want to come to work tomorrow or stay and home and sew and just do something fun, plus I had something happen at work which if I type about now will just get me upset but I will post about it tonight.

Also teri88 my dad is having me start to see a therapist. With my depression, anxiety, and panic attacks he wants me to be able to talk to someone before I get in bad shape.

Michelle

[Mydogkelsey]

Originally Posted by envrobear

Well my dad just called he is taking my mom back to the Er, thankfully the one closest to us in Orange Park. So I'm hopeing not a long wait like last time. After mom's last stay we got her off the oxycotton and oxycodone that she was taking for her cronic daily migraines. We were hoping things would get better. They haven't she has now developed a fear of eating, if she eats she might trigger a migraine and a bad case of depression. My dad took her to a phyciatrist (sp) who specializes in eating diorders and at 2:30 I called to see what happen. My dad said he would tell me when I got home. Well he just called me back and said to meet them at the Er, he is admitting her.

I know it sounds selfish but I don't know how much more I can take, we have been dealing with this for 5 yrs and it is wearing the 3 of us down. I have to be careful because I deal with depression and panic attacks and this is just seeming like to much.

Please say some prayers for us and I will keep you updated.

Michelle

I will be praying for you and your family!

[Muffie's Mom]

Originally Posted by envrobear

I thought I would give you an update. Went to see my mom last night, it was hard. I immediately had flashbacks to the visits to the nursing homes seeing my grandfathers. Mom was standing by the door of her room starring out to the hall where we walked into. She looked so helpless. All I wanted to do was gather her and her stuff and take her home. But I know that won't make it any better. She was very fidgety and nervous. But she said that she was happy with the therapist, he was one we were trying to get an appt. for her with, but he didn't have openings until March 31. She was a little scared because some man who is in the men section of the ward came into her room while she was trying to take a nap, thankfully he didn't bother her. The lady who was in with mom had major issues and before she left yesterday morning she rifled through my mom's things while mom was in the bathroom and then sat one my mom's bed and peed on it. A bit unnerving for all of us. Thankfully for my mom that lady left. It was horrible leaving mom there, my dad told me as we walked out "you know it's the best thing, she can get the right meds and have a therapist to talk to and she will be home" I know that's true but still. My dad had to leave to go out of town today so I am going to see her tonight for about an hour, mom wants me home before it gets too dark. I'm sure I will be online after. Going to be odd having a quiet house. I'm still trying to decide if I want to come to work tomorrow or stay and home and sew and just do something fun, plus I had something happen at work which if I type about now will just get me upset but I will post about it tonight.

Also teri88 my dad is having me start to see a therapist. With my depression, anxiety, and panic attacks he wants me to be able to talk to someone before I get in bad shape.

Michelle

Hi Michelle: Your Mom is in the best possible place for her right now. As you said, she's seeing the doctor that you wanted her to see originally. I hope he'll be able to get her on some good drugs that might not be
"controlled" drugs.

I'd also hope they find out the "triggering" mechanism for her migraines.

Seeing you or your Dad will be excellent therapy for her and help her to withstand being there.

I imagine some of the things there aren't exactly what you'd like your Mom to be around but sometimes that can't be helped. You have to take the good with the bad.

She may be going through some withdrawal of being off the other pills.

When you go to see Mom tonight, give her a big hug from me. You can tell her who I am and where I live. Tell her I'm thinking about her and praying for her.

I'm so glad that you will be going to see someone for your issues also. You need your own time with a doctor to go through some problem areas.

I'm sorry to hear that you've had a problem at work. You sure don't need that now on top of all this.

Take care - I'll be thinking about you.

God bless you all.

[Pattie]

Best Of luck and Get Well Wishes from us Envrobear
Keep your chin up

[envrobear]

I just thought I would give you all an update on my mom. Sorry I haven't been on, I am trying my best to do things I enjoy but I'm just not into much but spending time with lil bear and moose.

Today has been a week since mom was put into the behavioral health ward of the hospital. This weekend was not too good. Mom had a bad migraine and the nurses aren't use to dealing with a person with such a debilitating migraine so they pretty much left her in her room. When my dad and I came to see her we found she had not eaten or had any liquid. We took care of it. Last Friday she was doing better, got a couple of smiles from her and she was a little bit grouchy. Went to visit her last night and she was doing better. She was sitting with her new roommate talking. Mom's roomate seems nice, her family put her in cause she has had bad reactions to antidepressents and wants her watched till they find one that works.

My dad talked to her Dr Mon am and the dr says she's as depressed as she was when she came, though my dad and I and the friends she has had visiting her seem to see a change. The dr said she will be there till the insurance says she has to leave or the dr says it's ok.

It's gotten a little easier but it's still hard to believe that my dad had to place her there. He is worried about me too, and wants me to start seeing a phycologist for my depression, panic and anxiety attacks. I just need to find out which Drs are covered and then I plan on making an appt. because when I was there Sun night I thought "you know if it wasn't for moose and me knowing she needs me I would probably be in here."

Michelle