He doesn't want me but doesn't want to be without me either.

[Deadbug]

Originally Posted by Bentleysmom1985

The first 3 days were terrible, I did push myself to be out there but I felt so weak, I just wanted to be in bed ... Watch tv and sleep. I didn't even have motivation to study.

Today I feel better, motivated to go to the gym and get a lot of things done I've been meaning to do for awhile.

Not even a week has passed since the last time I talked to him, and it feels like a month ...

I know it will get better and it takes time. But at the moment time is going by slowly

Thanks!

A few years back I fell madly in love with a dirty liar who played me like I was nothing more than a common game. It hurt on levels I can't articulate... at least for a while anyway. The hardest thing I ever did was break contact. The best thing I ever did was break contact. It was a toxic addiction for me. He too had another girl in the picture. The only difference between your story and mine was his girl was a wife I didn't know about. I'll spare you the details of how it all came to pass and skip to the discovery I made within myself and the last conversation I had with him.

When I told him it was over and I was done, naturally he asked me why, begged me to stay and pleaded that he was going to fix the situation. I explained to him how there was no redemption for all these lies he invested so much energy into telling and how wrong it was for him to string me along and rob me of time. I was worth the effort. I was worth the sacrifice. More importantly, I was worth the truth! And if I didn't believe that, why the hell should anyone else?

And that's the thing you need to remember... you are a valuable lady with a lot to offer a deserving gentleman and should be treated as such. If you don't honestly believe that, no one else ever will.

So get up and do your makeup, go to the gym, walk your doggie and keep your mind occupied. Put away anything that reminds you of him and for the love of God and all things that are holy, DELETE HIS NUMBER from your phone (but not your block list) I promise you, it'll get easier!

As much as I thought I loved that man I just told you about, I realize now that I didn't. I loved the man I thought he was, not the one he truly was. There is a difference. You can never open the door for the right guy if you're too busy holding it for the wrong one.