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Kathryn_V · 12-10-2007, 08:41 AM

Was it Tom Petty who said: Waiting is the hardest part.

He was right! I have about 10 days to go, give or take. Its killing me. I havent changed out of my hubbys jammies in 5 days and I sleep alot! I know I did the right thing, This isn't the first time he's attacked someone at that hospital and had I not reported it, I'm sure it wouldn't have been his last. I just cringe to think of he victoms that came between the 99 girl and me.

I have nightmares that he will go free and I move to another state. I also have really great dreams where I am sitting in the gallery and I whitness the guilty verdict being read and I just cry tears of joy.

Thank you to everyone who has put up with my posts on this subjuct. I don't talk to my family, they just talk about frying the bastard or choping of his ballls... they are all so negitive,,, I just need your love and good vibes, and the occasional orange jumsuit joke! lol

I love you guys!

TatumsMom · 12-10-2007, 08:47 AM

I've been watching your story unfold and am SO proud of how you're handling all of it. Be strong.... I'll be praying for a guilty verdict.

YorkieMom55 · 12-10-2007, 08:48 AM

Kathryn, I was wondering how you were doing. Please, keep reminding yourself that you are not alone & how many friends you have that are behind you on this and praying for you.
FYI, change the PJ's......& take a nice, long soaky bath, eat something....

cockerduchess · 12-10-2007, 08:57 AM

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Originally Posted by YorkieMom55

Kathryn, I was wondering how you were doing. Please, keep reminding yourself that you are not alone & how many friends you have that are behind you on this and praying for you.
FYI, change the PJ's......& take a nice, long soaky bath, eat something....

My thoughts exactly.

AngelWorks · 12-10-2007, 09:03 AM

The nightmares last a lifetime--this I know from my own experience.

I have actually been suffering the past two months from PTSD after an incident. Both mentally and physically.

While the incident involved no physical contact, I was blocked from an exit and verbally bullied and intimidated.

I do not intimidate period---BUT--- the being trapped part set off a succession of reactions in me that continue to go on. I've also gained at least 15 pounds from stress eating I'm not even aware that I'm doing.

I can't believe how all this can come out of something that happened to me over 40 years ago, but there you go.

I wish healing and justice.

LuvnmyYorkie · 12-10-2007, 09:13 AM

I know you don't know me, but I read what has been going on. I have been through something kinda the same. To make a long story short, my youth pastor is in prison for 13 years for statutory rape (among other sexual crimes) for what he did to me and a friend of mine in high school. I was where you are, not too long ago. I am 22 now, and I can say that it has made me the strogest person I never could have been, if not for what happened. I testified as well, with him and his family (who I was very close with) sitting right in front of me as I had to describe in detail every touch, word and action he ever made. I was 17 when everything happen, 19 when I testified and 21 when he was convicted. The whole thing lasted 4 years and now he is appealing. These things last forever, they never seem to go away.

But...

Keep going. You have to. You have to keep telling yourself that you can't let him win. My boyfriend (of 3 years now) told me before he was finally sentenced that I can't keep dwelling on what happened. He told me to get over it and move on. Harsh yes, but it was the best advice anyone has given me through all this. I was finally able to let go and move on.

During the sentencing trial, I had to speak to the judge and give a victim-impact statement (something I'm sure you know of). And that was my chance to let him know how much he had taken from me... and after that, I turned my back, walked away and decided that he would NOT rule my life anymore! He did for years. I had known him since I was 12 years old and now I can see how he was setting me up to take advantage of me the whole time. I will not let him have 1 more second of my life.

You will find your moment when you can do this. I'm not saying that it goes away. I still have my issues in my own way, but thats when I stop, and tell myself that he doesn't get to ruin my life anymore. And I keep going...

You can too, jsut hang in there, it does get better.

LuvnmyYorkie · 12-10-2007, 09:18 AM

Ok, on a lighter note...

Not an orange jumpsuit joke, but still kinda funny...

During his trial, my mom walked by him and his brother laughing, and she leaned down and whispered to him, "I hope you laugh like that when Bubba has you bent over."

Sorry if that offended anyone, but my mom had seen me cry and say I wanted to die for 3 years, and to see him laugh made her sick.

Yorkiekids · 12-10-2007, 09:25 AM

Prayers are coming your way.

sims822257 · 12-10-2007, 09:32 AM

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Originally Posted by LuvnmyYorkie

I know you don't know me, but I read what has been going on. I have been through something kinda the same. To make a long story short, my youth pastor is in prison for 13 years for statutory rape (among other sexual crimes) for what he did to me and a friend of mine in high school. I was where you are, not too long ago. I am 22 now, and I can say that it has made me the strogest person I never could have been, if not for what happened. I testified as well, with him and his family (who I was very close with) sitting right in front of me as I had to describe in detail every touch, word and action he ever made. I was 17 when everything happen, 19 when I testified and 21 when he was convicted. The whole thing lasted 4 years and now he is appealing. These things last forever, they never seem to go away.

But...

Keep going. You have to. You have to keep telling yourself that you can't let him win. My boyfriend (of 3 years now) told me before he was finally sentenced that I can't keep dwelling on what happened. He told me to get over it and move on. Harsh yes, but it was the best advice anyone has given me through all this. I was finally able to let go and move on.

During the sentencing trial, I had to speak to the judge and give a victim-impact statement (something I'm sure you know of). And that was my chance to let him know how much he had taken from me... and after that, I turned my back, walked away and decided that he would NOT rule my life anymore! He did for years. I had known him since I was 12 years old and now I can see how he was setting me up to take advantage of me the whole time. I will not let him have 1 more second of my life.

You will find your moment when you can do this. I'm not saying that it goes away. I still have my issues in my own way, but thats when I stop, and tell myself that he doesn't get to ruin my life anymore. And I keep going...

You can too, jsut hang in there, it does get better.

WOW.....I just have to say...touching story. I think you are ONE strong woman!!

Bless you and Bless your advice.

Little Bit · 12-10-2007, 10:18 AM

Hang in there Kathryn!! If anyone can get through this and be a sucessful survivor you can!! I am so proud of you!!

grayxie · 12-10-2007, 10:27 AM

The only negative vibes we are sending is for his sentencing!

alisonJ · 12-10-2007, 12:11 PM

Kathryn, do you know if they will be able to bring up the prior assault in court?? If they can, he should be very afraid. Even if they can't bring it up, I believe you will prevail. Hang in there.

JCarlson2004 · 12-10-2007, 12:29 PM

I'll be counting down the days along with you Kat!! You can call me anytime, day or night, you know that.

Trust me everyone, seeing this guy in person (like I did last week) is awful. He looks absolutely TERRIFYING ... you can't even imagine ... and Kat is this adorable tiny little blonde. I was so repulsed the entire time just by looking at him. I'm horrified thinking about what happened to her, scared and alone in the dark in a hopsital room (not to mention being in PAIN from a car accident all the while as she was being assaulted). I have nightmares just thinking about it and nothing even happened to ME!! So just imagine what Kat is going through.

I can't even imagine what you went through Kat but know that Jim and I both love and support you.

JUSTICE WILL PREVAIL! You have a jury of intelligent, educated adults who will see right through his lies. Our legal system won't let you and his victim from 1999 down. I have faith in the jurors and the judge. They can clearly see you are telling the truth (how can anyone not see that) and they will give you justice for all that you've suffered at the hands of this monster!!

saphire · 12-10-2007, 01:05 PM

Still thinking and praying for you. Wishing you the best of luck.

genie · 12-10-2007, 08:01 PM

Because you are so brave and so strong to go through with this I am sure you have probably saved someone else from going through the same thing with him....you was not the first and you would not be the last, as long as they think they can get away with it they will keep doing it. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

12-10-2007, 08:41 AM	#1
Kathryn_V Out to Spoil the World! Donating Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Palm Springs, California Posts: 2,709	Half way there, Flipping out! Was it Tom Petty who said: Waiting is the hardest part. He was right! I have about 10 days to go, give or take. Its killing me. I havent changed out of my hubbys jammies in 5 days and I sleep alot! I know I did the right thing, This isn't the first time he's attacked someone at that hospital and had I not reported it, I'm sure it wouldn't have been his last. I just cringe to think of he victoms that came between the 99 girl and me. I have nightmares that he will go free and I move to another state. I also have really great dreams where I am sitting in the gallery and I whitness the guilty verdict being read and I just cry tears of joy. Thank you to everyone who has put up with my posts on this subjuct. I don't talk to my family, they just talk about frying the bastard or choping of his ballls... they are all so negitive,,, I just need your love and good vibes, and the occasional orange jumsuit joke! lol I love you guys! __________________ Kathryn, Pixie and Chynna

12-10-2007, 08:47 AM	#2
TatumsMom Donating YT 500 Club Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: TX Posts: 2,799	I've been watching your story unfold and am SO proud of how you're handling all of it. Be strong.... I'll be praying for a guilty verdict. __________________ ~ Angie

12-10-2007, 08:48 AM	#3
YorkieMom55 All Dogs Go To Heaven Donating Member Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: By The Lake Posts: 2,727	Kathryn, I was wondering how you were doing. Please, keep reminding yourself that you are not alone & how many friends you have that are behind you on this and praying for you. FYI, change the PJ's......& take a nice, long soaky bath, eat something.... __________________ Jeanie I am @ the Lake Jackson, Maggie, Sunshine, Bailey, Rocky, Emmie & Jack

12-10-2007, 09:13 AM	#6
LuvnmyYorkie Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Anaheim Posts: 588	I know you don't know me, but I read what has been going on. I have been through something kinda the same. To make a long story short, my youth pastor is in prison for 13 years for statutory rape (among other sexual crimes) for what he did to me and a friend of mine in high school. I was where you are, not too long ago. I am 22 now, and I can say that it has made me the strogest person I never could have been, if not for what happened. I testified as well, with him and his family (who I was very close with) sitting right in front of me as I had to describe in detail every touch, word and action he ever made. I was 17 when everything happen, 19 when I testified and 21 when he was convicted. The whole thing lasted 4 years and now he is appealing. These things last forever, they never seem to go away. But... Keep going. You have to. You have to keep telling yourself that you can't let him win. My boyfriend (of 3 years now) told me before he was finally sentenced that I can't keep dwelling on what happened. He told me to get over it and move on. Harsh yes, but it was the best advice anyone has given me through all this. I was finally able to let go and move on. During the sentencing trial, I had to speak to the judge and give a victim-impact statement (something I'm sure you know of). And that was my chance to let him know how much he had taken from me... and after that, I turned my back, walked away and decided that he would NOT rule my life anymore! He did for years. I had known him since I was 12 years old and now I can see how he was setting me up to take advantage of me the whole time. I will not let him have 1 more second of my life. You will find your moment when you can do this. I'm not saying that it goes away. I still have my issues in my own way, but thats when I stop, and tell myself that he doesn't get to ruin my life anymore. And I keep going... You can too, jsut hang in there, it does get better. Last edited by LuvnmyYorkie; 12-10-2007 at 09:14 AM.

12-10-2007, 09:25 AM	#8
Yorkiekids Piper & Sebastian Donating Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: florida Posts: 14,495	Prayers are coming your way. __________________ Susan, Piper ,Harley & Suiki

12-10-2007, 09:03 AM	#5
AngelWorks Donating YT Addict Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: NY Posts: 1,752	The nightmares last a lifetime--this I know from my own experience. I have actually been suffering the past two months from PTSD after an incident. Both mentally and physically. While the incident involved no physical contact, I was blocked from an exit and verbally bullied and intimidated. I do not intimidate period---BUT--- the being trapped part set off a succession of reactions in me that continue to go on. I've also gained at least 15 pounds from stress eating I'm not even aware that I'm doing. I can't believe how all this can come out of something that happened to me over 40 years ago, but there you go. I wish healing and justice.

12-10-2007, 09:18 AM	#7
LuvnmyYorkie Donating Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Anaheim Posts: 588	Ok, on a lighter note... Not an orange jumpsuit joke, but still kinda funny... During his trial, my mom walked by him and his brother laughing, and she leaned down and whispered to him, "I hope you laugh like that when Bubba has you bent over." Sorry if that offended anyone, but my mom had seen me cry and say I wanted to die for 3 years, and to see him laugh made her sick.

12-10-2007, 10:18 AM	#10
Little Bit Tiny Dog Big Heart Donating Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Texas Posts: 6,205	Hang in there Kathryn!! If anyone can get through this and be a sucessful survivor you can!! I am so proud of you!! __________________ Little Bit

12-10-2007, 10:27 AM	#11
grayxie Donating YT 2000 Club Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Dresher, PA Posts: 2,779	The only negative vibes we are sending is for his sentencing! __________________ Teapots = Happiness GraycieChipHarley Fakes Are Never In Fashion

12-10-2007, 12:11 PM	#12
alisonJ YT 1000 Club Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Tucson, Arizona Posts: 1,840	Kathryn, do you know if they will be able to bring up the prior assault in court?? If they can, he should be very afraid. Even if they can't bring it up, I believe you will prevail. Hang in there. __________________ Alison--Edith Jones's mother www.edithjonesproject.com

12-10-2007, 12:29 PM	#13
JCarlson2004 Mommy To 3 Poochies Donating Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: New York Posts: 8,287	I'll be counting down the days along with you Kat!! You can call me anytime, day or night, you know that. Trust me everyone, seeing this guy in person (like I did last week) is awful. He looks absolutely TERRIFYING ... you can't even imagine ... and Kat is this adorable tiny little blonde. I was so repulsed the entire time just by looking at him. I'm horrified thinking about what happened to her, scared and alone in the dark in a hopsital room (not to mention being in PAIN from a car accident all the while as she was being assaulted). I have nightmares just thinking about it and nothing even happened to ME!! So just imagine what Kat is going through. I can't even imagine what you went through Kat but know that Jim and I both love and support you. JUSTICE WILL PREVAIL! You have a jury of intelligent, educated adults who will see right through his lies. Our legal system won't let you and his victim from 1999 down. I have faith in the jurors and the judge. They can clearly see you are telling the truth (how can anyone not see that) and they will give you justice for all that you've suffered at the hands of this monster!! __________________ Mommy Loves Codie, Tia & Baby Cali RIP My Precious Katie - I Love You Last edited by JCarlson2004; 12-10-2007 at 12:32 PM.

12-10-2007, 01:05 PM	#14
saphire Lil' CoCo, Lotta Coffee. Donating Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: South Africa Posts: 3,115	Still thinking and praying for you. Wishing you the best of luck. __________________ Sheilagh CoffeeAbigail-Ceana. CoCoMurfee & Winston

12-10-2007, 08:01 PM	#15
genie Loves Hannah & Gracie Donating Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: washington Posts: 1,752	Because you are so brave and so strong to go through with this I am sure you have probably saved someone else from going through the same thing with him....you was not the first and you would not be the last, as long as they think they can get away with it they will keep doing it. You are in my thoughts and prayers.