It Hurts so very bad

[rontiss1]

I am sorry for the loss of your dog. I know what you felt when you lost it. I lost my first teacup maltese dog the early part of May, 2007. I only had her for 5 days. I had her in the playpen, I was gone for 2 hours. I took a friend to the hospital for surgery and came back and found Crumb dead. I was devasted and saddened for days. I just kept walking around in a funk.
I recently got a toy yorkie, and she is just as active as all get out. I have so much fun with her. She gives love and we give it back. May you have wonderful memories of your dog like I did.
Gilbert...Mission Hills, California

[TinyBit]

I am so sorry to hear of your pain. I share with you. I just posted the lost of my best friend also. Please know that you are not alone. This is the best place to be right now. There are so many wonderful people here who care.
RIP Simon.

[ImCKN]

We are so sorry to hear about Simon.

[ButterflyYorkie]

I purposely do not come to this section. Some of you who were here when I was first here, before I took a break and came back and had to choose a new screen name that is...you may remember some of my heart aches, and many of you don't. I've been where everyone in this section of the forum has been with losing a little friend that meant everything to me. Someone mentioned feeling a brush against the leg sometimes...and I have. My daughter is the only person who believes me. She, inheriting my love for animals feels it in every ounce of herself. I was sorry she had to experience that kind of loss at a young age. It's made her a very strong girl.

So, tonight I got brave and thought it would be ok to browse this section again. I made it to post # 7 and just have to stop here. I can't read anymore but wanted Breny and everyone else here to know that I know what you're going through. It does get better, in time...I never thought it would but one day it did. I have found that keeping alot of picture memories around me has given me alot of comfort. Losing a beloved pet is something that only those of our kind will ever understand. Animal lovers all share in this one emotion that only we'll ever get. A person once said to me in the past "it's just a dog and you are claiming you cannot function because it's gone?" Well yes, that is exactly how I felt at the time.
I'm just so sorry to all of you in this section for your losses and I wanted to say that in time, your tears will eventually turn into smiles when you think of your friend.

[TinyBit]

Someone mentioned feeling a brush against the leg sometimes...and I have. My daughter is the only person who believes me.

I believe you too, My little Duke would Yawn and it sounded like he Meowed. I heard him meow today.

[Breny]

I just wanted to stop in here and thank everyone. SO MUCH!

You know, its really not getting easier yet. There hasn't been a day yet that I don't tear up, or actually cry. Today its been 15 days.

My step son was on vacation, and was here this weekend. He went to take a bath in "Simon's bathroom", 1st thing he said : Dad, wheres Simon???? (I was outside in the hall) His dad hurried up and said "shhhhhhhhh, Simons gone and we don;t want to upset Breny"

My step son said "what do you mean gone"??? Hubby told him "Simon died"

It was so sad - my step son wanted to make sure he wasn't alone when he died and his dad explained that I held him through it. It was horrible. He's 9, and he was heartbroken.

He wanted to know why he had to die. (I agree)

He asked to see his grave and his dad took him and they stood there awhile and he said "I'm sorry Simon". It was horrible.

Of course I lost it.

I have him under a tree with flowers, just outside my front porch. I needed him close. And I'm working on making him a cross.

I still really, really miss him.

[SophieRose]

Oh, Breny. It will probably take longer than 15 days to stop crying. What a sweet boy to want to see Simon's grave and it is wonderful that you allowed him to share in your grief. Children feel the loss also, and they are so innocent if they have never experienced death.

When you are able to share pictures of Simon's grave, we would love to see them. You see, it brings comfort to all of us and helps ease our pain when we can talk.

Thinking of you and sending a hug with this reply. Warmly, Deborah

[DENISE517]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know what you are going through. Its so terrible and sometimes you wonder how in the world you will ever get by without them. My YT friends have helped me through it. We are here if you need us. I'll be praying for you.

[nvnvgirl]

I'm so sorry for your loss. From the last year and a half, I know it's probably going to take you a lot longer than a couple of weeks to get thru this period. I lost my 2 parrots just a year ago (one at a time), and it's still hard for me to go an entire day without shedding a few tears over them. I do find that having a lot of pictures of them and mementos is helping me though. I think maybe at first, it might have made it a little more difficult (but I don't really think that things could have been any sadder than they already were). Now though, it makes me happy to see them and remember all the great times we shared, and all the love. I know that they're not suffering anymore and that makes me feel a little better too. When you spend your life trying to make sure that they're loved and well cared for, the last thing you want is for them to suffer. And I think you were lucky that you could be there with him at the end; I know it's a sad thing when you see the look in their eyes, but I believe that they know that you're there for them and that everything is ok.
I'm glad that you have a spot that is close to you for him, and I pray for your pain to subside into happy and loving memories of your dear Simon.

[rontiss1]

[i KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. YOUR LOVE FOR SIMON. I WENT THROUGH THE SAME EXPERIENCE ONLY ABOUT 2 MONTHS AGO WITH MY TEACUP MALTESE. CRUMB WAS ONLY 9 WEEKS OLD WHEN I GOT HER HOME. I GOT HER HOME ON A SATURDAY, THEN THE FOLLOWING WEDNESDAY I TOOK MY FRIEND TO THE HOSPITAL. HE WAS HAVING SURGERY DONE. I LEFT CRUMB WITH HER WATER, FOOD AND TOYS. I THOUGHT NOTHING OF IT THAT DAY. I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN A SITTER. ANYWAY, I WAS GONE FROM ABOUT 9:AM TO ABOUT 3 PM. I WAS DRIVING FROM HOLLYWOOD TO THE SAN FERNANDO VALLEY. WHEN I ENTERED THE TOWNHOME AND WENT DIRECTLY TO CRUMB'S CRATE, I SAW HER THERE STRETCHED OUT DEAD! HER EYES WERE STILL OPEN, IF YOU EVER SAW A GROWN MAN CRY, I WAS THE ONE. I CRIED AND CRIED LIKE A BABY. I DIDNT EVEN CRY LIKE THAT FOR A PERSON. CRUMB WAS A PERSON TO ME. EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT EVEN HAVE HER FOR A WEEK. I CALLED THE BREEDER, AND HE TOLD ME TO MEET HIM AT THE VETS HERE IN RESEDA, NEARBY. DRIVING MY BABY DEAD IN HER CRIB WITH HER FAVORITE BLANKET WAS THE WORST DRIVE I HAD IN MY LIFE. I MET THE BREEDER AND THE DR WAS THERE, THEY PERFORMED AN AUTOPSY ON CRUMB AND TOLD ME SHE HAD SOME KIND OFF LIVER/KIDNEY FAILURE. THE BREEDER TOLD ME I WOULD BE GETTING ANOTHER DOG. AT THAT TIME I WASNT EVEN THINKING OF THAT. SO TIME WENT BY, AND THE BREEDER GAVE ME "BOOBAH". AT THE TIME SHE WEIGHED 3LBS, 1 OZ. THE MOMENT SHE SAW ME SHE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME. FULL OF KISSES AND ATTENTION. SO FAR, MY STRONG FEELINGS FOR CRUMB ARE STILL THERE, EVERY SO OFTEN I THINK OF HER BUT BOOBAH BRINGS A LOT OF JOY INTO MY HEART. I AM GOING TO WAR ABOUT LEARNING ABOUT YORKIES AND SOAKING UP AS MUCH INFO AS POSSIBLE.
SO, SIMON IS IN HEAVEN, I PRAY FOR YOUR LOSS, AND JUST LIKE ME, ALL WILL BE BETTER. TAKE CARE...GILBERT